Do your best and forget the rest!
I'm back from Tennessee and I can't believe really and truly how fat I let myself get again. It's crazy!! Jesus! I look so awful in the pictures of me that were taken last week. I mean hello double chin! Shit!
I got my lazy ass up to do Yoga X today because honestly I have no choice, I HAVE TO GET THIS WEIGHT OFF! If I don't get back to the size where I can fit the clothes that I own what the hell am I going to wear over the summer when I go back to work at camp? How embarrassing will it be to have the head of nutrition not even able to button her pants?? Yuck! I am so disgusted with myself that I let myself balloon up to the 160's again. I mean 160!!
As if the clothes not fitting isn't motivation enough, I also confessed not fitting into my clothes to Nicole and Nicole so that keeps me accountable because I will see them both this summer and I know the first thing they will be on the lookout for is whether or not I can fasten my pants. *sigh*
Something I will be doing differently this time around is giving up my beloved Nigerian food, not just for weight loss but because I think I've been reinfected with the H-pylori bacteria and so I am having digestive issues again and all the spices in Nigerian cuisine is just suicide mission to my poor ineffective stomach bacterias right now :( But that's okay there are plenty of American foods that I love and are so easy to prepare. I need to add more food and recipes to my daily menus on enbonnesante tomorrow. What else...
Oh yes, I wanted to talk about Yoga X some more. I am so happy that my wrists are better (still not 100% but so much better). I mean I was able to go to full wheel AND I even succeeded in holding the crane for a few seconds (something unheard of in the past) so I am proud. For an out of shape chubby chic I did really well with the asanas and my half moon and triangle pose were exceptional!
I refuse to look ahead though because I always lose sight of the real goal when I do that plus it almost always prolongs things. So I'm going to take it one day at a time. It's a 90 day program but instead I will look at it as one day (at a time) thing. I will plan my meals one day at a time instead of a week ahead because for some reason I do better that way. Less freaking out and less dauting it seems if I just take it one day at a time. I am confident that I will do this, finally, because I am changing so many things and I am not giving myself a false sense of pride, encouragement, confidence or bravado. I might also abandon my other journal for a while to focus on this one, I am not sure yet (because as I said one day at a time) but I will let my other flist know if in fact I do do that so they can have the option to keep up with me here or not.
Alright it's time for my long awaited shower and then tomorrow's menu planning followed by the reading of my latest novel (Jane Millionaire) and then it's off to sleep. Tomorrow is Cardio X and I'm fitting to BRING IT! And in the words of my trainer Tony Horton I am going to "do my best, and forget the rest!"
I got my lazy ass up to do Yoga X today because honestly I have no choice, I HAVE TO GET THIS WEIGHT OFF! If I don't get back to the size where I can fit the clothes that I own what the hell am I going to wear over the summer when I go back to work at camp? How embarrassing will it be to have the head of nutrition not even able to button her pants?? Yuck! I am so disgusted with myself that I let myself balloon up to the 160's again. I mean 160!!
As if the clothes not fitting isn't motivation enough, I also confessed not fitting into my clothes to Nicole and Nicole so that keeps me accountable because I will see them both this summer and I know the first thing they will be on the lookout for is whether or not I can fasten my pants. *sigh*
Something I will be doing differently this time around is giving up my beloved Nigerian food, not just for weight loss but because I think I've been reinfected with the H-pylori bacteria and so I am having digestive issues again and all the spices in Nigerian cuisine is just suicide mission to my poor ineffective stomach bacterias right now :( But that's okay there are plenty of American foods that I love and are so easy to prepare. I need to add more food and recipes to my daily menus on enbonnesante tomorrow. What else...
Oh yes, I wanted to talk about Yoga X some more. I am so happy that my wrists are better (still not 100% but so much better). I mean I was able to go to full wheel AND I even succeeded in holding the crane for a few seconds (something unheard of in the past) so I am proud. For an out of shape chubby chic I did really well with the asanas and my half moon and triangle pose were exceptional!
I refuse to look ahead though because I always lose sight of the real goal when I do that plus it almost always prolongs things. So I'm going to take it one day at a time. It's a 90 day program but instead I will look at it as one day (at a time) thing. I will plan my meals one day at a time instead of a week ahead because for some reason I do better that way. Less freaking out and less dauting it seems if I just take it one day at a time. I am confident that I will do this, finally, because I am changing so many things and I am not giving myself a false sense of pride, encouragement, confidence or bravado. I might also abandon my other journal for a while to focus on this one, I am not sure yet (because as I said one day at a time) but I will let my other flist know if in fact I do do that so they can have the option to keep up with me here or not.
Alright it's time for my long awaited shower and then tomorrow's menu planning followed by the reading of my latest novel (Jane Millionaire) and then it's off to sleep. Tomorrow is Cardio X and I'm fitting to BRING IT! And in the words of my trainer Tony Horton I am going to "do my best, and forget the rest!"