I have been recognising more and more lately just how deeply I have internalised the idea of mental health issues as being a weakness.  This frustrates the hell out of me because intellectually I don't believe that.  When I have friends who are dealing with mental health issues, I don't think of them as weak, or lazy, or somehow failures at life - ( Read more... )

So I took yesterday off and went to the doctor. He agreed that my migraines and my increased difficulty sleeping and coccoonishness are related to my increased stress what with the job search and having to move and all that. We're going to try upping my dosage of Wellbutrin, and seeing if that works before we talk about changing medications ( Read more... )

This post is a wonderful essay about the realities of living with clinical depression. Everything she describes, I have experienced, and far far too frequently. Maybe if more people had understood this disease, I wouldn't be looking for a new job right now.

Well, summer has come to Louisiana at last. We skipped spring altogether this year. Today it is 85F and sunny. Don't get me wrong, I love winter. But after months of unseasonable (for this climate) cold and almost neverending rain, it is remarkable how much better the sun makes me feel. I'm quite certain that at least a portion of the ( Read more... )

Today seems to be a day of whinging, I guess. That happens when I'm stuck on the desk on a weekend and have too much time to think ( Read more... )

I've really sucked at updating LJ lately, except for book reviews and such. So here's a little of what's been going on with me lately ( Read more... )

I am tired, moody, unmotivated, and have a very bad headache. And it's raining.

There, through the broken branches, go
The ravens of unresting thought;
Flying, crying, to and fro,
Cruel claw and hungry throat,
Or else they stand and sniff the wind,
And shake their ragged wings; alas!
Thy tender eyes grow all unkind:
Gaze no more in the bitter glass.

[edit: this is not by me. It's part of "The Two Trees" by W. B. Yeats]

I was wondering, in the contemplative way I tend to do when depressed, what effect if any other people with depression feel the internet has on their condition ( Read more... )

Today (for me) has barely started and yet it sucks more than a day has sucked in a long time. I was up half the night (and dutifully did work while I was up) so I sent an email saying I'd be working from home this morning. When I finally got to sleep, I had a dream of this post-apocalyptic world in which a bunch of my (in-dream) friends had been ( Read more... )