302 [YamaShi] You Got It All
Title: You Got It All
Author: macy
Pairing: YamaShi, OhgoJima
Genre: Fluff, Angsty-ish? though not really. this is very light compared to the first two.
Rating: G
AN:
-unbetaed. five-minutes-fic.
-sequel of Breath and When She Cries. there are spoilers here of those two fics, so if you're planning to read all three, read those two first. :)
-inspired by a Host fanfiction.
-i am not back. this is just something i could squeeze from my brain since i have extra time right now (cause I have flu. watta life.) anyway, i feel like haven't written in so long, so i hope this is okay. please tell me your opinions in the comments. thank you. ^^
-i used this title since the first prequels' are also from songs. :D
Mirai's POV
I didn’t realize I was smiling until he called my name.
"Mirai?" Ryosuke, who was sitting besides me called, a smile in his voice as he said my name.
"Yeah?" I said, a little distractedly, as I hastily pulled away my gaze from the scene.
"What were you looking at?" He asked.
"Nothing, really." I said, but he had already stretched towards me and looked at where I was looking seconds ago.
"Oh." He just said, and I could hear the sadness in his voice as he realized I was staring at him. At Yuto.
I looked at him, a little worried. Even though we have been together--as in for real for a few years now, he was still a little insecure about him. No matter how much I explained that I had moved on. He still thinks he's only second to Yuto.
I watched as he withdrew a little away, looking down so I wouldn't see the sorrow in his eyes. He would not resent me if I still felt something for Yuto. That was just how he loves me.
I raised my hand to him and held on to his hand.
"What?" I asked him, even though I already knew what was going in his head.
"It's nothing." He said, smiling sadly at me.
"You're jealous." I said, with a little smile. It was really unbelievable how someone can love me as much as he did. Especially when I know he deserves better. When I know I don't deserve him.
He sighed and just looked away, not contradicting me.
"How many times have we talked about this?" I asked him, tugging at his hand and wishing he would look at me again, and just say what's on his mind.
"I don't really blame you if you still feel… for Yuto." He said very quietly.
"I love him." I told him. He looked at me sharply, and I wanted to slapped myself when I saw just how much my words hurt him. So I continued hastily, "Because he's my friend." I told him, but he didn't look convinced.
"He will always be someone special for me, because he is part of what made me who I am-" I gestured to myself, "-today. But that's just it. I don't love him like Suzuka loves him. Or like how I love you."
Ryosuke kept quiet, just looking at me. Maybe searching my eyes for any lies. He probably thought I was only saying all these to make him feel better.
"I'm not sure." I said, feeling the need to continue. "But I think Yuto and I got too idealistic. When we were young, he was the ideal boyfriend… and I guess he thought I was the ideal girlfriend as well. We were idealistic about everything. Everything went smooth, everyone were happy and even envious of us. We were perfect. Too perfect… But that wasn't what a relationship is supposed to be. We never really looked at our differences and only saw a perfect couple, even if we weren't. We were far from it. I started having doubts, especially when Yuto started talking about marriage. And then I only saw the negative sides of everything. Or maybe I was looking for it… And then, well, you know what happens next."
He had laced our fingers as I explained. When I looked at his face, I couldn't really read his expression.
I smiled at him, nevertheless. "And then, they happened. And then you started chasing after me, and I couldn't really understand why. I really don't deserve you." I told him sincerely.
"Mirai…"
"I really don't." I said firmly. "You are just so good… and I… We don't balance. You always give, and I always take. And I always feel selfish because even though I'm not worthy of you, I still want you. I can't let you go cause I love you." I said, not really declaring anything, just stating a fact.
He didn't say anything for a while and just look at me. Then, slowly he smiled, looking sheepish.
"I'm yours. All of me. And don't say you don't deserve me. I'm not--"
"Even if I feel like I don't deserve you, I'm still not about to give you to someone else. Over my dead body." I said, with a little laugh. "I'm yours. All of me."
He grinned at me, looking so very happy that I couldn't help but laugh again. He scratched at his head, blushing a little.
"Anyway." I said as I squeezed his hand. "I wasn't actually looking at him. I was looking at them."
Ryosuke looked at the scene before as again and smiled. "Oh…" He just said. Besides Yuto was Suzuka. The two were laughing about something Yuto said.
"I'm a little amused at how this all turned out like this." I told Ryosuke as I watched the two with him. "I mean… when we were little, weren't our fans always paired me with you, and then Yuto and Suzuka? Where the hell did the idea of Yuto and Mirai came, really?" I asked rhetorically.
"Yeah. You two were idiots." Ryosuke said teasingly.
I snatched my hand away from him, feigning annoyance. He laughed. He then tugged at me and made me look at him. Then he leaned in and touch his nose to mine and rubbed them together. I couldn't help but laugh.
But then there was a flash and both of us turned to Yuto, who was holding a camera.
"That's going to the prenup video!" He declared, grinning at us.
"Yuto!" I said, in mock-anger.
"What? You can't tell me what to do, you're not the boss of me anymore. Suzu is." He said. During the first years of our friendship after our messy breakup, it was very awkward, and Yuto had started this ongoing joke about me being a tyrant during our relationship. Ironically, that had helped eased the tension. And now, the habit just stuck.
I was about to retort-- the usual thing with us, but then I realized Ryosuke was laughing. It wasn't just me who stared at him, even Yuto. And then he looked back at me and smiled, looking relieved. So it wasn't only me who noticed Ryosuke's insecurities. And now it seems he had gotten over that. I smiled back at Yuto and then turned to Ryosuke and playfully hit him.
"Don't you dare laugh!" I told him, trying hard not to laugh myself.
He only started laughing harder. "I see what you mean, Yuto-kun." He just said.
END.
Author: macy
Pairing: YamaShi, OhgoJima
Genre: Fluff, Angsty-ish? though not really. this is very light compared to the first two.
Rating: G
AN:
-unbetaed. five-minutes-fic.
-sequel of Breath and When She Cries. there are spoilers here of those two fics, so if you're planning to read all three, read those two first. :)
-inspired by a Host fanfiction.
-i am not back. this is just something i could squeeze from my brain since i have extra time right now (cause I have flu. watta life.) anyway, i feel like haven't written in so long, so i hope this is okay. please tell me your opinions in the comments. thank you. ^^
-i used this title since the first prequels' are also from songs. :D
Mirai's POV
I didn’t realize I was smiling until he called my name.
"Mirai?" Ryosuke, who was sitting besides me called, a smile in his voice as he said my name.
"Yeah?" I said, a little distractedly, as I hastily pulled away my gaze from the scene.
"What were you looking at?" He asked.
"Nothing, really." I said, but he had already stretched towards me and looked at where I was looking seconds ago.
"Oh." He just said, and I could hear the sadness in his voice as he realized I was staring at him. At Yuto.
I looked at him, a little worried. Even though we have been together--as in for real for a few years now, he was still a little insecure about him. No matter how much I explained that I had moved on. He still thinks he's only second to Yuto.
I watched as he withdrew a little away, looking down so I wouldn't see the sorrow in his eyes. He would not resent me if I still felt something for Yuto. That was just how he loves me.
I raised my hand to him and held on to his hand.
"What?" I asked him, even though I already knew what was going in his head.
"It's nothing." He said, smiling sadly at me.
"You're jealous." I said, with a little smile. It was really unbelievable how someone can love me as much as he did. Especially when I know he deserves better. When I know I don't deserve him.
He sighed and just looked away, not contradicting me.
"How many times have we talked about this?" I asked him, tugging at his hand and wishing he would look at me again, and just say what's on his mind.
"I don't really blame you if you still feel… for Yuto." He said very quietly.
"I love him." I told him. He looked at me sharply, and I wanted to slapped myself when I saw just how much my words hurt him. So I continued hastily, "Because he's my friend." I told him, but he didn't look convinced.
"He will always be someone special for me, because he is part of what made me who I am-" I gestured to myself, "-today. But that's just it. I don't love him like Suzuka loves him. Or like how I love you."
Ryosuke kept quiet, just looking at me. Maybe searching my eyes for any lies. He probably thought I was only saying all these to make him feel better.
"I'm not sure." I said, feeling the need to continue. "But I think Yuto and I got too idealistic. When we were young, he was the ideal boyfriend… and I guess he thought I was the ideal girlfriend as well. We were idealistic about everything. Everything went smooth, everyone were happy and even envious of us. We were perfect. Too perfect… But that wasn't what a relationship is supposed to be. We never really looked at our differences and only saw a perfect couple, even if we weren't. We were far from it. I started having doubts, especially when Yuto started talking about marriage. And then I only saw the negative sides of everything. Or maybe I was looking for it… And then, well, you know what happens next."
He had laced our fingers as I explained. When I looked at his face, I couldn't really read his expression.
I smiled at him, nevertheless. "And then, they happened. And then you started chasing after me, and I couldn't really understand why. I really don't deserve you." I told him sincerely.
"Mirai…"
"I really don't." I said firmly. "You are just so good… and I… We don't balance. You always give, and I always take. And I always feel selfish because even though I'm not worthy of you, I still want you. I can't let you go cause I love you." I said, not really declaring anything, just stating a fact.
He didn't say anything for a while and just look at me. Then, slowly he smiled, looking sheepish.
"I'm yours. All of me. And don't say you don't deserve me. I'm not--"
"Even if I feel like I don't deserve you, I'm still not about to give you to someone else. Over my dead body." I said, with a little laugh. "I'm yours. All of me."
He grinned at me, looking so very happy that I couldn't help but laugh again. He scratched at his head, blushing a little.
"Anyway." I said as I squeezed his hand. "I wasn't actually looking at him. I was looking at them."
Ryosuke looked at the scene before as again and smiled. "Oh…" He just said. Besides Yuto was Suzuka. The two were laughing about something Yuto said.
"I'm a little amused at how this all turned out like this." I told Ryosuke as I watched the two with him. "I mean… when we were little, weren't our fans always paired me with you, and then Yuto and Suzuka? Where the hell did the idea of Yuto and Mirai came, really?" I asked rhetorically.
"Yeah. You two were idiots." Ryosuke said teasingly.
I snatched my hand away from him, feigning annoyance. He laughed. He then tugged at me and made me look at him. Then he leaned in and touch his nose to mine and rubbed them together. I couldn't help but laugh.
But then there was a flash and both of us turned to Yuto, who was holding a camera.
"That's going to the prenup video!" He declared, grinning at us.
"Yuto!" I said, in mock-anger.
"What? You can't tell me what to do, you're not the boss of me anymore. Suzu is." He said. During the first years of our friendship after our messy breakup, it was very awkward, and Yuto had started this ongoing joke about me being a tyrant during our relationship. Ironically, that had helped eased the tension. And now, the habit just stuck.
I was about to retort-- the usual thing with us, but then I realized Ryosuke was laughing. It wasn't just me who stared at him, even Yuto. And then he looked back at me and smiled, looking relieved. So it wasn't only me who noticed Ryosuke's insecurities. And now it seems he had gotten over that. I smiled back at Yuto and then turned to Ryosuke and playfully hit him.
"Don't you dare laugh!" I told him, trying hard not to laugh myself.
He only started laughing harder. "I see what you mean, Yuto-kun." He just said.
END.