Quick Post before Going Out :)
This has been sort of a stupid week, but I definitely feel that a lot of lingering crap has been blown out of my system, and I am finding new ways to deal with stress better, communicate more effectively, and get my focus and motivation back after being sick/not great emotionally for a bit.
Still waiting on 2 out of 3 jobs I interviewed for to get back to me; still waiting on unemployment (it's been a month since I should have been getting payments and I my attempts to find out why have been foiled so far) and there have been a few poly issues that have come up between London & I. The good part is, none of the above is really a major deal, and it is all in the process of being resolved.
I don't understand quite how or why, but for awhile I seemed to have forgotten that all things do pass. Now I am realizing that certain people, occurrences, etc have been placed in my life because my brain needs to be actively reprogrammed, and I was not seeing all the signals the Universe had been sending me, saying I needed to do that for myself. So these people, happenings, etc were placed along my path to make sure that a) it gets done, and b) i finally fucking learn to deal with being vulnerable in healthier ways, and learn to see the strength in knowing when & how to ask for help.
Some of my internal systems have gone offline for awhile during this period of reprogramming, but I feel them reinstalling themselves and doubt they will ever need to go offline again. I am happy to be becoming a far better, stronger, and more productive human than I was even 3 or 6 months ago. Growth is not always pleasant, but it is necessary. I now feel more empowered to forge my own path in the world, and stop being a person that things happen to. I sort of forgot how to make things happen for myself. Never Again.
On that note, I am going out to enjoy some food and a few beerz with a friend or 2, and I am hoping that someone I miss to a rather ridiculous extent will join me this evening. Somehow, nothing lights me up quite like seeing the smile on their face. I don't expect to see them for sure, and won't be too bummed if they don't show. But if they do, it will do my heart a world of good.
:)
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Still waiting on 2 out of 3 jobs I interviewed for to get back to me; still waiting on unemployment (it's been a month since I should have been getting payments and I my attempts to find out why have been foiled so far) and there have been a few poly issues that have come up between London & I. The good part is, none of the above is really a major deal, and it is all in the process of being resolved.
I don't understand quite how or why, but for awhile I seemed to have forgotten that all things do pass. Now I am realizing that certain people, occurrences, etc have been placed in my life because my brain needs to be actively reprogrammed, and I was not seeing all the signals the Universe had been sending me, saying I needed to do that for myself. So these people, happenings, etc were placed along my path to make sure that a) it gets done, and b) i finally fucking learn to deal with being vulnerable in healthier ways, and learn to see the strength in knowing when & how to ask for help.
Some of my internal systems have gone offline for awhile during this period of reprogramming, but I feel them reinstalling themselves and doubt they will ever need to go offline again. I am happy to be becoming a far better, stronger, and more productive human than I was even 3 or 6 months ago. Growth is not always pleasant, but it is necessary. I now feel more empowered to forge my own path in the world, and stop being a person that things happen to. I sort of forgot how to make things happen for myself. Never Again.
On that note, I am going out to enjoy some food and a few beerz with a friend or 2, and I am hoping that someone I miss to a rather ridiculous extent will join me this evening. Somehow, nothing lights me up quite like seeing the smile on their face. I don't expect to see them for sure, and won't be too bummed if they don't show. But if they do, it will do my heart a world of good.
:)
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