taken from shannon's lj
[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[x] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for eyes
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x I paid for that cell phone ring.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love
[ ] I am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I eat fast food a lot
[ ] I have scars.
[ ] I've been out of this country.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ ] I love chocolate.
[x] bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] Gotten lost in your city.
[ ] Saw a shooting star
[ ] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[ ] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] I have Kissed a Stranger
[ ] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] Been in love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[ ] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[x] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day, i guess...vacations?
[ ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a motor cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done drugs
[ ] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[ ] Miss someone right now
[ ] lost a loved one
there was something in my sister's teen people magazine about suicide. i don't want to do it, but that feeling of it. that feeling like you just aren't needed, will never be needed. i'm afraid of going to a therapist because the therapist will think i'm just being paranoid. That i've spent an hour crying about nothing and i'm being hysterical. that i'm alright. because...i guess if my parents haven't seen it then why should i? my mom makes me so fucking self concious. dry skin on my face, zits on my chin, how skinny i am, how fat i am, that i'm not allowed to have stress, then i'm fucking lazy. she makes me feel something...dont' know what it is. i have so much trust in her and if she hasn't noticed it then maybe i don't need to go to a therapist. i broke down with vince the other day. after i ranted i was fine but he said i should go to a therapist. vince goes to one and i dn't think he's weak but...people depend on me. i'm afraid of what they'll think. better to lock myself away, no? they'll go away eventually. come out in one big burst. let me cry and then i'm fine. happy. no therapist needed. but...that one day when the skins on my wrist tingle a little too much...what will happen? i feel like a loser sometimes. i can still remeember eating alone. huddling in a corner of a bench trying to shrink away, eating my sandwhich silently waiting to get outside to try to find a group. i can remember being by myself. i can remember just blocking it out. i can remeber crying becuase ii wasn't normal. i didn't like having chocolate and nobody brought soda to a party, i had to ask to get some water from the fountain. i remember being teased. i remember someone tapping my shoulder, turning away and i shrugged. i didn't know what was happening and the next moment they were making fun of me. i remember trying to adapt myself to their thinking, to their words. i remmber being a follower and a loser at the same time. i rememeber being gullible, too trusting. i remember getting laughed at because i thought something was real and my 'frends' forgot to tell me it wasn't. i remember a popular smelling something in the air, he dropped his pencil and fucking crawled over to my seat to embaress me thinking the fucking smell came from me. i remember being by myself in the hallway. being asked who i was and stupidly aanswering before he spouted some stupid remark from a wrestler, how everyone laughed and i scurried away. i remember being tormented. i remember being alone. i rememeber wanting to srhink. why can't i remember happiness?
[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[x] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for eyes
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x I paid for that cell phone ring.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love
[ ] I am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I eat fast food a lot
[ ] I have scars.
[ ] I've been out of this country.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ ] I love chocolate.
[x] bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] Gotten lost in your city.
[ ] Saw a shooting star
[ ] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[ ] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] I have Kissed a Stranger
[ ] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] Been in love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[ ] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[x] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day, i guess...vacations?
[ ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a motor cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done drugs
[ ] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[ ] Miss someone right now
[ ] lost a loved one
there was something in my sister's teen people magazine about suicide. i don't want to do it, but that feeling of it. that feeling like you just aren't needed, will never be needed. i'm afraid of going to a therapist because the therapist will think i'm just being paranoid. That i've spent an hour crying about nothing and i'm being hysterical. that i'm alright. because...i guess if my parents haven't seen it then why should i? my mom makes me so fucking self concious. dry skin on my face, zits on my chin, how skinny i am, how fat i am, that i'm not allowed to have stress, then i'm fucking lazy. she makes me feel something...dont' know what it is. i have so much trust in her and if she hasn't noticed it then maybe i don't need to go to a therapist. i broke down with vince the other day. after i ranted i was fine but he said i should go to a therapist. vince goes to one and i dn't think he's weak but...people depend on me. i'm afraid of what they'll think. better to lock myself away, no? they'll go away eventually. come out in one big burst. let me cry and then i'm fine. happy. no therapist needed. but...that one day when the skins on my wrist tingle a little too much...what will happen? i feel like a loser sometimes. i can still remeember eating alone. huddling in a corner of a bench trying to shrink away, eating my sandwhich silently waiting to get outside to try to find a group. i can remember being by myself. i can remember just blocking it out. i can remeber crying becuase ii wasn't normal. i didn't like having chocolate and nobody brought soda to a party, i had to ask to get some water from the fountain. i remember being teased. i remember someone tapping my shoulder, turning away and i shrugged. i didn't know what was happening and the next moment they were making fun of me. i remember trying to adapt myself to their thinking, to their words. i remmber being a follower and a loser at the same time. i rememeber being gullible, too trusting. i remember getting laughed at because i thought something was real and my 'frends' forgot to tell me it wasn't. i remember a popular smelling something in the air, he dropped his pencil and fucking crawled over to my seat to embaress me thinking the fucking smell came from me. i remember being by myself in the hallway. being asked who i was and stupidly aanswering before he spouted some stupid remark from a wrestler, how everyone laughed and i scurried away. i remember being tormented. i remember being alone. i rememeber wanting to srhink. why can't i remember happiness?