Every day's a new day..
Well..I can honestly tell you that I have no idea if anyone reads this thing any more. I don't really care tho..it's a nice way to pass some time at work and collect my thoughts.
I'm so happy because there is one thing in life that I know for sure...and thus far it seems as though it will never change for the worse...but quite possibly for the better. I'm a little unhappy cuz sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I have come to realize (as much as thoughts still affect me) that the thought of doing something I don't particularly feel like doing is always worse than actually doing it. Like earlier today I completely did not feel like going to work..and got kinda down about it and stuff...but I stuck it out and drove out here & stuff and now I'm here and I'm not doing so bad. Well anyways..to tell you the truth I'm getting sick of working nights...
But come July I will most likely be working during the day practically full time for about 6 weeks. I have done this before back when I was 16, so hopefully I'll survive it again. I applied through the same program that got me a job at Eastern Bank...but this time I will most likely be getting a job at the lynn public library...where I have worked before. lol. Crappy pay...but my options were getting slimmer as it got deeper into vacation. I rule..haha. But at least I'll have a job for a while.
I despise change...but change can be necessary and good. Just...if I become anymore isolated from the world I am going to become a rather depressed person. But things are coming up to do this weekend, which is good....except I really really hope I get to see Joe at least Sunday considering it's our year anniversary. But even if not..I'll be a little sad..but it's alright..cuz I consider myself so lucky in the first place that I am even with him...the best boyfriend of my life...the greatest guy I've ever met.. Just..lucky..and just..wow. But those words don't even begin to describe it..
But anyways..that is life for now. And if that's a bit confusing to read..I apologize...my thoughts have been a bit mixed up. Have a good day...and I'll try to have a good night....
I'm so happy because there is one thing in life that I know for sure...and thus far it seems as though it will never change for the worse...but quite possibly for the better. I'm a little unhappy cuz sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I have come to realize (as much as thoughts still affect me) that the thought of doing something I don't particularly feel like doing is always worse than actually doing it. Like earlier today I completely did not feel like going to work..and got kinda down about it and stuff...but I stuck it out and drove out here & stuff and now I'm here and I'm not doing so bad. Well anyways..to tell you the truth I'm getting sick of working nights...
But come July I will most likely be working during the day practically full time for about 6 weeks. I have done this before back when I was 16, so hopefully I'll survive it again. I applied through the same program that got me a job at Eastern Bank...but this time I will most likely be getting a job at the lynn public library...where I have worked before. lol. Crappy pay...but my options were getting slimmer as it got deeper into vacation. I rule..haha. But at least I'll have a job for a while.
I despise change...but change can be necessary and good. Just...if I become anymore isolated from the world I am going to become a rather depressed person. But things are coming up to do this weekend, which is good....except I really really hope I get to see Joe at least Sunday considering it's our year anniversary. But even if not..I'll be a little sad..but it's alright..cuz I consider myself so lucky in the first place that I am even with him...the best boyfriend of my life...the greatest guy I've ever met.. Just..lucky..and just..wow. But those words don't even begin to describe it..
But anyways..that is life for now. And if that's a bit confusing to read..I apologize...my thoughts have been a bit mixed up. Have a good day...and I'll try to have a good night....