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I'm bored..there's things I could be doing here at work..but I felt like spreading that stuff out. Being at work is definitely a nice change from sitting at home all day, but I'm beginning to think I need a job where I have to make contact with other people..this job is probably no good for me...at least working nights here. It's so dead in here...I work from 4:30-9:30..and the only times I actually communicate with people besides talking online sometimes is between 4:30 and 5 and between 9 and 9:30. so out of the 5 hours I am here...I am completely alone for 4 of those hours. So it's probably good that I'll be done with this job in a month. But now I gutta figure out where else I should apply. I was thinking the Salem State Library, but I'm not 100% sure on that. I'll figure it out or something..I surely have a lot of time to think... lol.
My brother is moving out tomorrow..so I'm done sharing my car with 3 other people...down to sharing my car with 2 others. My family has been having car issues..and apparently my car is the only fully functioning car. So we need to either get a new car or fix the other 2..or something...anything! I can't continue to share my car. Soon I might be working days too. I decided I would rather work like afternoon-ish time...so if that can happen..I'll be happier. I guess. lol.
Do you ever feel like you're not getting any older, because while you supposedly have more responsibilities and all..people still wanna know around when you're going to get home..and all that stuff. I don't like it..I can't leave the house without informing all of where I'm going...if I'll be coming in late...if I will be around for supper and all that. And..sure..in a way it makes sense. But having to relay all that information all the time makes me feel 12. And my dad can't sleep very well at night..so he knows when I get in. I mean it's ok in some sense..but I wanna feel like no one's trying to look out for me like a kid or whatever. I wanna at least feel like if I wanted to move out I would be able to handle living without my parents watching my every move. I know they don't mean to..and they want to give me space, but in some sense this is not working. Doesn't help that I can't even have my car whenever I want to..have to ask permission for that too.
I don't wanna be spoiled or whatever, I just wanna feel like I'm being trusted and feel like I can be the adult that I am...or that I believe I am.. But that just isn't life for me..I guess. Hopefully with a little time and I little more understanding of my parents...that could be life for me some time soon. Well I better be off to finish up work and stuff..almost 2 more hours..
My brother is moving out tomorrow..so I'm done sharing my car with 3 other people...down to sharing my car with 2 others. My family has been having car issues..and apparently my car is the only fully functioning car. So we need to either get a new car or fix the other 2..or something...anything! I can't continue to share my car. Soon I might be working days too. I decided I would rather work like afternoon-ish time...so if that can happen..I'll be happier. I guess. lol.
Do you ever feel like you're not getting any older, because while you supposedly have more responsibilities and all..people still wanna know around when you're going to get home..and all that stuff. I don't like it..I can't leave the house without informing all of where I'm going...if I'll be coming in late...if I will be around for supper and all that. And..sure..in a way it makes sense. But having to relay all that information all the time makes me feel 12. And my dad can't sleep very well at night..so he knows when I get in. I mean it's ok in some sense..but I wanna feel like no one's trying to look out for me like a kid or whatever. I wanna at least feel like if I wanted to move out I would be able to handle living without my parents watching my every move. I know they don't mean to..and they want to give me space, but in some sense this is not working. Doesn't help that I can't even have my car whenever I want to..have to ask permission for that too.
I don't wanna be spoiled or whatever, I just wanna feel like I'm being trusted and feel like I can be the adult that I am...or that I believe I am.. But that just isn't life for me..I guess. Hopefully with a little time and I little more understanding of my parents...that could be life for me some time soon. Well I better be off to finish up work and stuff..almost 2 more hours..