It's as if I've compartmentalized the pain about different things with different people so that not everybody has to deal with it all. Or maybe so that not everybody knows how many little compartments of pain there are. The strangest / worst thing is that the two people up here that I would normally go to are the least well informed (they totally ( Read more... )

I took Artaius for a walk tonight already feeling more than a little depressed. I decided that making a snow angel would cheer me up... and it did! for a moment. The moment before the moment where I thought about staying there on the ground until I was numb enough to not care anymore (but not in a suicidal way). And fortunately, long before numb ( Read more... )