A new hope
Well Justin and I tried but we are not going to be able to stay in this apartment. I was so exited to be on my own, but my student loans went into de fault and we won’t be able to save any money if we stay here. Justin’s mother had called him yesterday and offered us the whole basement rent free until we had enough saved for our own house. We figure if we put aside what we would have been paying toward rent, and then we don’t have any bills to pay, that we can save 10,000 in a year.
It was a tearful decision, Justin not wanting to accept that we are screwed, and me freaking out because I will not be able to leave my paraphinillia lying around. It will not be like the other year I lived there because Justin’s parents will know I am there. It could be kind of nice, Justin’s mother, Amy, will cook dinner almost every night, their will be a yard, free utilities, a wash machine that I know works and is free! Justin has not told them we accepted their offer yet. I just feel kind of mixed about it because I just, like a month ago, moved my desk upstairs, and I put pin holes in the wall, and got our friends to bring the queen bed over in a pickup so we would not sleep like little kids on twin beds anymore. I just made it clear to Justin that we can not stay there a long time because as those of you who knew me growing up may recall my father and mother lived in his mothers basement. It started out as a temporary thing and we did not move out until after she died and I was 20. Justin assured me that he is not like my dad, you know what he said?
“I’m not with you because I knocked you up, I’m with you because I love you and I can’t live without you”
After all these days of stress and sadness it is good to be crying tears of joy. I could not have gone on that stressed out. I was having panic attacks left and right. The terror of not being able to make it in America no matter how hard you try is just overwhelming. I am really glad I found the right man to spend my life with, I wish I had found him sooner but perhaps if I had things would not have worked out so well.
I think we will go over there today; I need to figure out how I want to organize that huge room into our space. We are going to move that leather couch I swore I would never move in the place of the futon in the basement right now. Justin’s bed is actually still set up because his mom gave us the guest mattress. We will have free TV and internet and, and this is my favorite part, RECYCLING. No longer will I have to save my stuff up in bags and drive it to friend’s houses for proper disposal.
For those of you wondering how far this relocation will be, about one mile. Justin’s parents live in the same town and it will be about the same time to get to work, and I could go back to school! If I don’t have to worry about paying bills I can afford to miss whatever days of work I need to so I can at least get my associates. I wish they had mentioned this a while ago so I could have gotten all those ducks in a row, I think when it is August 2nd the school ship has sailed. Well, that should give me time to study math so I can place into a higher level course- I took trig, I am sure I can manage to not have to take remedial algebra, witch is what I tested into last time. They even have 2 programs I like, sign language interpretation and translation & child care. I want to teach history but my bachelors might be a way off and I don’t think any more 200 level or less history classes will help me because I have already taken all of them, well close to all of them. The only on I have not taken is world history the beginning of time- 1400. I took the 1400 to present, both US histories, & art history of non western cultures. I guess history classes vary by institution but what would I do with more than 12 credit hours of history? I also have taken sociology, philosophy, child psychology, English comp 1&2, political science, geography, geology, and 9 credit hours of teaching classes. So that makes 46, I also had one credit hour of gym. I just doubt it is enough for a degree because of the lack of math and the overabundance of humanities. If I had it my way I would just go sign up for more history classes, and sign language (: how I love sign language. Well, I can go on and on but I will just stop, Justin is waking up and now it is time to pay attention to the love of my life.