Jun 18, 2002 23:30
I can't stand to fly, I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find the better part of me
I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane
I'm more than a pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me
I wish that I could cry fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie about a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed, but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
Up, up and away, away from me
But it's alright, you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything
I can't stand to fly, I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride with clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
I'm only a man in a phony red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me . . . Inside of me
I'm only a man in a phony red sheet
I'm only a man looking for a dream
I'm only a man in a phony red sheet
And it's not easy . . .
It's not easy to be . . . me
Have you ever thought that you didn't have a fight left in you? Just when you think that everything is going to be alright, things change one more time for the worse. I never thought that I was a bad person, but obviously some do. I never said that I was qualified to be a youth minister. I questioned God many times when He told me to do this. I did it though . . . WHY? Because HE told me to do it!!
I am facing adversity wherever I go. I know that many people, even some reading this, think of me as a "hero". I never claimed to be that either. All that I am and all that I offer comes directly from God. Someone once told me that God does not call the qualified, but he qualifies the called. I really believe He gave me the qualifications to lead these young people and more importantly to love them. Someone wants to take that away though.
I don't give them permission to do that . . . but I don't know if that is enough. Maybe it is time that I take off my superman costume, and let everyone see that they are destroying Clark Kent. Right now, I feel like a scared little boy who thought he was following God's will, but instead he is being destroyed by Satan's plan. I still have my cape though, and as long as we can annihilate this "kryptonite" with love then we can still win. I am just afraid of the damage that has already been done.
You may see me as your "hero" . . . but when you see me bleed or see the tears . . . you will know how I really am . . . a child of God, just like you, doing the best that I can.
Pray for me, as I will pray for you. God bless you all.