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So lately I've been working on my gift registries... I ended up registered at only 2 places so far... which will probably be it... I am taking a hand-me-down (my own actually) crib and changing table, etc etc I am certainly not too proud to take from the family what's already there... so my list has been pretty low and I'm having a hard time coming up with one really. :0P I took some suggestions from people who have had children relatively recently so that way me being a first time mom doesn't go "Man! I needed that!" later on and scrimp to find a way to get it kind of thing. Well one of the things I have decided to try to do is start organizing details for the baby shower. I figured I'd just plan my own because partially I'm a semi-control freak and I think it'd be fun anyways... I don't mind at all... but then now I am getting incredibly bummed/upset/etc because tonight I talked to my mom for umpteenth time about it trying to get SOME KIND OF DETAILS and it came down to her and my grandma deciding that they don't think one will work out at all. My grandma had said "well why not just have one AFTER the baby is here.." and I am thinking ummm NO! I would like to have the things I need for her BEFORE she comes! And like I'm going to want to have a shower with her/for her after she's here. NO THANK YOU! And then my mom and grandma basically just decided that I should just have an online one only. Just like my step-brother and his wife did. And don't get me wrong I like him fine and whatever but I didn't want to do anything "just like so and so..." and the reason that they did theirs that way was because his family is spread out in Michigan and Illinois and stuff and they're in Florida and his wife has had not complications so much as not being able to travel really so they found that it was easiest for THEM. Well MY family all live in Michigan within 6 hours of each other... and they are decided that they can't/won't/don't want to make the trip up to do the shower. So I can do an online one... NOT get to see my family YET AGAIN (I never seem to get to see them...) and nobody will hang out with me and celebrate my baby coming with me... I can just sit home all alone and look at the baby shower site every 5 mins to see if anyone went to it and posted something... SHEEZ. I am SO upset about this. And I am starting to feel like I should be... Like I have the right I mean... It's my first baby :0( It would just be nice for SOMEONE to want to celebrate that with me... but nobody is.. and yeah. Also I am getting SO sick of my mom bugging me about Noelle's name. She keeps telling me that Noelle's name should be Noel. That's a guy-version of the name. NO. I don't like that. My mom keeps saying "Well you're already handicapping the girl giving her 2 middle names and now you won't even spell her first name right." That and she has been trying to get me to drop one of the 2 middle names but they both mean so much to Lee and I that we don't want to! And we won't! It's just upsetting to feel like I'm not getting any support on anything. And Lee's family won't be doing any kind of showery deal because he doesn't really have any family in the first place... Not much... so yeah. I feel so ripped off. It'd just be nice for a celebration of a baby... but I guess that won't be happening.