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blah.. i really hate this time of year.. sometimes i wish i could just swallow a bunch of pills and not wake up untill friday. yet another v-day that i'm alone. *sigh* i know i have good friends around me.. but why the hell can't i find that one special person.
then again .. the one year i did have a bf on vd.. that wasn't all that great either.. he wanted to go hang out with his roomate in arlington, didn't see why i was getting so upset over a stupid holiday.
why is it i can't find anyone? am i ugly? stupid? fat? i'd like to think not.. i'm not perfect.. and i would hate to be so.. but why am i alone?
i know part of the reason is that i don't open up to people. i need to learn to do that, to talk about my feelings.. i ideas, my dreams.. but who do i really have to talk to about it?
the only ppl i really hang out with outside of the club are glenn and pacia, sometimes darryl.. i don't even talk to my old friends from denton anymore. i useto spend every weekend hanging out with jason, sohail, don and chris (all of whom i did get to spend time with this weekend YAY!) but its not the same as it was.
ktrey? when the hell was the last time i talked to him? he was my best friend before he started dating candace..
even , my old drinkin buddy in denton.. didn't even tell me he was planning on moving in 2 months.. found out by reading his lj.(btw john.. i'm mad at you =
then again .. the one year i did have a bf on vd.. that wasn't all that great either.. he wanted to go hang out with his roomate in arlington, didn't see why i was getting so upset over a stupid holiday.
why is it i can't find anyone? am i ugly? stupid? fat? i'd like to think not.. i'm not perfect.. and i would hate to be so.. but why am i alone?
i know part of the reason is that i don't open up to people. i need to learn to do that, to talk about my feelings.. i ideas, my dreams.. but who do i really have to talk to about it?
the only ppl i really hang out with outside of the club are glenn and pacia, sometimes darryl.. i don't even talk to my old friends from denton anymore. i useto spend every weekend hanging out with jason, sohail, don and chris (all of whom i did get to spend time with this weekend YAY!) but its not the same as it was.
ktrey? when the hell was the last time i talked to him? he was my best friend before he started dating candace..
even , my old drinkin buddy in denton.. didn't even tell me he was planning on moving in 2 months.. found out by reading his lj.(btw john.. i'm mad at you =