let go

[gusterbrown]

Yeah, so, I am just going to have to let go of Ben. I don't know how I even feel about him anymore. It's like I've just gotten so used to having to fight for people, it's almost like that's what I thrive on. But, I can't fight anymore for him. I don't let it affect my daily life, thank goodness, like I did with Brandon. It helps that I'm not

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[k9soul]

I hurt for you, believe it or not, in the midst of everything, I hate seeing you hurt too. We're also drawn together through this. It's a friendship that means the world to me and I hope mine can help you too, even though I feel somewhat incapable of being of strong support right now. Just know I'm thinking of you too. Sending you lots of hugs.. I think we both need them.

[gusterbrown]

Just knowing that you are there is plenty. And, it helps to know I'll get through this, because I know that you will, too. Thanks, Jessica. It means so much that you took the time to read my silly problem. ;) Cuz in all actuality, it is pretty silly, in the scheme of things. But, it still hurts like hell, now...but, that's life. And, if nothing else, I have that. At least I can feel pain, it's better than being numb. I know a few people that don't feel anything, and, I think that would be the worst way to be.

[k9soul]

Your problem isn't silly at all. No hurt to the heart is ever small or trivial. It may not be of the same scope as some, but it's a pain, a hurt, and still deserves support and understanding. Breaking your favorite coffee mug might be a silly problem ;), but certainly a hurt to the heart never is, in my opinion, whether it be from a boyfriend, a spouse, a family member, or a friend. I agree with you that feeling something, even if it is pain, is better than numbness. Although sometimes if the pain is too great, numbness for awhile can be a blessing. But to go into that kind of numbness permanently is something I'd never want to do.

[dukesadog]

You know, I really miss having a special relationship but I don't miss all the hurt one bit. It is hard to get through. Maybe he's one of those people who can't just be friends after breaking up. I know I have trouble with that. If I can't love the ones I want, I would rather them not be in my life at all because it hurts too much. I wish I could have been so well grounded as you are when I were your age. Sounds like you'll be fine but I know it will still hurt.