jealousy.
"im sorry"
words i hear often. those 2 words describe my relationship from top to bottom. but wait, what relationship. us, the so called friends.
replace "im sorry" with "i love you" and thats what i want to be hearing.
last night i think i finally hit rock bottom.
the jealousy flooded over all my emotions and took over. i dont know when i became like this. maybe its because im crazy in love with you, maybe its because ive become so protective of you. maybe im jealous because i want to be the girl your dancing with, talking to, smiling and communicating with. maybe im jealous because i want to be the girl in your arms, the only girl for you right now.
"i love you" is what i hear often. but im not sure you mean it.
grab me, look me in the eyes, take control, and tell me you love me from deep down inside, and maybe i will believe you.
no more "you know how i feel". tell me, explain to me.
i dont need a guy who will buy me expensive things. i need you. i want to be with you, and when were together, seem like nothing else matters.
because thats what love is.
if you asked me to describe what love is, it would be pain, tears, 1000 knives stabbing into my back. because thats what ive experienced. in these past 8 or 9 months, ive experienced highs and lows. those high and lows in the past month have made me into who i am right now.
i dont like this new me. i like the old me, the happy me.
im miserable, im bitter, im always in a bad mood. when im in your arms, im happy, when im not, this smile across my face is fake, dont beleive it.
im so crazy about you, everything you put me through i took, and i still love you.
cant this be special? my feelings for you are so strong, that i cant just turn away.
and today, im telling you this.
for one day in your life, your going to listen to what comes from my heart.
no telling me to relax, no telling me to calm down, this is what i need.
last night made me realize a few things. i dont need you, i want you. this want has grown and grown to where i am now; feeling like this.
this is what i know for a fact:
that i want you, im crazy about you, i always have been thats why this is so hard for me, and i would appreciate your help. im jealous because i want to be that girl, im all this right now, because i want you to be mine again, and i want to be happy again. i want you to hold my hand and never let go.
your the only guy ive been kissing for the last 9 months, and for right now, i want you to be the only guy im kissing and close with.
rock bottom.
where i am right now.
i cant really describe to you what im feeling, because its mixed emotions.
today im telling you this. today everything is being let out of me, no holding back.
because i need to know where i stand, and i need to know where you stand. after all this, i probably will still wait for you, just because i know that im not going to be over you. if you understand this, understand me, then some things should change.
when we talk, i dont want you to say anything until i let everything out from my heart. some things you havent heard before, some things you have.
this is me, this is who i am.
i think with my feelings, because my feelings take over everything in me, my feelings towards you are so strong, that i cant think of anything else.
i know what i want, and im fully prepared for anything to happen is it does.
you need to think, after what i say to you, you need to think for a while.
rock bottom is what i hit last night,
but maybe i will be okay.
but probably not.
i hope things work out for the better.
this is me, this is everything i am, everything i have to give.
take it or leave it,
you chose to leave it,
but your still comming back for it.
words i hear often. those 2 words describe my relationship from top to bottom. but wait, what relationship. us, the so called friends.
replace "im sorry" with "i love you" and thats what i want to be hearing.
last night i think i finally hit rock bottom.
the jealousy flooded over all my emotions and took over. i dont know when i became like this. maybe its because im crazy in love with you, maybe its because ive become so protective of you. maybe im jealous because i want to be the girl your dancing with, talking to, smiling and communicating with. maybe im jealous because i want to be the girl in your arms, the only girl for you right now.
"i love you" is what i hear often. but im not sure you mean it.
grab me, look me in the eyes, take control, and tell me you love me from deep down inside, and maybe i will believe you.
no more "you know how i feel". tell me, explain to me.
i dont need a guy who will buy me expensive things. i need you. i want to be with you, and when were together, seem like nothing else matters.
because thats what love is.
if you asked me to describe what love is, it would be pain, tears, 1000 knives stabbing into my back. because thats what ive experienced. in these past 8 or 9 months, ive experienced highs and lows. those high and lows in the past month have made me into who i am right now.
i dont like this new me. i like the old me, the happy me.
im miserable, im bitter, im always in a bad mood. when im in your arms, im happy, when im not, this smile across my face is fake, dont beleive it.
im so crazy about you, everything you put me through i took, and i still love you.
cant this be special? my feelings for you are so strong, that i cant just turn away.
and today, im telling you this.
for one day in your life, your going to listen to what comes from my heart.
no telling me to relax, no telling me to calm down, this is what i need.
last night made me realize a few things. i dont need you, i want you. this want has grown and grown to where i am now; feeling like this.
this is what i know for a fact:
that i want you, im crazy about you, i always have been thats why this is so hard for me, and i would appreciate your help. im jealous because i want to be that girl, im all this right now, because i want you to be mine again, and i want to be happy again. i want you to hold my hand and never let go.
your the only guy ive been kissing for the last 9 months, and for right now, i want you to be the only guy im kissing and close with.
rock bottom.
where i am right now.
i cant really describe to you what im feeling, because its mixed emotions.
today im telling you this. today everything is being let out of me, no holding back.
because i need to know where i stand, and i need to know where you stand. after all this, i probably will still wait for you, just because i know that im not going to be over you. if you understand this, understand me, then some things should change.
when we talk, i dont want you to say anything until i let everything out from my heart. some things you havent heard before, some things you have.
this is me, this is who i am.
i think with my feelings, because my feelings take over everything in me, my feelings towards you are so strong, that i cant think of anything else.
i know what i want, and im fully prepared for anything to happen is it does.
you need to think, after what i say to you, you need to think for a while.
rock bottom is what i hit last night,
but maybe i will be okay.
but probably not.
i hope things work out for the better.
this is me, this is everything i am, everything i have to give.
take it or leave it,
you chose to leave it,
but your still comming back for it.