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and not the best start to the day. weird dream about having time-controlling relating sex with matt's housemate's boyfriend. then skip to being in the sea with all of my old friends, going through like a slideshow of old photos. my face in the water, me holding nini's bleeding foot in the sea, us underwater. skip to night, we stayed on the beach. we're freezing. go to a toilet to pee. i wait for a cubicle, get one. nige jumps over the wall and joins me, starts talking to me. he's wearing nothing but black speedos. he's happy and joking, and unlike most dreams, i don't know he's dead in reality in this one. he's talking but i touch his chest and tell him to go away whilst i pee. he laughs and i wake up.
i miss you nige.