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2:09am. officially three years since nige's death. i don't know how i feel. scared and hurt and lonely and horrible but calm i guess. there is nothing to do but continue. i miss you nige. i miss you a lot. i miss you insulting me and calling me frog eyes and teasing me and telling me suicide is stupid and teasing me about being so 'depressed.' i ( Read more... )

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seriously, when did michael buble get so sexy? omg.

i haven't been sleeping well lately at all. i've been surviving on <3-4 hours sleep every night which is pretty terrible for me because i love my sleep. it's fucking work. they keep giving me early shifts so i think 'well i may as well just stay up all night' and then when i want to sleep i ( Read more... )

yesterday wasn't nearly as bad as i thought it was going to be. i think last year and this year i think something awful will happen. but it won't .. because it already has. he is dead and nothing will change that, the worst has already happened. so i remembered and was sad and thought about the good times and then got on with it. in the end i got ( Read more... )

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