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0. Do you cut? yes
1. Who do you hide SI from? Ppl at school, my parents, my friends
2. Who knows about it? Lots of ppl I think
3. How long has it been since you last cut? 2 days
4. Have you ever tried to commit suicide before? Yes, I lost count after 15
5. Where do you usually cut? Wrists, hips, and thighs
6. When you cut, who's usually the first to find out? Gareth, or Benny
7. What's your worst experience with a fresh cut? Wouldn’t stop bleeding
8. Do you have a fascination with scabs? no
9. Do you like scars, yes or no? depends
10. Do you name your razor? I did…Mr. Hate, but I changed it cuz I named my panda that…its now Demon
11. What other methods of SI do you use? Biting nails until they bleed, shove pins in my arm
12. Do you dislike the term "self mutilation"? no, it sounds sexy
13. What various ways do you use to hide cuts? Bracelets and long sleeves
14. Once cuts heal, do you still hide the scars? no
15. Ever been institutionalized/hospitalized for SI'ing? I should have been but I always seem to get away with it
16. Do you ever run into problems with hiding cuts (i.e: gym change rooms)? nope
17. What's the best part about cutting to you? the feeling you get from it, and the realse it gives
18. Do you know of any songs that talk about SI? Yes
19. Have you ever been caught cutting/burning, etc? nope
20. What instrument do you use to cut? razor blade, scissors, broken glass, knife, safety pins, needles
21. What causes you to cut? anger, fustration, fear, sadness, emptyness, numbness, hatred... much more too...
22. What do you feel afterwards? relaxed... calm... tired
23. What is your closest Close Call? Forgeting to drain the bathtub
24. How long have you been doing it? two and a half years
25. Do you keep a razor in your bag? nope
26. Ever needed stitches for a cut so deep? i should half the time..but I aint going to no hospital…
27. Do you have someone like a therapist you talk to regularly? Use too
28. Are your parents divorced? No...
29. Do you label yourself a cutter? yes
30. How long have you cut for? 2 1/2 years
31. Why did you start? To prove someone I wasn’t selfish…
32. When did you start? SI in general? Age 10 or 11 sometime in oct.
33. What did you use? razorblades
34. What do you use now? Mainly razorblades
35. Have you ever tried to quit before? yes
36. What's the longest time you've went without cutting? 3 months
37. Have you tried alternative coping methods other then cutting? yes
38. Why do you like to cut (if you do)? It makes things feel better and alright...
39. Why don't you like cutting (if you don?t): It hurts the people I love
40. Have you ever needed stitches before? yes
41. Have you ever been to the hospital for cutting or issues relating to cutting? Yes, punched a window on my birthday…glass was in my hand and I was bleeding all over the place
42. Who all knows about your cutting? friends, parents, and a few teachers
43. Have you ever tried different methods of hurting yourself (i.e. burning)? yes
44. Would you advise people to stop or start cutting? I would advise people not to start...
45. Have you ever talked to a professional about your cutting/issues relating to cutting? yes
46. Do you like the taste/look of blood? the look and taste
47. Do you ever cover or conceal scars/cuts, if so why? I dont like my family seeing them...
48. What is your opinion on cutting? Its an addiction...
49. Have you ever taken pictures of your cuts/scars, if so why? yes... to show someone who wanted to see...
50. Do you think there is a connection between mental illness (depression, anxiety disorders etc.) and self-injury? yes
51. Is there a certain song that describes how/when/why you cut? yes
52. Do you like scars/scabs? yes
53. Do you pick at scars/scabs? no