random stuff
5:15 am comes very early. I have decided I need to try to go to bed earlier. I have been going to bed at about 11:30/12. But I have decided that the reason I have been going to bed that late isn't really necessary. I was taking my b.c. pill at 11:30, but after Rob's suggestion I'll take it at 9. That way if I'm tired around then I can just go to bed, or if I'm still not quite tired I can wait until about 10:30. Maybe as late as 11 sometimes. Hopefully that'll help and I won't be so tired at 5:30 in the afternoon. I've kept from taking a nap most days. So I fall asleep fine at night.
Tomorrow is my one day that's different in my whole schedule. I go in at 10 tomorrow. So it'll definitely be sleeping in for me! I'll be getting to work at the time that I'm normally taking my lunch break! I'll be the "midshifter."
I think I like the new b.c. pill I'm on. It so far has fixed the problems I had with the last one. My cramps are back down to one day and fairly well controlled with Advil. And flow is VERY manageable.
I had an awkward situation at work today... There was a woman who went through Joann's line returning some baby stuff she'd been given as gifts. She already had 3 beautiful girls and was pregnant. She was explaining that when you've already had 3 kids you pretty much have everything you need. So that's why she didn't need the things she was returning. I don't remember how it came up but she said something about "Yeah, this one was a surprise." and then motioned to her youngest daughter and said "Kind of like her." and then she proceeds to tell us about how they'd been trying to prevent "this one" (motions to belly) as well as "that one" (motions to youngest child). and how now they've gone the "permanent rout" since "nothing they do to prevent it works." I'm just like... We're strangers. Why do you feel its necessary to share these intimate details of your life whether the youngest child is old enough to comprehend what you're saying or not. The oldest definitely was old enough to understand. I'd say she was at least 8 or 10. And the youngest was probably... 3? It all just kind of bothered me.
Not really related, but I've been thinking about children a lot lately again. Not in the "Ohh I can't wait to have a baby!" sense, but more in the "You know, honestly, I think I'd be perfectly happy if it doesn't happen, or at the very least not for several more years." It's definitely a different feeling. But I got to thinking about it and I realized... I love things exactly as they are. I love the freedom Rob and I have. I love our interactions with one another. I love the cats being our "children" (but not really.) I love everything about the way our "family" works. I don't want anything to change that. I don't like the thought of how things would likely change.
I still think that if it does happen eventually, it'll be good and OK and wonderful. But I THINK I have reached the point where I'm not anxiously awaiting it. I THINK I have finally decided and found that I am happy the way things are.
In other news... I can't stop being hungry. And its annoying. I probably need to go back to really working on eating healthier and being more contentious of what I'm consuming. I've regained a lot of weight. And I can tell I just don't feel as good. Maybe that's something I'll try to work on with my newfound daylight hours. Walking some. I still don't like walking alone though.
But yeah. So in the morning whether I eat anything or not, by my lunch time at 10a, my stomach is LOUDLY growling and I am so hungry. Then when I get home from work at 3:30 or so, all I can think about is "what do we have to eat?" And right now... I ate when I got home from work (just munching) and we went to Burger King (Rob was craving a Whopper), but I feel hungry again. I'm trying to just ignore it.
I have noticed a serious problem with fast food though. No matter what it seems, fast food (BK, McD's is what we usually get and I notice the phenomenon) always leaves me hungry. I never "large size" things. But even right after finishing what food I have, I still feel hungry. I don't know if I'm just eating too fast... or if there's something else going on. But it just isn't satisfying usually. I need to start paying closer attention to what leaves me feeling better satisfied and get that more often when we go out to eat. The frustrating thing is if I don't get whatever sounds the best to me, and I get something else thinking it'll be better for whatever reason (price or health), it doesn't feel satisfying either.
Something that irritates me is when I suggest a movie to someone, and they say "no dont think i would care fer it" and when I ask why they say "just dont" it really irritates me. Because if someone could give me a legitimate reason such as... I don't agree with the subject matter, that genera of movies I don't like, I don't like the main actor... anything, I'd be willing to shrug and say "OK, that's cool. I can respect that." But if you won't give me a reason and just say that you "just dont" think you'd "care fer it" it just feels closed minded. If you can tell me why you don't think you'd like it, I can either support or suggest why that opinion might not be the case in this particular movie. If you "just dont" then I either lose respect or I start making up reasons why you wouldn't like it and then try to explain those reasons away.
what brings this up? A friend mentioned being lonely and was bemoaning spending another Saturday evening alone. So, I suggested Evan Almighty which Rob and I just watched last night. He responded "no dont think i would care fer it". Every movie I have mentioned to him he has responded that way and the last one, I can kind of understand why. I mentioned Hedwig and the Angry Inch and being the newly "devout" Christian, and seems kind of homophobic, that movie could be understandably iffy. And for similar (all Christian and shit) reasons Evan Almighty could be seen as "unfavorable" I suppose. But really it seems unfortunate to not even give it a chance because there is a message to it. I don't believe it makes fun of the biblical story at all. If anything it reminded me more of The Santa Clause than anything. So I ended up saying to this friend: "Even with it having the churchy "God knows his plans for you" and "Just follow God's will" message it was still pretty good" all he responded with was "hmmm"
If someone suggests a movie to me, I try to at least listen to what they liked about it, let them tell me about it no matter whether it is a genera i don't care for or not. Heck, that particular friend I have told him I don't really like the "Angry Kid" cartoons, but I still watch all the YouTube videos of "Angry Kid" he sends me. I don't like the style or the subject matter much. But I still give each one a chance. Maybe the difference is that each episode of those is only 2 - 5 minutes of my time where as a movie is over an hour.
OK... rant over. bed time imminent.
Last thought:
I like my 8g earrings. They're spiffy.
Tomorrow is my one day that's different in my whole schedule. I go in at 10 tomorrow. So it'll definitely be sleeping in for me! I'll be getting to work at the time that I'm normally taking my lunch break! I'll be the "midshifter."
I think I like the new b.c. pill I'm on. It so far has fixed the problems I had with the last one. My cramps are back down to one day and fairly well controlled with Advil. And flow is VERY manageable.
I had an awkward situation at work today... There was a woman who went through Joann's line returning some baby stuff she'd been given as gifts. She already had 3 beautiful girls and was pregnant. She was explaining that when you've already had 3 kids you pretty much have everything you need. So that's why she didn't need the things she was returning. I don't remember how it came up but she said something about "Yeah, this one was a surprise." and then motioned to her youngest daughter and said "Kind of like her." and then she proceeds to tell us about how they'd been trying to prevent "this one" (motions to belly) as well as "that one" (motions to youngest child). and how now they've gone the "permanent rout" since "nothing they do to prevent it works." I'm just like... We're strangers. Why do you feel its necessary to share these intimate details of your life whether the youngest child is old enough to comprehend what you're saying or not. The oldest definitely was old enough to understand. I'd say she was at least 8 or 10. And the youngest was probably... 3? It all just kind of bothered me.
Not really related, but I've been thinking about children a lot lately again. Not in the "Ohh I can't wait to have a baby!" sense, but more in the "You know, honestly, I think I'd be perfectly happy if it doesn't happen, or at the very least not for several more years." It's definitely a different feeling. But I got to thinking about it and I realized... I love things exactly as they are. I love the freedom Rob and I have. I love our interactions with one another. I love the cats being our "children" (but not really.) I love everything about the way our "family" works. I don't want anything to change that. I don't like the thought of how things would likely change.
I still think that if it does happen eventually, it'll be good and OK and wonderful. But I THINK I have reached the point where I'm not anxiously awaiting it. I THINK I have finally decided and found that I am happy the way things are.
In other news... I can't stop being hungry. And its annoying. I probably need to go back to really working on eating healthier and being more contentious of what I'm consuming. I've regained a lot of weight. And I can tell I just don't feel as good. Maybe that's something I'll try to work on with my newfound daylight hours. Walking some. I still don't like walking alone though.
But yeah. So in the morning whether I eat anything or not, by my lunch time at 10a, my stomach is LOUDLY growling and I am so hungry. Then when I get home from work at 3:30 or so, all I can think about is "what do we have to eat?" And right now... I ate when I got home from work (just munching) and we went to Burger King (Rob was craving a Whopper), but I feel hungry again. I'm trying to just ignore it.
I have noticed a serious problem with fast food though. No matter what it seems, fast food (BK, McD's is what we usually get and I notice the phenomenon) always leaves me hungry. I never "large size" things. But even right after finishing what food I have, I still feel hungry. I don't know if I'm just eating too fast... or if there's something else going on. But it just isn't satisfying usually. I need to start paying closer attention to what leaves me feeling better satisfied and get that more often when we go out to eat. The frustrating thing is if I don't get whatever sounds the best to me, and I get something else thinking it'll be better for whatever reason (price or health), it doesn't feel satisfying either.
Something that irritates me is when I suggest a movie to someone, and they say "no dont think i would care fer it" and when I ask why they say "just dont" it really irritates me. Because if someone could give me a legitimate reason such as... I don't agree with the subject matter, that genera of movies I don't like, I don't like the main actor... anything, I'd be willing to shrug and say "OK, that's cool. I can respect that." But if you won't give me a reason and just say that you "just dont" think you'd "care fer it" it just feels closed minded. If you can tell me why you don't think you'd like it, I can either support or suggest why that opinion might not be the case in this particular movie. If you "just dont" then I either lose respect or I start making up reasons why you wouldn't like it and then try to explain those reasons away.
what brings this up? A friend mentioned being lonely and was bemoaning spending another Saturday evening alone. So, I suggested Evan Almighty which Rob and I just watched last night. He responded "no dont think i would care fer it". Every movie I have mentioned to him he has responded that way and the last one, I can kind of understand why. I mentioned Hedwig and the Angry Inch and being the newly "devout" Christian, and seems kind of homophobic, that movie could be understandably iffy. And for similar (all Christian and shit) reasons Evan Almighty could be seen as "unfavorable" I suppose. But really it seems unfortunate to not even give it a chance because there is a message to it. I don't believe it makes fun of the biblical story at all. If anything it reminded me more of The Santa Clause than anything. So I ended up saying to this friend: "Even with it having the churchy "God knows his plans for you" and "Just follow God's will" message it was still pretty good" all he responded with was "hmmm"
If someone suggests a movie to me, I try to at least listen to what they liked about it, let them tell me about it no matter whether it is a genera i don't care for or not. Heck, that particular friend I have told him I don't really like the "Angry Kid" cartoons, but I still watch all the YouTube videos of "Angry Kid" he sends me. I don't like the style or the subject matter much. But I still give each one a chance. Maybe the difference is that each episode of those is only 2 - 5 minutes of my time where as a movie is over an hour.
OK... rant over. bed time imminent.
Last thought:
I like my 8g earrings. They're spiffy.