Check point
I've been up and down since Marcus left to stay in Virginia. I guess while he was here I was able to just focus all my positivity on him, and to disregard whatever was wrong in my life in order to just be happy with him, friends, and life in general. Pretty soon after he left I have been more disgruntled about my job that ever. I was already getting upset with my job situation in January when they stuck me on the girl's house. A few months ago, when other co-workers moved to different positions, I felt so left behind. Yes, it was partly my fault for not applying for those positions and not jumping on the bandwagon fast enough, but that still doesn't discount my feelings of thinking I suck at my job and feeling abandoned by them. I guess I'm being a little immature, but I've been in my position for 1 year and 9 months now, and I feel stuck. It's a pretty stressful job and I want to expand and grow with what I've learned so far. The other part of me wants to dedicate myself to my artistic passions and to just go with that. Or travel, and play until I become 35 and realized I need to have a career. Shit. I should just go make babies already....