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i wish i could be all that you mean to me.
why do i cry everytime i he talks to me? he told me he has plans for newyears at that fucking whore arrianas...the girl whos house he was at the day he was gone for like 7 hours and he didnt even call me till like 1130. i hope they dont date, because then ill know. ill know he was into her before we broke up.m please please dont let it be. dont let him want her. i want to die. i want to die. kill me. i want to die. i keep crying and i cant stop it. fuck. i want to be happy. i want him to love me again. why did he stop? whY? i dont understand. i want to die. bothing should hurt this much.nothing. it only hurts because i love him as much as i do. and i wouldnt trade this pain for anything, because when im with him i feel alive. he has loved me, and cared for me. but now im nothing more then just a friend,not a special friend, or anything. i feel like an annoyance. i annoy him. imnot who he was in lovewith. i just want him to hold me when i cry for him. i held him, and no one is going to hold me. no one. im sorry.
why do i cry everytime i he talks to me? he told me he has plans for newyears at that fucking whore arrianas...the girl whos house he was at the day he was gone for like 7 hours and he didnt even call me till like 1130. i hope they dont date, because then ill know. ill know he was into her before we broke up.m please please dont let it be. dont let him want her. i want to die. i want to die. kill me. i want to die. i keep crying and i cant stop it. fuck. i want to be happy. i want him to love me again. why did he stop? whY? i dont understand. i want to die. bothing should hurt this much.nothing. it only hurts because i love him as much as i do. and i wouldnt trade this pain for anything, because when im with him i feel alive. he has loved me, and cared for me. but now im nothing more then just a friend,not a special friend, or anything. i feel like an annoyance. i annoy him. imnot who he was in lovewith. i just want him to hold me when i cry for him. i held him, and no one is going to hold me. no one. im sorry.