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it is actually 552am sunday morning... so sleepy. Ended up taking mum to WALLY-world to stock up. We left very late in the evening...think we got home after midnite.
My god these past few days have just seemed to be a blur. I had an ah ah amazing CYBER_CAM encourage-feeding session the day before yesterday with my french feedee buddy. He ate an entire medium pizza and 4 large decadent french pastries. (must be nice to live in France! those pastries looked un-be-leevable!) It was a *religious experience to see him eat like that. He is getting his little beginner double_chin! yay! also such nice new layers of fat on his sexy french bod. seems like all the fat is going to his torso. (thats fine by me!) my ex-marine wanna be feedee wants to get *massive all over. man... I hope this man is patient coz his body type and frame just does not seem to be conducive to colosal weight gain. tall slender fast metabolism... he prolly won't *really start growing for about 3 more yrs when he turns 30... omg! I will be 38 by then. alarming. That is a big age difference. But if love blossoms... it won't matter.
Ok.. mr x marine has not called for a couple of days. I got just a teeeeensy bit paranoid as I had just emailed him about *firming up a date next month for him to take a vc day(s) .(plural I hope) I did not get all doom and gloom er nothin. wondering... is he tired of talking to me? Is he getting cold feet? Am I just his personal fone sex line ( I know for a fact he was touching his monkey after we first started talking about our fetish...men don't make those kinda noises for nothin'... I did not say anything. Part of my boundary issues I suppose. Would be crushed if it all came down to me being a 1900blowyrWad line. But we have had so many good chats about lots of things. Its not all sex. But when we are not talking feedee/feeder and he is not really in a talkative mood....its like pulling teeth trying to get a bit of conversation....But that is OK!!!!! I don't mind being the talker... I met another gainer/feedee in june. OH MY GOD...he would not SHUT UP! you know the kind of person that asks a question and then uses it as a springboard to talk about themselves? not only that ...he was so PISSY and Pedantic. He was a bit nelly and anal retentive...horrible combo kids! So this macho ex-marine silent type is kinda of nice. I have known guys like this before... the silence is nice. But after a while... when *you feel the silence getting close* ...it starts to get annoying. BEGGERS cant be CHOOSERS. I will take the latter over the former any day!
Really was kinda relieved. A respet from the daily calling. ITs a good thing. However, as human nature would have it... I found my self waiting and watching that fone/cell to ring! incredible after all my bitchin' about the daily calls being a bit overwhelming.
Then came the email from mr x marine in the afternoon. wwwwheeeeuw! sigh ..exhale.
He emails me to apologise for not calling (like he is my boyfriend! this is crazy I know but feels nice).
2 days he has not called...going on the 3rd. no biggie! he does not have to apologise. its cute tho.
He has been busy with work and putting in extra hours as his student loan payments are gonna start to arrive soon. (such a responsible guy eh?) And he has been wiped out when he got home. He asked how I was doing.
all in all... I was glad and a tad relieved after that email.
I called and left a message to let him know that I would text him when I got home from WM. It was really late 230am his time. Left a txt message to let him know I was up ...but if he was tired to please rest! and to call me later no prob.
I hope he does not feel obligated to call everynite.... He needs to get his little ex-marine blond behind in geer and tell me what damn date(s) he be will off. I found a great fare on ww.aa.com dfw to tpa. Told him I need to know by the 12th. thats the ticketing deadline. plus its a 14 day advance fare. I gotta remember to tell him again today if he calls.
side note : I smoked my last ciggy today. OH gawd..the next few days are gonna be a beyeaawtch! But I know I can do it. I will have a drink of water of piece of dried fruit instead. (heeee yeeah. like that will help the nic fits/withdrawals!)
argg I need to go to sleep.... my cpap machine awaits me...(thank god for that machine!)
My god these past few days have just seemed to be a blur. I had an ah ah amazing CYBER_CAM encourage-feeding session the day before yesterday with my french feedee buddy. He ate an entire medium pizza and 4 large decadent french pastries. (must be nice to live in France! those pastries looked un-be-leevable!) It was a *religious experience to see him eat like that. He is getting his little beginner double_chin! yay! also such nice new layers of fat on his sexy french bod. seems like all the fat is going to his torso. (thats fine by me!) my ex-marine wanna be feedee wants to get *massive all over. man... I hope this man is patient coz his body type and frame just does not seem to be conducive to colosal weight gain. tall slender fast metabolism... he prolly won't *really start growing for about 3 more yrs when he turns 30... omg! I will be 38 by then. alarming. That is a big age difference. But if love blossoms... it won't matter.
Ok.. mr x marine has not called for a couple of days. I got just a teeeeensy bit paranoid as I had just emailed him about *firming up a date next month for him to take a vc day(s) .(plural I hope) I did not get all doom and gloom er nothin. wondering... is he tired of talking to me? Is he getting cold feet? Am I just his personal fone sex line ( I know for a fact he was touching his monkey after we first started talking about our fetish...men don't make those kinda noises for nothin'... I did not say anything. Part of my boundary issues I suppose. Would be crushed if it all came down to me being a 1900blowyrWad line. But we have had so many good chats about lots of things. Its not all sex. But when we are not talking feedee/feeder and he is not really in a talkative mood....its like pulling teeth trying to get a bit of conversation....But that is OK!!!!! I don't mind being the talker... I met another gainer/feedee in june. OH MY GOD...he would not SHUT UP! you know the kind of person that asks a question and then uses it as a springboard to talk about themselves? not only that ...he was so PISSY and Pedantic. He was a bit nelly and anal retentive...horrible combo kids! So this macho ex-marine silent type is kinda of nice. I have known guys like this before... the silence is nice. But after a while... when *you feel the silence getting close* ...it starts to get annoying. BEGGERS cant be CHOOSERS. I will take the latter over the former any day!
Really was kinda relieved. A respet from the daily calling. ITs a good thing. However, as human nature would have it... I found my self waiting and watching that fone/cell to ring! incredible after all my bitchin' about the daily calls being a bit overwhelming.
Then came the email from mr x marine in the afternoon. wwwwheeeeuw! sigh ..exhale.
He emails me to apologise for not calling (like he is my boyfriend! this is crazy I know but feels nice).
2 days he has not called...going on the 3rd. no biggie! he does not have to apologise. its cute tho.
He has been busy with work and putting in extra hours as his student loan payments are gonna start to arrive soon. (such a responsible guy eh?) And he has been wiped out when he got home. He asked how I was doing.
all in all... I was glad and a tad relieved after that email.
I called and left a message to let him know that I would text him when I got home from WM. It was really late 230am his time. Left a txt message to let him know I was up ...but if he was tired to please rest! and to call me later no prob.
I hope he does not feel obligated to call everynite.... He needs to get his little ex-marine blond behind in geer and tell me what damn date(s) he be will off. I found a great fare on ww.aa.com dfw to tpa. Told him I need to know by the 12th. thats the ticketing deadline. plus its a 14 day advance fare. I gotta remember to tell him again today if he calls.
side note : I smoked my last ciggy today. OH gawd..the next few days are gonna be a beyeaawtch! But I know I can do it. I will have a drink of water of piece of dried fruit instead. (heeee yeeah. like that will help the nic fits/withdrawals!)
argg I need to go to sleep.... my cpap machine awaits me...(thank god for that machine!)