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Its been a couple of days since I slept straight through a night without waking up from strange dreams. Everytime I fall asleep, I seem to drop into another one. Same cast most of the time. I believe that it has to do with my real life situation. They reflect alot on things that Im going through. I cant help but feel that the farther things drift away, the closer they come to me in dreams. I miss my family. Regardless of what they have or will do to me. Thats the family that my mother came from. She wasn't a bad person. I love her to death. Why would her family be this way. If they're anything like my mom, things aren't gonna go south. I feel a deep sadness when I think about how I may never get to see my cousins. It hurts. Deep where it leaves an imprint. My cousins had nothing to do with what happened. I know that for a fact. Greed can change the best. Thats why I am never ever going to be greedy. I feel distance from my friends as well. I dont know anyone outside this house. I feel as if I came from a different planet. The memories of the end of high school comes flooding back. I know I can never have those moments back. Much less if I can make some new ones. I just hope I didnt live 23 years for nothing. I know that my life wasn't a lie. If I made someone angry out there. I didnt mean to do what I did. Im sorry if I did.....