WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?
A perfectly nice guy has asked me out, and I have agreed....but I can't seem to like him the way I should. I have a serious emotional defect here. I only like people who don't like me back. I like how hard it is? I like the emotional high mixed with the inevitable rejection?
That's some sort of messed up. The last person I liked...I thought I stood a chance. But no one really liked him...he was seriously immature. I still fight feelings for him from time to time...and I compare my boyfriend to him constantly.
It's not fair to him. He's a good guy (so it seems), a little weird personality wise...but he seems to care about me and want the best for me. And I apparently have a problem with that. Is this God's way of telling me to get out? I think about breaking up with him all the time....but...I don't have a reason to. He has done nothing bad. I am the problem. I really am.
This sucks.
I should be locked in a box. For reals.
This post was super emo. Whoops.
That's some sort of messed up. The last person I liked...I thought I stood a chance. But no one really liked him...he was seriously immature. I still fight feelings for him from time to time...and I compare my boyfriend to him constantly.
It's not fair to him. He's a good guy (so it seems), a little weird personality wise...but he seems to care about me and want the best for me. And I apparently have a problem with that. Is this God's way of telling me to get out? I think about breaking up with him all the time....but...I don't have a reason to. He has done nothing bad. I am the problem. I really am.
This sucks.
I should be locked in a box. For reals.
This post was super emo. Whoops.