So, I have too much time to think.
Sometimes, I have too much time to think.
This can be a good thing, or a bad thing. It's good when I'm just standing there doing my job and I shunt one part of my brain off to do imaginary things that amuse me while doing the less than taxing (brain-wise) portions of my job. These portions are relaxing some days.
It's a bad thing when my brain gets over-engaged with things that it should really just blow off.
So anyway, today was a quiet day, other than the hilarity of going through the apps for my phone at lunch and laughing my ass off with Jason A. (An app called "Sex Sounds"?? Really?) And I ended up making a few quiet decisions about my life. Funny thing about me, it might take me a long time to make a decision, however when I make it, I stick to it. Through the ups, the downs, and the in-betweens.
1. For about 9/10ths of the stuff in my life I've been stressing about? I don't flipping CARE anymore. You don't make it my problem, it ain't my problem.
2. If you have an issue with me, you're angry at me, or you simply don't like me anymore, alright. If you don't have the guts to come to my face and tell me that I did something wrong, or am doing something to hurt you - not my problem. I will not let you hurt me any longer.
3. If you've made no outright claim to me (and had it approved by me), and you can't be bothered to ask me a straight forward question and get yourself a straight forward response I don't have time to worry about you anymore. I'm not explaining myself, or my decisions, or what I'm doing.
3a. If you do have a claim to me and you want to know? ASK. I've always been open enough to 1. tell you the answer straight up, or 2. tell you that's not something I'd like to discuss.
3b. If you want to make a claim to me and my time? ASK. Don't flipping assume. Say: "Hey, Jenn, we're buds right?" or "Hey Jenn we're more than buds, right?" or "Can we be not-friends anymore?"
4. Basically, I've come to the conclusion that I'm just done. I got crap to get done, and responsibilities of my own. I've been shy, but I've never walked away from a straight up confrontation, or a straight up question. I believe in honesty, honor, and responsibility. It's how I was raised. I'm not perfect, and if you're going to judge me on other people's words, or by other people's ethics and morals you're not right for me.
And on that note, I'm going to go do stuff with my evening. G'night folks.
This can be a good thing, or a bad thing. It's good when I'm just standing there doing my job and I shunt one part of my brain off to do imaginary things that amuse me while doing the less than taxing (brain-wise) portions of my job. These portions are relaxing some days.
It's a bad thing when my brain gets over-engaged with things that it should really just blow off.
So anyway, today was a quiet day, other than the hilarity of going through the apps for my phone at lunch and laughing my ass off with Jason A. (An app called "Sex Sounds"?? Really?) And I ended up making a few quiet decisions about my life. Funny thing about me, it might take me a long time to make a decision, however when I make it, I stick to it. Through the ups, the downs, and the in-betweens.
1. For about 9/10ths of the stuff in my life I've been stressing about? I don't flipping CARE anymore. You don't make it my problem, it ain't my problem.
2. If you have an issue with me, you're angry at me, or you simply don't like me anymore, alright. If you don't have the guts to come to my face and tell me that I did something wrong, or am doing something to hurt you - not my problem. I will not let you hurt me any longer.
3. If you've made no outright claim to me (and had it approved by me), and you can't be bothered to ask me a straight forward question and get yourself a straight forward response I don't have time to worry about you anymore. I'm not explaining myself, or my decisions, or what I'm doing.
3a. If you do have a claim to me and you want to know? ASK. I've always been open enough to 1. tell you the answer straight up, or 2. tell you that's not something I'd like to discuss.
3b. If you want to make a claim to me and my time? ASK. Don't flipping assume. Say: "Hey, Jenn, we're buds right?" or "Hey Jenn we're more than buds, right?" or "Can we be not-friends anymore?"
4. Basically, I've come to the conclusion that I'm just done. I got crap to get done, and responsibilities of my own. I've been shy, but I've never walked away from a straight up confrontation, or a straight up question. I believe in honesty, honor, and responsibility. It's how I was raised. I'm not perfect, and if you're going to judge me on other people's words, or by other people's ethics and morals you're not right for me.
And on that note, I'm going to go do stuff with my evening. G'night folks.