the song in which i quoted

[guinessboy]

jawbreaker - in sadding around

Sleeping off the last five years
takes another five.
Recovery in lieu of
being here right now.
When I throw myself at your feet,
you know it's to be walked on.
We're breaking up
every single night.

If I had a choice,
don't you think I'd make it?
I lost my voice.
Hope I didn't break it.
Little demons by my bed
whisper secrets.
The kind you never hear.

I dip my toe in this cold, cold life.
I want to dive but I can't find your feet.
You with a view so unlike my own.
I'm trying on your eyes.
So I let go, fall to the ground.
It's a long way down again.

Petty cons keep peeling back my ears.
We make plans.
Collaborate and give to you
my better half.
Until now just dead weight,
a prisoner of doubt.
In a cell we kiss and tell
all our keepsakes.

I dip my toe in this cold, cold life.
I want to dive but I can't find your feet.
You with a view so unlike my own.
I'm trying on your eyes.
So I let go, fall to the ground.
It's a long way down again.
Sore, hit the floor.
Got my first glimpse of the sky.
The stars were on your side.
Who would've thunk
the thirteenth fell on Friday?
I say hello and it's goodbye again.