Return to form?

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Last night my good friend Juniper and I spent time going through old journal entries in a process she likened to Dreamfasting as performed by certain characters in the Dark Crystal. It was something that was brought on by recent events certainly, but it has inspired me to try to return to this place as a means of getting back in touch with my

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Yes, the coloration example leads me to believe you're on the same page as me... to people who truly listen, you can observe the colors that others manifest in the environment that surrounds them... it's not exactly an aura, it's the precipitation of their perspective, so to speak. But it takes a certain kind of attention to reach that point. It does remind me of some of your writing, however, which is quite interesting. To be able to join people at that color point does seem like a rare offering... and also it explains why people can be so confused when they feel they're onto something but don't quite understand what it is.

Ah, that's an interesting article... the appearance of novelty is a curious thing. It's as if they're trying to churn out hipsters without grasping the culture behind it but... well, how can that be surprising when we're talking about corporate targeting? Hahaha... feel bad for the people who gravitate to it, however. Even the ones they reward seem like they're just being fattened up for something...

Do you know what the film is? I'm certain there are many artists who have a lot of thoughtful things to say about the subject. The nature of alias and avatar is an increasingly relevant topic in this day and age, though people resist believing so. But if the corporations trying to hack out a cheap version of it is any indication...

And, yes, of course. I think that attributing something to oneself is more of a result than a goal, you know what I mean? It's all part of a flow, and self-expression. Trying to cram yourself into a mental image is no better than being hooked into a marketing campaign, except you're just brainwashing yourself so nobody else has to :p

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It's not just that, but the sheer amount of undirected noise in modernity makes it harder to see that color. Thus I think (or would like to think) that doing deliberately showing who you are, say by making a world or personal mythology of your own or just by consistently putting your being into your actions, that would help reverse it. And perhaps then we would have people that are more like people and less like parts of a mass.

It almost sounds individualist... but somehow, the impression I have of individualism is more a weakening - to be isolated to the point where your particular direction either reaches nobody or is just silently absorbed by the general system.

It does remind me of some of your writing, however, which is quite interesting.
How so? I'm curious about how others see what I write :) And if I had lots of time, I would experiment with that again...

Do you know what the film is?
I think it was this one. Now, Don Juan is not a character I'd identify with, but then that's not the point :) The point was that the person chose to embody or represent him.

And now that I think about it, I think that may provide a distinction between madness and difference of character... to someone at a distance, both look the same: they're hard to understand at first glance because they're not like all others. However, someone who is insane has no hold of what's possible, while someone of a very different color does, but he chooses to make use of the possibility in a different manner. It's like the difference between someone who just randomly hits keys on a piano, and a person who, having composed music for a long time, decides to approach the concept of tonality itself in a different way. To people at the outside, both composers may sound strange (and I do admit that music can get too "modern" for me too :) ), but there's a critical difference.

That may or may not work for criminal insanity, though: a person like Bateman or Lecter wouldn't be obviously "insane" by the above. They know what they want, it's just that what they want is completely destructive (and society would react by insulating them completely from it so they can do no more harm). In contrast, a paranoid person who randomly kills another because he thinks the other person is a member of the secret police... is insane by the above definition. Instead of leaving the house if he wishes, and staying within it if he wishes that, the "house" of his mind has a big hole in one of the outer walls and the phantoms are getting in through that hole. Even psychopaths may be insane on a deeper level, though: although they give the impression of having very strong color, behind the mask there is usually not very much -- that's part of why they have to distract themselves with constant drama.

Ooh, and I really digressed there, didn't I? :)