Boy, I feel good! After an extended experiment, I've found that Guido Jacobs is simply the supressed dark side of me. I looked at what I was, and at Guido, and found that together, they'd make a complete person, and so I did the obvious thing: combined these two! And let me tell ya: I've never felt so good, so STRONG (mentally,physically, and ( Read more... )

From my understanding, my mind, body, and spirit has three forms so far: the playful side, my current side, and Guido. I've been looking closely to what happens when I become Guido, and from what happened a few days ago.

ONMYOUJI FORM
Story: From ever since I could remember, I had an unusual feeling inside me. Like I was sort of a wizard that didn ( Read more... )

I was curious about my spirit, so I had a professional from Japan, that visited Jobcorps because he detected a dark spiritual force here, take a look with his wise spiritual eye, and told me what he found. There were some intersting things. First, my sprit had/has a calm, neutral aura around me, despite the dark energy surrounding me at Jobcorps. ( Read more... )

In last night's dream, I decided to ask around about what they knew about Nivek. All I could find was that she was a "medical thing with a kit." I guess that the unconcious mind most likely knows little about that identity, or the group that I interviewed knew little about her. I will try again tonight...to try to find Nivek's true identity.

( spiritual research results )

I've decided to go back to the drawing board, and see if I can't manipulate Guido's mental and spiritual connection to me. Apparently, Guido's spirit has a "loose fit", and the mind and body's response is irratic. So far, my theory about the human mind operating much like a computer (dual boot, and everything) seems to still apply, with the ( Read more... )

Happy new years! My resolution is to learn more about what's happening spiritually ( Read more... )

Okay, sorry for the long absense, but I've been up to my neck with spiritual problems. A kitsune, a newly-discovered spirit, my wooden ofuda keeps moving all over the place...lets just say I'm really getting my onmyoji training here.

Since I can't have alchohol, for several reasons, I will celebrate this New Years not by drinking champagne, but by playing 92 hours of video games...or until I pass out, whichever comes first. Now lets see what I got for X-MAS ( Read more... )

It's so exhausting supporting my yin and yang seperately, but I've once again combined the two. And a friend offered to take me to his sensei, to train me in the ways of spirituality.

Interactive fun!: If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if ( Read more... )