All the people I know make my life incredible
This weekend I went to Berkeley with Tina to go visit Berkeley. We to see Talia's Gospel Choir which was just in-fucking-credible... the wall of music that came from that choir, was truly godly. I know I'm hearing music I really love and enjoy and feel a connection to when I hear it and feel that sudden wave down my spine where all my hairs stand up because it sounds soo good to me. That's how I know I really like a certain type of music... because I got that high from just listening to the music. I was so impressed.
Before that we were walking around during the day through the town, and I pretty much just followed them assuming they were gonna go do some shopping of some sort. I didn't really give it a second thought because I just love that city so much, I sorta just walk and stare at everything there is. Tina and Talia sorta just slightly quarrel about whether to tell me something or not, and suddenly Talia takes out this large black album... and inside are a large collection of pictures from god know everywhere, and I think, wow, what a fucking awesome gift, and so I start looking through it, and she directs me to the front page which I had missed. On it is a letter telling me she had gotten in contact with pretty much everyone in high school and college and they had all pitched in to get me a violin. I read that and there was no way in my entire mind that I could process that or even begin to think of a way of properly properly thanking her... and I was just silent. It's very rare that people make me silent like that. I began to look through the book, and barrage of picture with all the people I knew so well, as she told me that she had contacted so many people, even some that didn't know me all that well, and that so many enthusiastically gave money. I've never received a gift like that in my entire life. Iuno... it's very very hard to write about something like this because I just know that there's nothing that could adequately convey how grateful I know such good people and make such good friends. It was amazing that the 700 dollars offered to me had all been a collection that included everyone I knew... I could have cried... and I wanted to for the most part, but I think my mind was just in too much shock at the time. It's been years since I've wanted to do that. I've been obsessed with the violin since I first got my hands on one at Portola and have been playing it constantly since, and to think that 8 years later... after eight years I was going to get my first violin with the help of friends. I could not and still cannot process that and the immensity of it... what went into getting it, and what I'm getting.
I could have never imagined anything like this... thinking about it makes me tear.... god, there's just no way to ever write this and be satisfied.
Talia is completely amazing for doing such a thing, and an unbelievably wonderful friend... always has been and I always knew it... and that's why with a handful of people I consider her and love her like absolute family... and it's strange to think that this person I sorta randomly met my senior year would be such an important person to me. I'm very grateful to have her as a friend... and I'm grateful to have everyone else I know as a friend... and know such a unspeakably good group of people. So Talia, I thank you for one of the best gifts I've ever gotten in my existence on this earth... thank you for giving me a memory I won't forget and will always retell until I'm dead in my grave... thank you not only for the gift but also really reminding of the good people I've been disgustingly lucky to meet, know and experience.
*sigh* I appreciate this so much...
I've never in my life felt so remembered, appreciated, loved, and grateful... and there's a lot of people that deserve it so much more, but I'm just still in utter shock and wondering how it all happened to me, how I was able to experience such a thing, such a life, and such people... and it so strange and good....strange because I think I can imagine the infinitesimal chances of everything turning out the way it has for me and I cannot believe it.
To everyone, I will thank you more personally because I'm so grateful for this...
Talia, just ...thank you for so much... I don't think you'll ever know how overwhelmed I am with gratitude.
Before that we were walking around during the day through the town, and I pretty much just followed them assuming they were gonna go do some shopping of some sort. I didn't really give it a second thought because I just love that city so much, I sorta just walk and stare at everything there is. Tina and Talia sorta just slightly quarrel about whether to tell me something or not, and suddenly Talia takes out this large black album... and inside are a large collection of pictures from god know everywhere, and I think, wow, what a fucking awesome gift, and so I start looking through it, and she directs me to the front page which I had missed. On it is a letter telling me she had gotten in contact with pretty much everyone in high school and college and they had all pitched in to get me a violin. I read that and there was no way in my entire mind that I could process that or even begin to think of a way of properly properly thanking her... and I was just silent. It's very rare that people make me silent like that. I began to look through the book, and barrage of picture with all the people I knew so well, as she told me that she had contacted so many people, even some that didn't know me all that well, and that so many enthusiastically gave money. I've never received a gift like that in my entire life. Iuno... it's very very hard to write about something like this because I just know that there's nothing that could adequately convey how grateful I know such good people and make such good friends. It was amazing that the 700 dollars offered to me had all been a collection that included everyone I knew... I could have cried... and I wanted to for the most part, but I think my mind was just in too much shock at the time. It's been years since I've wanted to do that. I've been obsessed with the violin since I first got my hands on one at Portola and have been playing it constantly since, and to think that 8 years later... after eight years I was going to get my first violin with the help of friends. I could not and still cannot process that and the immensity of it... what went into getting it, and what I'm getting.
I could have never imagined anything like this... thinking about it makes me tear.... god, there's just no way to ever write this and be satisfied.
Talia is completely amazing for doing such a thing, and an unbelievably wonderful friend... always has been and I always knew it... and that's why with a handful of people I consider her and love her like absolute family... and it's strange to think that this person I sorta randomly met my senior year would be such an important person to me. I'm very grateful to have her as a friend... and I'm grateful to have everyone else I know as a friend... and know such a unspeakably good group of people. So Talia, I thank you for one of the best gifts I've ever gotten in my existence on this earth... thank you for giving me a memory I won't forget and will always retell until I'm dead in my grave... thank you not only for the gift but also really reminding of the good people I've been disgustingly lucky to meet, know and experience.
*sigh* I appreciate this so much...
I've never in my life felt so remembered, appreciated, loved, and grateful... and there's a lot of people that deserve it so much more, but I'm just still in utter shock and wondering how it all happened to me, how I was able to experience such a thing, such a life, and such people... and it so strange and good....strange because I think I can imagine the infinitesimal chances of everything turning out the way it has for me and I cannot believe it.
To everyone, I will thank you more personally because I'm so grateful for this...
Talia, just ...thank you for so much... I don't think you'll ever know how overwhelmed I am with gratitude.