happy.hurt.tired.
Today was judgment day to probably all UA&P students. You ask why? Well, because the results of our applications forms is out. Gladly I passed all my three major choices namely: Integrated Marketing Communication, Political Economy and Management. I didn't expect to pass all of it. But then some part of me is somewhat sad because I didn't pass Industrial Economics Program which was slightly a fourth choice? I guess that was the reason why I didn't get in because my interview turned out to be good. Nevertheless, I am glad to have passed what I want. However, now I am practically confused between Integrated Marketing Communication (IMC) or Political Economy (PolEco). These two courses really caters to my interest. Think. Think. Think. I have exactly two weeks to decide on what course to take. *sigh*
Anyway enough of the happy part of my day. Let's get into business on why i am practically writing this blog. I am pissed. Yes. This may sound weird for other people but then I got irritated today to one of my friends. Well, basically because she talked about something I did not want to talk about. Just to give you an idea of what that issue was...Yesterday, I cried during my economics class mainly because I was so stressed and then I did not understand the lesson while others did. I felt stupid. I felt useless. I felt that the world was against me. Parang bakit sila lahat nagets nila tapos ako hindi? So there. I didn't want to talk about it simply because what's done is done and I don't want them to see that side of me because it's so shameful. However, they did talk about it in front of me. Wow. How worse can my life get? Talk about reminding me how much I didn't understand the lesson. Sorry if I cried at that instant. I just needed to release all the pain inside of me. I just wanted to release stress...frustration...Sorry if I am not that strong as you guys are when it comes to studies. I am sorry if you had to see me cry that moment. Hindi ko naman sinasadya eh. Just tell me if you hated me for that. I can be discreet naman eh.
Then here comes the workshop on "LEARNING FOR A LIFETIME". So you ask me what's with the workshop that pissed me off? Well, not the workshop itself because I practically believe it's interesting but then...my friends told me to attend because IT'S PRACTICALLY FOR GRADE CONSCIOUS PEOPLE! Wow. Thanks for telling that to my face. I appreciate the concern but I am sorry if I am paranoid when it comes to grades. But it doesn't necessarily mean that I study for the sake of grades because I don't I hope you know that. It's just that when it comes to grades, I really get paranoid. This is possibly because of what I have been through from highschool when you have given all your best but your grades doesn't complement all you have given. And you haven't gotten a rejection. Sorry naman hindi kasi ako that smart like you guys. Minsan isip ko sana si Einstein nalang ako para hindi ako naghihirap ng ganito. Siguro my dad was right na tanga nga ako. *sigh*
All in all, after all of these happened. I come to see that life is REALLY complicated. Sometimes, I get tired of living this life. I don't know. I hope life gets better soon. No hard feelings guys...I just need to let this all out. Don't worry this will pass.
Anyway enough of the happy part of my day. Let's get into business on why i am practically writing this blog. I am pissed. Yes. This may sound weird for other people but then I got irritated today to one of my friends. Well, basically because she talked about something I did not want to talk about. Just to give you an idea of what that issue was...Yesterday, I cried during my economics class mainly because I was so stressed and then I did not understand the lesson while others did. I felt stupid. I felt useless. I felt that the world was against me. Parang bakit sila lahat nagets nila tapos ako hindi? So there. I didn't want to talk about it simply because what's done is done and I don't want them to see that side of me because it's so shameful. However, they did talk about it in front of me. Wow. How worse can my life get? Talk about reminding me how much I didn't understand the lesson. Sorry if I cried at that instant. I just needed to release all the pain inside of me. I just wanted to release stress...frustration...Sorry if I am not that strong as you guys are when it comes to studies. I am sorry if you had to see me cry that moment. Hindi ko naman sinasadya eh. Just tell me if you hated me for that. I can be discreet naman eh.
Then here comes the workshop on "LEARNING FOR A LIFETIME". So you ask me what's with the workshop that pissed me off? Well, not the workshop itself because I practically believe it's interesting but then...my friends told me to attend because IT'S PRACTICALLY FOR GRADE CONSCIOUS PEOPLE! Wow. Thanks for telling that to my face. I appreciate the concern but I am sorry if I am paranoid when it comes to grades. But it doesn't necessarily mean that I study for the sake of grades because I don't I hope you know that. It's just that when it comes to grades, I really get paranoid. This is possibly because of what I have been through from highschool when you have given all your best but your grades doesn't complement all you have given. And you haven't gotten a rejection. Sorry naman hindi kasi ako that smart like you guys. Minsan isip ko sana si Einstein nalang ako para hindi ako naghihirap ng ganito. Siguro my dad was right na tanga nga ako. *sigh*
All in all, after all of these happened. I come to see that life is REALLY complicated. Sometimes, I get tired of living this life. I don't know. I hope life gets better soon. No hard feelings guys...I just need to let this all out. Don't worry this will pass.