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so you know what? i realised i dont know how the fuck my mind works. at all.
Toms starting to get close to some girl. but i know she's not right for him. its not that im jelous exactly, its just that i think it will make our friendship worse. not as close. the fundemental parts of our friendship is the cuddles, the kissing. i feel so close to him, and i tell him everything. he's like, the closest thing i have to a boyfriend right now i guess. but hes not my boyfriend. thats whats wierd. i dont have those kinds of feelings for him. but i dont know why. he's caring, sweet, always there for me, hes pretty hot [i guess :P] but i dunno. i just dont i guess. so then why am i jelous of rachel? because Im worried she's becoming the girl in his life. i guess i like the stability of having him be there for me. its easier to open up to someone when they open up to you. and im worried she'll become the one he goes to when things go wrong. i like being that person. if he cant talk to me anymore, we wont be as close. and thats what im scared of.
Toms starting to get close to some girl. but i know she's not right for him. its not that im jelous exactly, its just that i think it will make our friendship worse. not as close. the fundemental parts of our friendship is the cuddles, the kissing. i feel so close to him, and i tell him everything. he's like, the closest thing i have to a boyfriend right now i guess. but hes not my boyfriend. thats whats wierd. i dont have those kinds of feelings for him. but i dont know why. he's caring, sweet, always there for me, hes pretty hot [i guess :P] but i dunno. i just dont i guess. so then why am i jelous of rachel? because Im worried she's becoming the girl in his life. i guess i like the stability of having him be there for me. its easier to open up to someone when they open up to you. and im worried she'll become the one he goes to when things go wrong. i like being that person. if he cant talk to me anymore, we wont be as close. and thats what im scared of.