...of stimulus.

So I deaden myself because... I'm resigned to the world already being deadened, and so I choose not to disappoint myself.

It's also because I just couldn't take negative stimulus when I was younger. I'm getting more of an actual tolerance as I get older, as opposed to just blocking it out or having my emotions shut down, so I no ( Read more... )

I wish I had paid more attention to certain courses when I was taking them. Wait, no, that's not true, I was paying tons of attention - I just couldn't force any knowledge through my cement-like brain.

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