Just Different (5/5)
“Mrs. Kim.” Baekhyun gives the lady a friendly smile and a short bow. “Is Jongdae home, by any chance?”
“Yes, he is.” Seoyun leans against the dorm frame. “But I’ve been told not to let you in.” she raises an eyebrow as she looks the much younger Alpha up and down as he curses under his breath. “What did you do to my son, Baekhyun?”
“Nothing, Mrs. Kim.”
“Nothing? Is that why he came home, three days early, sobbing his eyes out?” the eyebrow stays raised as she says this. “He hasn’t come out of his room since he’s got here. I bring him food, but he says he’s not hungry.” Seoyun leans forward, and the gaze is so terrifyingly calm as she smiles that Baekhyun has half a mind to leave right this instant. “What did you do to my son?”
Dohyun comes to the door to see what’s keeping Seoyun. When he sees Baekhyun his posture matches that of his mate’s. “Baekhyun.”
“Mr. Kim.” Baekhyun bows to him as well.
“You came just in time, Dohyun. Baekhyun here was just about to tell me what’s going on with Jongdae.”
“I came because he’s not answering my calls, texts, emails, anything.” Baekhyun sighs. “I figured I’d give him some time to calm down, so that the two of us would be able to reasonably sort this out, but he’s refusing to talk to me. I’m a little relieved that you answered the door and not Minseok, because I’m sure I’d have needed an ambulance.”
“You’re damn fucking right.” Minseok appears behind his parents. Great. Everyone is here except for the one person he truly needs. “Give me one reason why I shouldn’t beat your ass right here, right now.”
“Because she kissed me.” Baekhyun realizes how bad that sounds when all their eyes narrow at the same time. “Let me explain, I guess.”
“Why don’t you come in? I’m not paying to air condition the outside.” Dohyun steps aside to give Baekhyun a clear path to enter the house. “Jongdae’s sleeping right now, be quiet.”
When they’re all settled at the dining room table, Junmyeon included because he had already been there eating a snack, Baekhyun begins his story.
“I’ll give you some back story, so there isn’t much confusion. I moved here with my parents last year. I went to the same school as Jongdae, and I ended up, from what I’ve learned, taking his position. In football, and with his old friends. A few of the girls liked me, I knew, but I wasn’t very interested in any of them. They all thought that I liked Taeyeon the most because she was the one that I talked to the most. It was very evident that Taeyeon liked me, but I didn’t like her back like that. Even after I politely rejected her prom proposal she didn’t get it.”
“I remember hearing about a Taeyeon.” Seoyun whispers.
“My fraternity was having a party before spring break started. Taeyeon doesn’t go to our school, but she decided to drop by on the way back here. Of course since she doesn’t go to our school, she doesn’t know Jongdae and I are dating. By the time she comes up to me I can tell that she’s had a few drinks, but she doesn’t seem drunk. Probably tipsy.” Baekhyun frowns. “She starts talking with me, and about twenty minutes into the conversation I can tell that she’s flirting. I casually mentioned that I was in a relationship, and asked her if she had any luck at her school. She didn’t say anything about it. In fact, she kept going after I said it, but I know she heard what I said because she paused.
“She starts talking lower, and now that I think about it she was probably doing it on purpose. I have to lean in a little closer to hear her, and that’s when she wraps her arms around my neck and kisses me on the lips. I didn’t kiss her back. I think I was in shock, and that’s why I didn’t react sooner. I glanced up and I saw Jongdae running out the room, hell, I didn’t even know he had came back in the room, and I snapped to it. My hands had made it to her hips before he saw me, I think. I was getting ready to gently push her away, but it was a very easy to misunderstand gesture.”
“Jongdae is mad, because he saw another person kissing you?”
“Yes.” Baekhyun sighs. “And I haven’t been able to talk to him to tell him what really happened. I came here hoping he’d listen to me in person.”
“How do we know you’re telling the truth?”
“Because I really like Jongdae and I would never do anything to purposely hurt him. I wouldn’t cheat on anybody, if I wanted to be with someone else I’d straight up tell them. Just let me tell Jongdae, please. Then he can decide on where we stand.” Baekhyun pleads.
“Hell, he’s been good to Jongdae since their relationship started. I say give him a chance to explain himself. Like he said, Jongdae can decide where the two stand.” Junmyeon finally comments.
“I’ll lead you to his room then. If he asks you to go, we expect you to be out. If not, we’ll personally kick you out ourselves.” Dohyun stands up and Baekhyun stands with them. They make their way upstairs and Dohyun stops outside Jongdae’s bedroom door. “Here. Make it right.”
Baekhyun waits until Dohyun has descended the stairs before he walks into Jongdae’s room. He doesn’t knock, so Jongdae is still in bed, completely asleep. Baekhyun slowly makes his way over as he gets a good look at Jongdae’s room. It’s mostly clean, except for the few clothes that are on the floor. It smells so much like Jongdae that it nearly overwhelms him. Baekhyun notices an untouched plate of food on Jongdae’s nightstand and sighs as he sits down on the bed.
Jongdae stirs a bit at the weight that shakes the bed, but mostly remains unconscious. Baekhyun takes this time to study his boyfriend, because he doesn’t think he’s ever gotten to see a sleeping Jongdae. During New Year's Baekhyun was the first to go to sleep, and Jongdae had been the first to get up.
Baekhyun leans over Jongdae’s sleeping form and gently shakes him. Jongdae hums a bit before going back to sleep. “Jongdae. Jongdae, wake up.” a few more pushes and Jongdae finally stirs enough to yawn.
“‘M not hungry.” he turns to face Baekhyun, and pauses when he realizes that it’s not his parents or brother or Junmyeon. “What are you doing here?” There’s so much venom in those five words that it hurts Baekhyun to have it directed at him.
“I’m here to talk to you. To make things right.”
“Make things right? Here I was thinking that the right this was for you and Taeyeon to be together.” All venom is now replaced with hurt. “How could you do that to me, Baekhyun?”
“Jongdae, listen. I didn’t do anything to you, as much as it might not look like.” Baekhyun attempts to grab Jongdae’s hand but his boyfriend pulls it away. Fair enough, he’s still mad. “Taeyeon had a few drinks. She came up to me, and she started talking to me. I realized she was flirting and gave her the hint that I was dating, which she should have known meant that I was uninterested. She started talking low, so I leaned down to hear what she was saying, and that's when she wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me. I didn’t kiss back, and I was too shocked to do anything for a brief moment. I was about to push her off when you saw us.”
“Your hands were on her hips.” Jongdae accuses.
“Yes, they were.” Baekhyun doesn’t deny. “But that was because I was getting ready to push her off. I came chasing after you, but you had already left by the time I got to where I thought you had gone. I’ve been calling you, texting you, snapchatting you, and even emailing you. But you didn’t answer.”
“I blocked your number. It’s childish, but I was so upset…” Baekhyun is alarmed by the few tears that start down Jongdae’s cheeks. “I thought you didn’t want me.”
Baekhyun gathers Jongdae into his arms and rubs his boyfriend's back as Jongdae cries into his shoulder. “Jongdae,” he starts, “If I didn’t want you we wouldn’t be together. I want you. I like you so much it hurts sometimes. Seeing you upset hurt me more than anything could have.”
Once Jongdae’s tears slow Baekhyun moves to take Jongdae’s face in his hands. Jongdae’s eyes are red, his nose is too. But Baekhyun doesn’t care as he leans forward to press his lips against Jongdae’s. Jongdae kisses back softly before Baekhyun pulls away. Jongdae looks confused as Baekhyun leans in for another kiss. “The last kiss I had was Taeyeon. I want to forget about her lips. I want to only know yours.” Baekhyun sucks Jongdae’s bottom lip into his mouth and gently nips at Jongdae's lower lip.
Jongdae kisses back with increasing intensity until Jongdae’s back is against his mattress as Baekhyun holds his hands and kisses him. Baekhyun sucks Jongdae’s tongue into his mouth a final time before pulling away. Jongdae’s lips are slightly swollen and wet with their spit, his hair even messier than it had been when Baekhyun first came, and his eyes are full of lust. Baekhyun can smell it too, but he looks down at Jongdae’s crotch for confirmation.
“That was…” Jongdae pauses to catch his breath. “Intense.”
“I can see.” Baekhyun teases, earning a whine from Jongdae as he turns around to bury his face in his blankets. “Want me to handle it?”
“My parents are home. Minseok and Junmyeon are here. That’s embarrassing. Last time you didn’t want to help me with my heat. What makes you decide you want to help?”
“I don’t need to stick my dick in you to get you off.” Baekhyun raises his eyebrows and his hands. “I’ve been told I have nice fingers. And, I always use my mouth. Why shouldn’t I use it to get you off?”
“My family is here.” Jongdae feebly tries to push Baekhyun’s hands away as they inch towards Jongdae’s sweat pants.
“You’ll just have to be quiet, won’t you?’ Baekhyun has a gleam in his eye as he pulls down Jongdae’s sweatpants, leaving the boxers up. He strokes Jongdae’s cock with his hand as he leans in for a kiss. “Think you can be quiet?” Baekhyun whispers against Jongdae’s lips.
Jongdae nods as Baekhyun pulls his cock out through the hole in the front of the boxers. Baekhyun jokingly holds his finger up to his mouth before he lowers his mouth to the front of Jongdae’s boxers. Jongdae can feel his warm breath against the head of his cock and he just wants to urge Baekhyun to do something.
Baekhyun opens his mouth wider as he swallows about half of Jongdae down. Jongdae throws his head back in a silent moan as the wet heat wraps itself around his cock. Baekhyun pulls back up. “You have to be quiet, or else I have to stop.”
Baekhyun must have done this before, though that’s not something Jongdae wants to think about, because Baekhyun knows just how to rub his tongue on the underside of Jongdae’s cockhead and the perfect intensity to suck. Jongdae thinks he’s had it all will Baekhyun starts moving his head up and down at a slow pace. Jongdae has to bring his hand up to bite his fingers as it gets almost too intense. Baekhyun seems to sense his as he pulls up.
“Good, you’re being quiet.” Baekhyun swallows him down again, only to have Jongdae cum almost as soon as his cock makes contact with the back of Baekhyun’s throat. Jongdae had thrown his head back as the orgasm washed over him, and he looks up from this pleasure induced haze in time to see Baekhyun’s adam's apple bob as he swallows Jongdae’s cum.
Baekhyun tucks Jongdae back into his boxers and pulls his sweatpants up before reaching over to the nightstand to get a drink of water. He offers it to Jongdae first, who takes a few gulps before Baekhyun himself downs the rest.
Jongdae sits up in his bed once more to pull Baekhyun close and kiss him.
“Jongdae I just sucked your dick, I don’t think-”
“Shut up. It’s my dick and your mouth.” Jongdae pulls Baekhyun down after the kiss, against the mattress, and pulls the blankets up over them. “Sleepy now.” jongdae informs Baekhyun, who chuckles under his breath.
“I did wake you up. Sleep.”
-
Baekhyun wakes up to him spooning Jongdae, an arm thrown across his chest. Jongdae is still very much asleep because soft snores are coming from him. What woke him up was the sudden light against his eyelids as Seoyun had turned the overhead light on.
“This isn't what it looks like,” Baekhyun says groggily, only for it to be brushed off by Seoyun.
“I didn’t say anything. I assume nothing. I figured I’d call you both down for dinner and see if you two wanted to watch the Avengers with us.” Seoyun tells Baekhyun. “If you’re staying the night you’ll have to borrow some of Jongdae's clothing. You should probably take a shower as well.”
Baekhyun waits until she walks out to wake Jongdae, who stretches out the moment he’s awake. Baekhyun swiftly dodges the fail of Jongdae’s arm. “Your mom just came in.” It takes a moment for Jongdae to process what that means and his eyes go wide once he realizes. “She said we should probably shower.”
Jongdae nods before throwing his legs over the edge of the bed. He looks Baekhyun up and down before nodding. Jongdae makes his way to his dresser where he opens two drawers to pull out two sets of clothes. He throws one at Baekhyun and keeps the other set in his hands. “I’ll show you the bathroom.”
Jongdae decides that it’s best if they shower separately, so he uses the hall restroom while Jongdae goes to shower in his parent’s bathroom.
They get downstairs right as the movie starts, and Seoyun and Dohyun make room for Baekhyun and Jongdae to sit on the couch so they can all watch the movie in comfort. Baekhyun feels like he’s become part of the family.
-
“When does your rut come?”
Baekhyun looks over at Jongdae, who is typing on his cell phone. The question came out of nowhere, and if it weren’t just Baekhyun and Jongdae sitting outside on the bench, Baekhyun wouldn’t have thought that Jongdae was talking to him.
“That was random.” Baekhyun says. “Mine is every four months, so it’ll be here in April. Why do you ask?”
“I don’t know.” Jongdae shrugs as he pockets his phone. “You know when my heats are, but I don’t know when your rut come.”
Baekhyun sits in silence as he thinks about it. “I guess you’re right. I never did tell you when it would happen, did I? Am I’m never around when it comes. I guess I thought you’d get the hint when I would avoid seeing you for a week.”
“But you’d still text me. How was I supposed to know?” Jongdae leans into Baekhyun. “I thought you had important school work to do. How was I supposed to know that you were rubbing one out in your bed?”
“And the shower.” Baekhyun muses. “I don’t know. Common sense?”
“I don’t know, common sense?” Jongdae mocks as he lightly elbows Baekhyun in the stomach. “Whatever. So it’s in a few weeks.”
“Yes.”
“What are you going to do about it?”
“The same thing I did last time. Rub one out in the bed and the shower.” Baekhyun smiles as he wraps an arm around Jongdae.
“You don’t want me to help?”
“Well, you do help.” Baekhyun rubs his hand up and down Jongdae’s bicep. “How do you think I’m able to keep rubbing one out? I think of your pretty face. Or I think of your lips around me. Or I think about me fucking you silly. But alas, my hand has limits.”
Jongdae covers his face to try and prevent Baekhyun from seeing the faint blush that creeps up his cheeks.”Don’t know if I needed to know that.”
“What did you think about last time you went into heat?” Baekhyun teases. “No need to be embarrassed about anything. It’s what couples’ do. They think about each other as they’re masturbating.”
“Usually,” Jongdae interjects. “Couples help each other out by fucking. You refuse to do anything too sexual.”
“I sucked you off last week.” Baekhyun acts as though he’s been insulted. “It was even a makeup blow job. I can’t believe you didn’t find that sexual.”
“You want to know the truth?” Jongdae talks low as a few people pass by the two.
“Of course I want to know the truth.”
“I’m so fucking sexually frustrated it hurts. All because of you.” Jongdae pokes at the hand that’s resting on his shoulder. “I would love for you to fuck me, but you won’t. It’s like a never ending case of blueballs with you. You won’t do anything.”
Baekhyun coughs and shifts in his place. “Uh,” he’s cut off by Jongdae’s rant.
“All my friends have healthy relationships that include sex, which I either hear about, or I see.” Jongdae pauses, “By see I mean hickies and shit like that, not me being a voyeur and watching them have sex.”
Jongdae falls silent, and Baekhyun thinks he’s in the clear before Jongdae finally says, “Why don’t you want to fuck me?”
Baekhyun has to laugh at Jongdae’s bluntness. “I do want to fuck you, but I’m not stupid. Your first heat with me, you weren’t on birth control. I don’t want to be a parent at eighteen. I’m just waiting for the right moment. I’m paranoid that for some reason the birth control will fail, that’s why I don’t want to do anything until you’ve had your second shot.”
“But that isn’t until June.” Jongdae groans.
“Patience, Jongdae. Patience.”
-
Jongdae [12:56PM]
I hope you’re having a great rut
Jongdae [12:56PM]
You imagining my ass?
Jongdae [12:56PM]
All you have to do is ask and I’ll be right over ^.^
Baekhyun groans at the message as he pumps his cock in short and fast strokes. Jongdae is doing this on purpose. “Fucking fuck, Jongdae.” Baekhyun groans as he throws his head back. The orgasm isn’t as satisfying as it could be, which sucks. Baekhyun knows that all he has to do is call Jongdae and tell him to come over, but he’s not going to break his resolve.
Baekhyun [1:01PM]
Thinking about shoving my dick in your mouth to wipe that smirk off.
Baekhyun sees the three little dots signalling that Jongdae is typing, but they go away just as quickly as they come. Baekhyun knows he’s won this round as he pulls the rest of his clothes off to go and take a cold shower. He still has his resolve.
-
Baekhyun finds that resolve wearing thin, especially since it’s the week before finals and all he’s been doing in studying. If he’s not studying with Yifan, Yixing, and Han, then he’s studying with Jongdae. They have their forms of stress relief, he can tell when Han comes in smelling more like Kyungsoo than usual, and when Yifan and Yixing are more touchy.
“You’re stressed.”
“A little.” Baekhyun looks up from his notebook to make eye contact with Han.
“A lot.”
“Yeah, a lot.” Baekhyun admits. “Considering that I have a borderline grade in the class, it’s all I can do to not have a B.”
“Most parents wouldn’t be ashamed by a B.” Yixing comments, looking up from his laptop screen. He’s making some last minutes edits for a thesis paper.
“I know. But my parents’ are smart. That’s why one’s a doctor and the other teaches at a university.” Baekhyun puts the notebook down before rubbing his eyes. “Besides, I’m right there. I just really want an A in the class.”
“What do you do to get rid of the stress?”
“Sleep.” Baekhyun tells them honestly. “I don’t have much time for anything else.”
“Not even Jongdae?” Han asks.
“I study with him sometimes, yeah.” Baekhyun looks back down at his book but his friends aren't letting it go so easily.
“Just study?”
“Yes. Just study.” Baekhyun looks up. “Jongdae and I have agreed on no sex until June. I’m not going to break that agreement just because I’m stressed during finals.”
“Jongdae and you agreed, or just you?” Yixing raises an eyebrow.
“Both of us?”
“You sure about that, Baekhyun?” Han leans forward to place his hand over Baekhyun’s notes. “Last time I heard, Jongdae was upset because you didn’t want to have sex with him. And before you ask, he was talking to Kyungsoo, not me.”
“I just want us to be safe and protected.” Baekhyun frowns. “The last thing I want is a baby that neither of us can take care of and have to give away. Birth control fails sometimes.”
The three around him make a small noise of understanding, because Baekhyun had been given away by his birth parents. Even though he never shows much emotion about it on the subject he must still feel strongly enough about it to not have sex.
“Alright then, back to calc…” Han smoothly turns the subject back to their studies. There’s an odd look on his face, but Baekhyun doesn’t bother to ask about it.
-
“Now?” Baekhyun groans as Jongdae wipes a bit of sweat from his face. “It couldn’t wait two weeks?”
“Hey, I think I feel what you’re feeling a little more.” Jongdae throws his head back against the wall. “Hell, I’d rather it happen the week of finals so I could at least finish studying.” Jongdae slams his book shut before stuffing it in his backpack. “Hopefully it’ll be over by the time my finals start.”
Jongdae stands up and Baekhyun stands with him. The two had decided to study outdoors in private, so they had sat down at the back of a building, facing the wooded area that was in front of them.
Jongdae isn’t expecting Baekhyun to grab his shoulders once they’re both standing.
Baekhyun practically slams Jongdae against the wall, shoving his tongue down Jongdae’s throat before the other can complain about any back pain. Jongdae doesn’t kiss him back for a brief moment, but Baekhyun soon finds Jongdae’s tongue battling his own.
Jongdae is kissing him as though he’s a dehydrated man finally getting water to sate his thirst. Baekhyun slowly places his right knee between Jongdae’s legs, spreading them. Baekhyun rubs against Jongdae’s semi hard cock, gripping it through the fabric of his jeans. This action makes Jongdae weak in the knees, but Baekhyun makes sure he doesn’t fall.
“Baekhyun?” Jongdae moans as Baekhyun leaves Jongdae’s lips alone to opt for leaving a trail of kisses down Jongdae’s glorious neck.’
“Hmm?” Baekhyun moans as he sucks a hickie onto Jongdae’s neck. Jongdae raises an arm to grab Baekhyun.
“What happened.. to no sex… until June?”
“Hmm.” Baekhyun buries his nose into the junction between Jongdae’s neck and his shoulder. Just smelling his boyfriend’s sweetened and intensified scent has Baekhyun growing harder in his pants. “This isn’t sex.” Baekhyun pulls away to look at their surroundings, making sure he has enough privacy to make his next step.
“Then what ar-” Jongdae’s voice is cut as Baekhyun’s right hand makes it to the back of Jongdae. Baekhyun’s fingers easily slip into Jongdae’s sweatpants and boxers, and Baekhyun goes even lower until he gets a hint of slickness on his fingers.
“What are you doing?” Jongdae gets a more completely sentence out. “Do you see where we are?”
“Of course I do…” Baekhyun slides his fingers down until they rub across Jongdae’ soaked entrance. “Do you want me to stop?” he whispers as he leans forward to kiss Jongdae’s lips. “You’re soaking wet. You’re lucky these sweatpants are dark, or else everyone would see how much you’re leaking. Is it always like this?”
“I…” Jongdae bites his lip as Baekhyun actually pushes a finger in him. In broad daylight. It’s odd, having a finger in him that isn’t his own, but he can’t say he’s opposed to it. Baekhyun has slim fingers that are longer than Jongdae’s own. That, along with his slick, makes it so that when Baekhyun adds another finger it isn’t as uncomfortable as it is when Jongdae has two of his own fingers in himself.
“You what?” Baekhyun pulls away to make eye contact with Jongdae. Jongdae nearly cums on the spot at the intensity of his stare. He forgets what the question is completely as Baekhyun pushes his fingers further into Jongdae. Jongdae can feels as the rest of Baekhyun’s hand presses against his ass.
“No? Yes? Maybe.” Jongdae inches his ass down just a little, just to get Baekhyun’s fingers deeper into him.
Baekhyun pulls his fingers out of Jongdae’s pants to get a good look at his fingers. He spreads the two apart that had been inside of Jongdae and watches as a thin trail of Jongdae’s slick stretches out between his fingers. Jongdae watches as well, and he thinks he’s going to faint right on the spot when Baekhyun brings those fingers up to his mouth and licks them.
“You taste so good.” Baekhyun doesn’t describe Jongdae’s taste to him, instead opting to bring those fingers up to his mouth to suck on. The taste is sweet, but not too sweet, along with the taste that Baekhyun would associate with Jongdae and no one else.
Baekhyun looks Jongdae in the eyes, then down at their crotches. Jongdae’s erection is slightly more noticeable because of his sweatpants, where Baekhyun’s is more uncomfortable because of his skinny jeans.
It’s looking into Jongdae’s eyes that brings Baekhyun back to reality. His boyfriend is in heat, and he just fingered him out in the public, when he should have gotten his boyfriend to his room as soon as possible. He reaches behind Jongdae to make sure that his pants are properly pulled up before taking Jongdae’s hand.
“We should get you back to your dorm.” Baekhyun mutters as he tries to pull Jongdae away from the wall. Jongdae is having none of it as he puts his foot down. Literally. Jongdae stops his foot as hard as he can, though it doesn’t make as much noise as he would have liked.
“What the actual fuck Baekhyun.” Jongdae yells. He doesn’t care if anyone hears his shout of anger. Baekhyun steps back, momentarily surprised. “How the fuck are you going to do what you just did, and just end it with ‘we should get you back to your dorm’? If you’re going to do that the least you could do is get me off. I have waited so long for you to just do something and you refuse to. Why? If you’re not going to help with this then don’t touch me at all.”
“Sorry?” Baekhyun isn’t sure how to approach the situation.
“Sorry? Sorry for what? For making me wait for sex? For leading me on? Baekhyun, if you don’t want our relationship to go further then just tell me. I would have liked to hope that my boyfriend of seven months, almost eight, would help me with my heat at least once but you refuse to. I’m so done with it. Take me back to my dorm. And don’t touch me.”
Baekhyun follows Jongdae’s instructions. Before Jongdae walks into the building Baekhyun mutters a soft, “I’ll… talk to you when this is over?”
“Yeah. I apparently need time to myself, right?” Jongdae turns around without saying goodbye to enter the building.
Even after a few days when the heat isn’t as intense, Jongdae doesn’t feel any guilt about snapping at Baekhyun, because he deserved it.
-
Jongdae had to take his finals all on the same day, about two days after the school year had ended. He feels bad for it because Minseok and Junmyeon have to stay behind to take him back home. When he walks out of his last final he scans the parking lot in search of Minseok’s car. His brother had told him that he’d be waiting outside yesterday.
Teacher cars are still there, but what draws Jongdae in is the black car that he’d know from anywhere. He narrows his eyes at it before the door opens and there’s Baekhyun, getting out the car and waving Jongdae over.
Jongdae reluctantly makes his way over. “What are you still doing here? School ended two days ago.”
Baekhyun shrugs. “I was waiting for you to finish your finals. I’m going to take you home.”
“Actually, Minseok’s supposed to take me home.” Jongdae says as he looks Baekhyun’s car over. “Thanks for the offer.”
“Actually,” Baekhyun begins his sentence as he walks over to Jongdae. “Minseok and Junmyeon went home yesterday.”
Jongdae raises an eyebrow in disbelief. “I don’t think Minseok would do that.”
“Well, he did.” Baekhyun opens the passenger side door and motions for Jongdae to get in. “After I convinced him that I’m able to safely get you home. If you don’t believe me you can check my trunk. Some of your stuff is in there. The rest is at your house.”
Jongdae knows Baekhyun has no reason to lie, so he gets in the car and Baekhyun shuts the door for him before making his way around to the other side. The car’s air conditioning has made it a relieving cool compared to the midday summer outside.
Baekhyun backs out of the parking spot and makes his way to the nearest highway that’ll get them home. It isn’t until they’re about thirty minutes into the drive that Baekhyun turns down the radio, the only thing that was keeping the car from having an awkward silence.
“Jongdae, I just want to say that I’m sorry.” Baekhyun doesn’t take his eyes off the road as he speaks. “I… I hadn’t realized how one sided the whole sex thing was. I guess I pressured you into agreeing with my ideas about sex.”
“Hmm.” Jongdae agrees without speaking a word.
“I’m just scared.” Baekhyun finally admits, causing Jongdae to look at his boyfriend in confusion. “I don’t want to risk getting you pregnant. We’re in college, Jongdae. We aren’t ready to become parents. And what if you did get pregnant and we’d have to give it away, for some unknown family to adopt? What if the family didn’t want us to see the baby?”
Realization dawns on Jongdae’s face as Baekhyun speaks more and more. His boyfriend is clearly getting more worked up about this subject, and Jongdae curses the fact that they’re in a moving car because he can’t get up and hug Baekhyun.
“If that were to ever happen, I don’t think I’d want that to put a dent in our relationship. Because I love you, Jongdae, and I don’t want something stupid like that breaking us up. But I’ve been an asshole and I’m pretty sure you think about breaking up with me at least once a month, and it hurts me because I love you so much, but I just didn’t know how to tell you.”
Jongdae turns and looks directly into the road, shock preventing him from saying anything. Baekhyun just told him he loved him. In the middle of a rant, he told him that he loves him. Jongdae now completely understands why Baekhyun was so hesitant to have sex. He understands why Baekhyun wants to wait. This overwhelming sense of guilt comes over Jongdae. Because while Baekhyun had been pressuring Jongdae, Jongdae had been pressuring right back.
He had probably had Baekhyun thinking about things that he didn’t want to think about. Jongdae should have been more considerate considering that it was his boyfriend, and he should know what does and doesn’t upset his boyfriend. In his own defense, Baekhyun never seemed to get too worked up about the subject of his adoption. Hell, Jongdae didn’t even know if Baekhyun knew why his birth parents had given him up. He wonders if it had something to do with what Baekhyun was talking about.
“I’m so sorry.” Jongdae begins, keeping his eyes on the road. “I am so sorry. I was being selfish. I was only thinking about myself and us on a shallow level, not a deeper one. I’m such a fucking asshole. I can’t believe I didn’t think about any of that.” Jongdae squeezes his knees with his hands. “I wish you had told me earlier, then maybe we wouldn’t be having this conversation right now, and some of these stupid arguments could have been prevented.”
“It’s alright, Jongdae.” Baekhyun’s grin doesn’t quite reach his eyes. “We’ll get over it now. Fresh start.” Baekhyun doesn’t wait for a response, instead he turns the music back up in the car and continues to drive.
It isn’t until Jongdae is home and in his bed that he realizes that Baekhyun said I love you, see you soon when he was dropped off and Jongdae didn’t say anything back.
-
“What’s got you so down in the dumps? Boy trouble?” Seohyun smiles as she helps Jongdae unpack some of his belongings. Minseok had told her that he didn’t need her help, so she went to her other son and guilted him into letting her help. She says it as a joke, but doesn’t expect her son to actually nod.
“Yeah, actually.”
“Again?” Seohyun begins to fold a few shirts out of Jongdae’s suitcase, because it’s obvious that he just threw them all in there. “What is it about this time?”
“Baekhyun told me he loves me.” Jongdae says it nonchalantly, hoping his mother would just shrug it off, but she freezes instantly at this news. This is this first and only child that she’ll hear this from, hear about the first ‘I love you’. She can’t mess this up.
“Oh? Did you say it back?”
“No.” Jongdae’s voice slips into a whine. “Mom, I don’t know how I feel. I really really like Baekhyun. But, at the same time I’m a little confused. He cares about us in more ways than I could care about us. I’ve spent so much time with him, but I don’t know if I love him. How did you know you loved Dad?”
Seohyun doesn’t know how to properly tell her son this, because it varies from person to person. And she tells him that, ending with, “Jongdae, you’ll know when and if you love him. Don’t be scared to tell him, either. Baekhyun loves you, he won’t shun you for saying that you love him back.”
Jongdae nods his head as Seohyun picks a pair of pants up. “Do you not know how to wash your clothes?”
“Mom.”
-
Jongdae and Baekhyun spend much of the summer together. Some nights Jongdae spends the night at Baekhyun’s, some nights Baekhyun at Jongdae’s. They’ve progressed to talking it out whenever they’d get frustrated at each other, instead of full on ignoring each other. Jongdae still doesn’t know if it’s time for him to tell Baekhyun he loves him, but each day he finds himself getting closer and closer to that moment.
-
It’s August, two weeks before school starts, when Baekhyun calls him up and asks if Jongdae wants to spend the week at his house. Jongdae doesn’t have to hesitate before saying no. Baekhyun’s voice sounds confused over the line.
“Why not?”
“My heat is supposed to start in a few days.” Jongdae informs Baekhyun.
“Well, I know that. My rut is supposed to start sometime this week. There’s a reason I invited you over for a week.” Baekhyun tells him. Jongdae pauses long enough for Baekhyun to ask, “Hello? Jongdae?”
“Oh, yeah. Uh, are you sure about this?” Jongdae’s heart is raising as he says this. If Baekhyun is completely sure, then this means but this time next week, he’ll know the feeling of having Baekhyun’s dick in his ass. Plus, his heat won’t last as long this time.
“Of course I’m sure. I’ve had all summer to think this over. If I wasn’t sure then I wouldn’t have called you and asked.” Baekhyun laughs. “Are you alright with that? If not it’s totally fine. We can spend our weeks furiously jacking off, if you’re more comfortable with that.”
“No!” Jongdae shouts, a chuckle seeping through the phone. “I’m fine with spending the week at your house. But what about your parents?”
“You think I wouldn’t ask them before calling you? I’m not going to risk my moms walking in on me pounding you into the bed.” Baekhyun pauses before a soft, “If we stayed in the bedroom. Besides the fact that they said it’ll be alright if you stay over, they also said that they’d be more than willing to leave the house to us if we promise not to destroy anything.”
“I guess if it’s okay with them…” Jongdae smiles, even though Baekhyun can’t see it.
“Good. Want to come over on Tuesday?” Baekhyun asks. “That’s a day before your heat starts. My parents won’t leave until your heat has officially started though, if that’s okay with you?”
“Oh, yeah. That’s fine, Baekhyun. I’ll see you Tuesday then?”
“Tuesday.”
Jongdae wastes no time in going to Junmyeon and Minseok, who only stare at him as though he’s a madman when he bursts into their room. The two are sat on the bed, watching the computer screen. They’re probably watching some show on Netflix.
“Baekhyun invited me over his house. On Tuesday. To spend a week.”
Junmyeon leans forward to tap the spacebar to pause the show. “Good for you?” he’s obviously confused to why Jongdae is telling them this, because he’s spent the night at Baekhyun’s house before.
“My heat is going to start when I’m there.”
That grabs Minseok’s complete attention as his eyebrows raise. He doesn’t want to seem like he’s completely opposed to the idea, because he knows his little brother and how just looking the wrong way could encourage Jongdae to do things. “Oh? Are you going to spend the week there then? Or did you tell him no?”
“I told him I was going to spend the week there.”
MInseok takes a few calming breaths before nodding. “Well. Have fun. Be safe. If you need us to get you just call.” Junmyeon looks at his mate and can tell that Minseok is seconds from losing it. But it’s Jongdae’s decision, and Minseok knows that.
“I’m kind of nervous, actually.” Jongdae says. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.”
“Do whatever you think is right.” Junmyeon shrugs his shoulders. “Baekhyun will treat you right to help you through the heat. He’s treated you right this entire relationship. Don’t stress too much over it.”
-
Hyesun and Solmi are who open the door for Jongdae once he arrives. They smile at him and motion for him to come in. “Good to see you again, Jongdae.”
“Hey, how are you two?” Jongdae gives them both a hug as Solmi takes his suitcase out his hand and Hyesun walks him to the living room, where Baekhyun is sitting and watching TV.
Baekhyun looks over at him with a smile as Hyesun walks Jongdae to the couch and waits for him to sit down before she walks away. “What was that about?”
Baekhyun shrugs. “They’re just being extra silly today. Probably because they know what’s going to go on in a few days.” Baekhyun pauses to look away from Jongdae, to see Solmi peering into the livingroom. She’s acting as though she doesn’t want to be seen, and fakes surprise when Jongdae turns to see her as well.
“What are they doing?”
“Playing games.” Baekhyun waves at his mother, who removes her head from sight. “They’re just excited and ready.”
“Ready for what? They’re not the ones having sex for the first time.”
“Ready for me to become a man?” Baekhyun jokes as Jongdae punches his shoulder.
-
Jongdae wakes up to a push against his shoulder. He assumes it’s Baekhyun, but Baekhyun’s sleeping on the other side of the bed from where the annoying poke is. He slowly opens an eye to turn to tell the person to stop, but doesn’t get the words out as Solmi brings a finger to her mouth to tell him to hush.
“Hyesun and I are about to get going.” she whispers. Jongdae isn’t sure why they’re going. His heat hasn’t started yet; they said they weren’t going to leave until his heat started. He goes to voice his question when Solmi continues. “Baekhyun’s rut started. Hyesun and I better get out of here and let you two have time to yourselves. Be safe. Be careful. Call us or your parents if you need anything. Tell Baekhyun we went to his grandparent’s house when he wakes up.” she pats Jongdae’s head before turning and shutting the door to Baekhyun’s room.
Jongdae doesn’t think he can go back to sleep now, suddenly aware of how Baekhyun’s scent is slowly intensifying. It’s assaulting Jongdae’s senses, he can barely think. He knows he should get some sleep though, because he’s never spent a heat, or a rut, with anyone, so he doesn’t know how much sleep he’s going to be able to get.
It proves difficult, but Jongdae falls asleep after burying his nose into Baekhyun’s pillow and thinking of things that aren’t his boyfriend.
Baekhyun wakes up to find himself rutting against something. He’s so used to waking up to himself grinding into a mattress or a pillow that he immediately knows that it is Jongdae’s body. Baekhyun musters it in himself to pull away from his boyfriend. He sits up in the bed and stares at Jongdae, who smells so unbelievably good. Baekhyun has to count to ten in his head to keep himself from ripping the blankets off of them both and going to town on Jongdae.
Baekhyun is sure Jongdae’s heat has started, and he knows for a fact that his own rut has begun. Baekhyun wants so badly to wake Jongdae up, but he doesn’t want to interrupt his boyfriend’s rest.
“Finally awake?” Jongdae croaks as he sits up on his side of the bed, eyes focused on Baekhyun’s rugged appearance. “I was waiting.”
“When did you wake up?”
“When you started rubbing your dick against my ass.” Jongdae stretched out, a yawn leaving his mouth. “I think your rut started my heat. Because I was not like this when Hyesun and Solmi left.”
“How do you know?”
“Solmi woke me up to tell me they were leaving. I thought that they wouldn’t go until my heat started up?” Jongdae throws the blankets off himself because he’s too hot under them. And before anything goes on he needs to brush his teeth because morning breath doesn’t seem like a nice taste to kiss to.
“They were expecting your heat to start before my rut did.” Baekhyun follows Jongdae to the bathroom, mimicking his boyfriend’s movements as he gets his toothbrush and toothpaste. “They wanted to leave before my rut may have started one of their heats.”
“But they’re your moms?” Jongdae speaks up over the scrubbing of the toothbrush against his tongue. “Why would your rut start their heats?” Jongdae spits the foams out into the sink and moves to the side so Baekhyun go do the same.
“Not biologically, so my rut can actually have some affect on them.” Baekhyun wipes his mouth and turns to Jongdae. Things have gotten awkward now that they’re in such a small space. They both know what’s going to happen, they just don’t know how they’re going to get there.
“Let’s go back to your room?” Jongdae suggests. Baekhyun nods in agreement.
Baekhyun pulls Jongdae into his lap as he pulls Jongdae’s face close so that he can kiss him. Jongdae’s knees are on either side of his lap so his ass is right against Baekhyun’s cock. Jongdae moans as Baekhyun thrusts his tongue into his mouth, almost as if Baekhyun is trying to fuck Jongdae’s mouth with his own tongue.
Jongdae wraps his arms around Baekhyun’s neck to pull him closer, a soft moan falling from Jongdae’s lips as he wiggles his ass against Baekhyun. Baekhyun retaliates by canting his hips up, a clear outline of Baekhyun’s cock nestling itself into Jongdae’s ass.
Baekhyun pulls away from Jongdae’s mouth to focus on removing Jongdae’s sleep shirt. It comes off of Jongdae without any fight, and Baekhyun gets a chance to marvel at Jongdae’s smooth skin that’s underneath the shirt. It’s not the first time he’s seen Jongdae shirtless, but it's the first time that he’s seen Jongdae so sweaty. It looks wonderful on him.
“Baekhyun,” Jongdae whines when Baekhyun stops what he’s doing to just stare. “Please?”
Baekhyun reaches down to grab Jongdae’s hips, lifting him off his lap. He turns them so he’s able to throw Jongdae onto the bed, giving Baekhyun the ability to pull Jongdae’s boxers down. He had been leaking enough for the slick to seep through Jongdae’s boxers and through Baekhyun’s.
Sure, Baekhyun had sucked Jongdae off, and fingered his ass, but he’s never seen Jongdae this exposed. He slowly spreads Jongdae’s legs, getting a great view of his boyfriend. His cock was curved towards his stomach, and down below Baekhyun could see the shine of the slick coming out of Jongdae’s ass. He remembers when he first got to taste it, now he wants it directly from the source.
He doesn’t think Jongdae is expecting Baekhyun to eat him out, because the second Jongdae feels Baekhyun’s lips on his rim his legs clamp shut in surprise. “Baekhyun? What are you doing?” Jongdae moans as Baekhyun pushes his legs away from his head.
“I’m going to eat you out. Is that a problem?” Baekhyun looks up from between Jongdae’s legs, and Jongdae looks down to make eye contact with his boyfriend. Baekhyun’s covered in sweat, a predatory look on his face. Jongdae can’t find it in himself to say yes, so he shakes his head.
Baekhyun givens a testing lick of Jongdae’s rim before pulling his tongue back into his mouth. He moans so loud that it embarrasses Jongdae. “Oh, why didn’t we do this before?” it’s rhetorical, and Jongdae doesn’t respond in risk of ruining the mood.
Baekhyun slowly licks into Jongdae, moaning again at the taste. He eats Jongdae out as though he hasn’t eaten or drinking for days. Jongdae’s slick just keep coming, a never ending supply of lube that allows for Baekhyun to slide his finger in alongside his tongue. Jongdae clenches around the latest intrusion, but eases up as soon as Baekhyun pulls away to allow more fingers to go into him.
Baekhyun’s fingers are small enough, and Jongdae is wet enough for Baekhyun to have three fingers inside of Jongdae without complaint. Baekhyun crooks his fingers just right, and more slick comes out. Jongdae moans as his back arches up.
“Did you like that?” Baekhyun puts a hand on Jongdae’s hip to give him leverage as he thrusts his fingers in harder, Jongdae groans. Baekhyun lowers his head to take Jongdae’s cock into his mouth. He bobs his head in time with his fingers. Jongdae’s hand lowers to Baekhyun’s hair as he grips it. It hurts a little, but Baekhyun doesn’t complain or pull off.
“Fuck, Baekhyun, I’m gonna cum.” Jongdae groans. Baekhyun won’t pull off, so Jongdae has no choice but to shoot his load down Baekhyun’s throat. Baekhyun pulls off and opens his mouth, showing Jongdae just how much cum Jongdae released. Jongdae watches in amazement as Baekhyun swallows without hesitation.
“Alright, let’s fuck this out. How’s that sound?” Baekhyun pulls Jongdae close to his hips by grabbing Jongdae’s legs and pulling him forward. Baekhyun slides his boxers off and begins to stroke himself. Jongdae, unable to take his eyes of Baekhyun, watches in amazement as Baekhyun’s dick grows slightly harder.
“Can I fuck you now?”
Jongdae is caught off guard by the question. He laughs, throwing his head back, before making eye contact. “Yes. Please. Fuck me. Baekhyun, please. I’ve been waiting so fucking long for you.”
Baekhyun nods at this verbal approval as he spreads Jongdae’s legs. Jongdae watches as Baekhyun grabs his cock once again and leads it towards his rim. Jongdae feels the heat of Baekhyun’s cock before it’s even fully in him. The moment the tip touches Jongdae’s hole he moans and slides his hips down. It’s enough to have just the head of Baekhyun’s cock in him.
Baekhyun can’t hold himself back any more as he slams his hips forward, slamming into Jongdae. The breath leaves Jongdae’s lungs as he slides up the bed just from the force of Baekhyun’s thrust. They don’t need any time to adjust, so Baekhyun makes quick work of getting Jongdae off.
Where an Omega needs multiple orgasms to calm a heat, an Alpha only needs one. Baekhyun leans over Jongdae, grabbing Jongdae’s wrists in his hands, having total control over the situation. Jongdae spreads his legs wider as Baekhyun thrusts deeper. Baekhyun makes eye contact to make sure that Jongdae is okay with this, and Jongdae leans up slightly to kiss Baekhyun’s chapped lips to assure him that it’s alright to be a little rough with him.
Baekhyun grinds into Jongdae as he feels his knot start to grow, trailing kisses down Jongdae’s chest until he can’t bend any more. He lets go of Jongdae’s wrists to move his hands towards Jongdae’s hips.
Jongdae’s face has gone red and his breath has gotten short with the promise of another orgasm. It doesn’t come. Instead, Baekhyun pulls out. Jongdae begins to look towards Baekhyun to ask him why he stopped, but Baekhyun flips Jongdae over so that his elbows are against the mattress.
Baekhyun enters again, lowering himself until his chest is against Jongdae’s back, and Jongdae’s torso edges ever so slowly towards the mattress as Baekhyun grinds, the beginning of Baekhyun’s knot rubbing against his prostate.
Jongdae doesn’t give any warning to his next orgasm, but Baekhyun can tell just from the clenching around his cock and the increase of breath. Jongdae’s cum splatters against Baekhyun’s bedsheet, but he doesn’t find it in himself to care as he pulls out and rubs Jongdae’s back, allowing for a quick breather.
“You alright?”
“Yeah,” Jongdae breathes out. “I think one more?”
“Alright.”
Jongdae pulls himself up and into Baekhyun’s lap. Baekhyun holds his cock up as Jongdae sinks down onto it, softly rocking his hips. Baekhyun can tell that Jongdae wants this to be slow, so it’ll go slow.
Baekhyun rests his hands on his hips, and while Jongdae maintains the pace, Baekhyun is doing most of the work as he lifts and drops Jongdae down onto his cock. Jongdae’s slick leaks down Baekhyun’s cock, resting in his lap.
“Baekhyun.” Jongdae moans when Baekhyun thrusts up this time. Baekhyun does it again, earning the same response. The faster he brings Jongdae down the faster Jongdae moans his name. Just hearing it has Baekhyun’s knot growing. As it pulls against Jongdae’s rim with increasing resistance he knows that it’ll soon be too big to pull out.
“Baekhyun.” the tone of this is different. Meaningful. Baekhyun focuses more on Jongdae’s soft whimpers and whispers, Jongdae gasping as Baekhyun’s knot pulls a little too hard against his rim, and Baekhyun knows he can no longer pull out.
Jongdae throws his head back, a groan loud enough to pop out the veins in his neck leaving his mouth. Jongdae sinks down and rides Baekhyun’s dick as intensely as he can, moaning as he feels Baekhyun’s knot swell even more.
Baekhyun can feel his cock throbbing in Jongdae, ready to unload. The sensation of Baekhyun’s nearly completed knot has Jongdae stopping from the stimulation. It’s almost too much. Then he begins once more, after catching his breath.
Jongdae doesn’t attempt to lift himself, instead opting to roll his hips so that Baekhyun’s cock feel every inch of his walls. Jongdae’s breath hitches, signalling that he’s almost there. That’s when he looks Baekhyun in the eyes as he leans down to pull his boyfriend in for a kiss. It’s slow, passionate, and filled with something. Jongdae now knows what this is. That feeling that’s been at the back of his mind and heart whenever he and Baekhyun are together.
“I love you.” Jongdae whispers as he pulls away, and just the emotion behind those words is enough to set Baekhyun off. His knot throbs as he unloads, filling Jongdae to the brim. Jongdae cums too, though he isn’t sure why this orgasm is the most intense one he’s had in his life. Baekhyun’s knot locks them together.
Baekhyun looks Jongdae in the eyes, now that there’s nowhere for either of them to go. “Are you sure, Jongdae? Are you sure?”
“Yes.” Jongdae nods, leaning forward to rest his head against Baekhyun’s shoulder. “This isn’t something that I’m just saying in a moment of heat. I love you, Baekhyun. I think I’ve just been too scared to admit it. I’ve been feeling weird ever since you told me you loved me. Now I know why.”
“Scared to admit you love me?” Baekhyun laughs as he kisses Jongdae’s sweaty forehead. “I said it first. I would have hoped that you would have gotten over all nervousness then and there. I wasn’t sure you loved me, but you never stopped and told me you didn’t.”
“Well, I love you. I hope you know that now. After all these months, you deserve to know the truth.” Jongdae grins as Baekhyun wraps his arms around him and pulls him close. “How long do you think we’re going to be stuck like this?”
Baekhyun shrugs. “Usually the books talk about how it can take up to an hour for newly mated couples to unknot. But, we’re not newly mated. I figure it’ll be about fifteen more minutes. Then we can shower and take a nap until it starts back up. How does that sound?”
“I love the sound of that.”
-
Baekhyun calls his parents and tells them that they can come back home the day after his rut ends. Jongdae’s heat had been broken a day before Baekhyun’s rut had. They both took long showers to get rid of the smell of sex and even washed Baekhyun’s blanket and sheets multiple times.
Hyesun and Solmi come home to find Baekhyun and Jongdae sleep on the couch, a movie on the TV screen. They take a picture for later embarrassment and to show Jongdae’s family before going up to their own room to nap in a familiar and far more comfortable bed.
-
Hyesun and Solmi invite Jongdae’s family over to dinner one night, insisting that they spend some time together before the kids all went back to school.
During their meal Dohyun speaks up after swallowing down his food. “I’ll be honest,” He grins as Jongdae looks towards him. “When Hyesun and Solmi insisted that we come over, I thought they were bringing us to show that Baekhyun and Jongdae had mated.”
Jongdae buries his head in his hands while Baekhyun awkwardly laughs.
“Me too,” Minseok agrees, adding to his brother’s misery. “How you two managed to get through the whole week without mating astounds me.”
“Do you two ever plan on mating?” Hyesun’s more reasonable question filters in. “If so, when?”
“We could do it right now if the subject would be dropped.” Baekhyun teases, making his way towards Jongdae.
“Not now, Baekhyun.” Jongdae grins and slaps Baekhyun’s hands away. “At least wait until after dessert.”
As the table laughs Baekhyun and Jongdae look at each other, and they share a look that says that they could get used to this.
“Yes, he is.” Seoyun leans against the dorm frame. “But I’ve been told not to let you in.” she raises an eyebrow as she looks the much younger Alpha up and down as he curses under his breath. “What did you do to my son, Baekhyun?”
“Nothing, Mrs. Kim.”
“Nothing? Is that why he came home, three days early, sobbing his eyes out?” the eyebrow stays raised as she says this. “He hasn’t come out of his room since he’s got here. I bring him food, but he says he’s not hungry.” Seoyun leans forward, and the gaze is so terrifyingly calm as she smiles that Baekhyun has half a mind to leave right this instant. “What did you do to my son?”
Dohyun comes to the door to see what’s keeping Seoyun. When he sees Baekhyun his posture matches that of his mate’s. “Baekhyun.”
“Mr. Kim.” Baekhyun bows to him as well.
“You came just in time, Dohyun. Baekhyun here was just about to tell me what’s going on with Jongdae.”
“I came because he’s not answering my calls, texts, emails, anything.” Baekhyun sighs. “I figured I’d give him some time to calm down, so that the two of us would be able to reasonably sort this out, but he’s refusing to talk to me. I’m a little relieved that you answered the door and not Minseok, because I’m sure I’d have needed an ambulance.”
“You’re damn fucking right.” Minseok appears behind his parents. Great. Everyone is here except for the one person he truly needs. “Give me one reason why I shouldn’t beat your ass right here, right now.”
“Because she kissed me.” Baekhyun realizes how bad that sounds when all their eyes narrow at the same time. “Let me explain, I guess.”
“Why don’t you come in? I’m not paying to air condition the outside.” Dohyun steps aside to give Baekhyun a clear path to enter the house. “Jongdae’s sleeping right now, be quiet.”
When they’re all settled at the dining room table, Junmyeon included because he had already been there eating a snack, Baekhyun begins his story.
“I’ll give you some back story, so there isn’t much confusion. I moved here with my parents last year. I went to the same school as Jongdae, and I ended up, from what I’ve learned, taking his position. In football, and with his old friends. A few of the girls liked me, I knew, but I wasn’t very interested in any of them. They all thought that I liked Taeyeon the most because she was the one that I talked to the most. It was very evident that Taeyeon liked me, but I didn’t like her back like that. Even after I politely rejected her prom proposal she didn’t get it.”
“I remember hearing about a Taeyeon.” Seoyun whispers.
“My fraternity was having a party before spring break started. Taeyeon doesn’t go to our school, but she decided to drop by on the way back here. Of course since she doesn’t go to our school, she doesn’t know Jongdae and I are dating. By the time she comes up to me I can tell that she’s had a few drinks, but she doesn’t seem drunk. Probably tipsy.” Baekhyun frowns. “She starts talking with me, and about twenty minutes into the conversation I can tell that she’s flirting. I casually mentioned that I was in a relationship, and asked her if she had any luck at her school. She didn’t say anything about it. In fact, she kept going after I said it, but I know she heard what I said because she paused.
“She starts talking lower, and now that I think about it she was probably doing it on purpose. I have to lean in a little closer to hear her, and that’s when she wraps her arms around my neck and kisses me on the lips. I didn’t kiss her back. I think I was in shock, and that’s why I didn’t react sooner. I glanced up and I saw Jongdae running out the room, hell, I didn’t even know he had came back in the room, and I snapped to it. My hands had made it to her hips before he saw me, I think. I was getting ready to gently push her away, but it was a very easy to misunderstand gesture.”
“Jongdae is mad, because he saw another person kissing you?”
“Yes.” Baekhyun sighs. “And I haven’t been able to talk to him to tell him what really happened. I came here hoping he’d listen to me in person.”
“How do we know you’re telling the truth?”
“Because I really like Jongdae and I would never do anything to purposely hurt him. I wouldn’t cheat on anybody, if I wanted to be with someone else I’d straight up tell them. Just let me tell Jongdae, please. Then he can decide on where we stand.” Baekhyun pleads.
“Hell, he’s been good to Jongdae since their relationship started. I say give him a chance to explain himself. Like he said, Jongdae can decide where the two stand.” Junmyeon finally comments.
“I’ll lead you to his room then. If he asks you to go, we expect you to be out. If not, we’ll personally kick you out ourselves.” Dohyun stands up and Baekhyun stands with them. They make their way upstairs and Dohyun stops outside Jongdae’s bedroom door. “Here. Make it right.”
Baekhyun waits until Dohyun has descended the stairs before he walks into Jongdae’s room. He doesn’t knock, so Jongdae is still in bed, completely asleep. Baekhyun slowly makes his way over as he gets a good look at Jongdae’s room. It’s mostly clean, except for the few clothes that are on the floor. It smells so much like Jongdae that it nearly overwhelms him. Baekhyun notices an untouched plate of food on Jongdae’s nightstand and sighs as he sits down on the bed.
Jongdae stirs a bit at the weight that shakes the bed, but mostly remains unconscious. Baekhyun takes this time to study his boyfriend, because he doesn’t think he’s ever gotten to see a sleeping Jongdae. During New Year's Baekhyun was the first to go to sleep, and Jongdae had been the first to get up.
Baekhyun leans over Jongdae’s sleeping form and gently shakes him. Jongdae hums a bit before going back to sleep. “Jongdae. Jongdae, wake up.” a few more pushes and Jongdae finally stirs enough to yawn.
“‘M not hungry.” he turns to face Baekhyun, and pauses when he realizes that it’s not his parents or brother or Junmyeon. “What are you doing here?” There’s so much venom in those five words that it hurts Baekhyun to have it directed at him.
“I’m here to talk to you. To make things right.”
“Make things right? Here I was thinking that the right this was for you and Taeyeon to be together.” All venom is now replaced with hurt. “How could you do that to me, Baekhyun?”
“Jongdae, listen. I didn’t do anything to you, as much as it might not look like.” Baekhyun attempts to grab Jongdae’s hand but his boyfriend pulls it away. Fair enough, he’s still mad. “Taeyeon had a few drinks. She came up to me, and she started talking to me. I realized she was flirting and gave her the hint that I was dating, which she should have known meant that I was uninterested. She started talking low, so I leaned down to hear what she was saying, and that's when she wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me. I didn’t kiss back, and I was too shocked to do anything for a brief moment. I was about to push her off when you saw us.”
“Your hands were on her hips.” Jongdae accuses.
“Yes, they were.” Baekhyun doesn’t deny. “But that was because I was getting ready to push her off. I came chasing after you, but you had already left by the time I got to where I thought you had gone. I’ve been calling you, texting you, snapchatting you, and even emailing you. But you didn’t answer.”
“I blocked your number. It’s childish, but I was so upset…” Baekhyun is alarmed by the few tears that start down Jongdae’s cheeks. “I thought you didn’t want me.”
Baekhyun gathers Jongdae into his arms and rubs his boyfriend's back as Jongdae cries into his shoulder. “Jongdae,” he starts, “If I didn’t want you we wouldn’t be together. I want you. I like you so much it hurts sometimes. Seeing you upset hurt me more than anything could have.”
Once Jongdae’s tears slow Baekhyun moves to take Jongdae’s face in his hands. Jongdae’s eyes are red, his nose is too. But Baekhyun doesn’t care as he leans forward to press his lips against Jongdae’s. Jongdae kisses back softly before Baekhyun pulls away. Jongdae looks confused as Baekhyun leans in for another kiss. “The last kiss I had was Taeyeon. I want to forget about her lips. I want to only know yours.” Baekhyun sucks Jongdae’s bottom lip into his mouth and gently nips at Jongdae's lower lip.
Jongdae kisses back with increasing intensity until Jongdae’s back is against his mattress as Baekhyun holds his hands and kisses him. Baekhyun sucks Jongdae’s tongue into his mouth a final time before pulling away. Jongdae’s lips are slightly swollen and wet with their spit, his hair even messier than it had been when Baekhyun first came, and his eyes are full of lust. Baekhyun can smell it too, but he looks down at Jongdae’s crotch for confirmation.
“That was…” Jongdae pauses to catch his breath. “Intense.”
“I can see.” Baekhyun teases, earning a whine from Jongdae as he turns around to bury his face in his blankets. “Want me to handle it?”
“My parents are home. Minseok and Junmyeon are here. That’s embarrassing. Last time you didn’t want to help me with my heat. What makes you decide you want to help?”
“I don’t need to stick my dick in you to get you off.” Baekhyun raises his eyebrows and his hands. “I’ve been told I have nice fingers. And, I always use my mouth. Why shouldn’t I use it to get you off?”
“My family is here.” Jongdae feebly tries to push Baekhyun’s hands away as they inch towards Jongdae’s sweat pants.
“You’ll just have to be quiet, won’t you?’ Baekhyun has a gleam in his eye as he pulls down Jongdae’s sweatpants, leaving the boxers up. He strokes Jongdae’s cock with his hand as he leans in for a kiss. “Think you can be quiet?” Baekhyun whispers against Jongdae’s lips.
Jongdae nods as Baekhyun pulls his cock out through the hole in the front of the boxers. Baekhyun jokingly holds his finger up to his mouth before he lowers his mouth to the front of Jongdae’s boxers. Jongdae can feel his warm breath against the head of his cock and he just wants to urge Baekhyun to do something.
Baekhyun opens his mouth wider as he swallows about half of Jongdae down. Jongdae throws his head back in a silent moan as the wet heat wraps itself around his cock. Baekhyun pulls back up. “You have to be quiet, or else I have to stop.”
Baekhyun must have done this before, though that’s not something Jongdae wants to think about, because Baekhyun knows just how to rub his tongue on the underside of Jongdae’s cockhead and the perfect intensity to suck. Jongdae thinks he’s had it all will Baekhyun starts moving his head up and down at a slow pace. Jongdae has to bring his hand up to bite his fingers as it gets almost too intense. Baekhyun seems to sense his as he pulls up.
“Good, you’re being quiet.” Baekhyun swallows him down again, only to have Jongdae cum almost as soon as his cock makes contact with the back of Baekhyun’s throat. Jongdae had thrown his head back as the orgasm washed over him, and he looks up from this pleasure induced haze in time to see Baekhyun’s adam's apple bob as he swallows Jongdae’s cum.
Baekhyun tucks Jongdae back into his boxers and pulls his sweatpants up before reaching over to the nightstand to get a drink of water. He offers it to Jongdae first, who takes a few gulps before Baekhyun himself downs the rest.
Jongdae sits up in his bed once more to pull Baekhyun close and kiss him.
“Jongdae I just sucked your dick, I don’t think-”
“Shut up. It’s my dick and your mouth.” Jongdae pulls Baekhyun down after the kiss, against the mattress, and pulls the blankets up over them. “Sleepy now.” jongdae informs Baekhyun, who chuckles under his breath.
“I did wake you up. Sleep.”
-
Baekhyun wakes up to him spooning Jongdae, an arm thrown across his chest. Jongdae is still very much asleep because soft snores are coming from him. What woke him up was the sudden light against his eyelids as Seoyun had turned the overhead light on.
“This isn't what it looks like,” Baekhyun says groggily, only for it to be brushed off by Seoyun.
“I didn’t say anything. I assume nothing. I figured I’d call you both down for dinner and see if you two wanted to watch the Avengers with us.” Seoyun tells Baekhyun. “If you’re staying the night you’ll have to borrow some of Jongdae's clothing. You should probably take a shower as well.”
Baekhyun waits until she walks out to wake Jongdae, who stretches out the moment he’s awake. Baekhyun swiftly dodges the fail of Jongdae’s arm. “Your mom just came in.” It takes a moment for Jongdae to process what that means and his eyes go wide once he realizes. “She said we should probably shower.”
Jongdae nods before throwing his legs over the edge of the bed. He looks Baekhyun up and down before nodding. Jongdae makes his way to his dresser where he opens two drawers to pull out two sets of clothes. He throws one at Baekhyun and keeps the other set in his hands. “I’ll show you the bathroom.”
Jongdae decides that it’s best if they shower separately, so he uses the hall restroom while Jongdae goes to shower in his parent’s bathroom.
They get downstairs right as the movie starts, and Seoyun and Dohyun make room for Baekhyun and Jongdae to sit on the couch so they can all watch the movie in comfort. Baekhyun feels like he’s become part of the family.
-
“When does your rut come?”
Baekhyun looks over at Jongdae, who is typing on his cell phone. The question came out of nowhere, and if it weren’t just Baekhyun and Jongdae sitting outside on the bench, Baekhyun wouldn’t have thought that Jongdae was talking to him.
“That was random.” Baekhyun says. “Mine is every four months, so it’ll be here in April. Why do you ask?”
“I don’t know.” Jongdae shrugs as he pockets his phone. “You know when my heats are, but I don’t know when your rut come.”
Baekhyun sits in silence as he thinks about it. “I guess you’re right. I never did tell you when it would happen, did I? Am I’m never around when it comes. I guess I thought you’d get the hint when I would avoid seeing you for a week.”
“But you’d still text me. How was I supposed to know?” Jongdae leans into Baekhyun. “I thought you had important school work to do. How was I supposed to know that you were rubbing one out in your bed?”
“And the shower.” Baekhyun muses. “I don’t know. Common sense?”
“I don’t know, common sense?” Jongdae mocks as he lightly elbows Baekhyun in the stomach. “Whatever. So it’s in a few weeks.”
“Yes.”
“What are you going to do about it?”
“The same thing I did last time. Rub one out in the bed and the shower.” Baekhyun smiles as he wraps an arm around Jongdae.
“You don’t want me to help?”
“Well, you do help.” Baekhyun rubs his hand up and down Jongdae’s bicep. “How do you think I’m able to keep rubbing one out? I think of your pretty face. Or I think of your lips around me. Or I think about me fucking you silly. But alas, my hand has limits.”
Jongdae covers his face to try and prevent Baekhyun from seeing the faint blush that creeps up his cheeks.”Don’t know if I needed to know that.”
“What did you think about last time you went into heat?” Baekhyun teases. “No need to be embarrassed about anything. It’s what couples’ do. They think about each other as they’re masturbating.”
“Usually,” Jongdae interjects. “Couples help each other out by fucking. You refuse to do anything too sexual.”
“I sucked you off last week.” Baekhyun acts as though he’s been insulted. “It was even a makeup blow job. I can’t believe you didn’t find that sexual.”
“You want to know the truth?” Jongdae talks low as a few people pass by the two.
“Of course I want to know the truth.”
“I’m so fucking sexually frustrated it hurts. All because of you.” Jongdae pokes at the hand that’s resting on his shoulder. “I would love for you to fuck me, but you won’t. It’s like a never ending case of blueballs with you. You won’t do anything.”
Baekhyun coughs and shifts in his place. “Uh,” he’s cut off by Jongdae’s rant.
“All my friends have healthy relationships that include sex, which I either hear about, or I see.” Jongdae pauses, “By see I mean hickies and shit like that, not me being a voyeur and watching them have sex.”
Jongdae falls silent, and Baekhyun thinks he’s in the clear before Jongdae finally says, “Why don’t you want to fuck me?”
Baekhyun has to laugh at Jongdae’s bluntness. “I do want to fuck you, but I’m not stupid. Your first heat with me, you weren’t on birth control. I don’t want to be a parent at eighteen. I’m just waiting for the right moment. I’m paranoid that for some reason the birth control will fail, that’s why I don’t want to do anything until you’ve had your second shot.”
“But that isn’t until June.” Jongdae groans.
“Patience, Jongdae. Patience.”
-
Jongdae [12:56PM]
I hope you’re having a great rut
Jongdae [12:56PM]
You imagining my ass?
Jongdae [12:56PM]
All you have to do is ask and I’ll be right over ^.^
Baekhyun groans at the message as he pumps his cock in short and fast strokes. Jongdae is doing this on purpose. “Fucking fuck, Jongdae.” Baekhyun groans as he throws his head back. The orgasm isn’t as satisfying as it could be, which sucks. Baekhyun knows that all he has to do is call Jongdae and tell him to come over, but he’s not going to break his resolve.
Baekhyun [1:01PM]
Thinking about shoving my dick in your mouth to wipe that smirk off.
Baekhyun sees the three little dots signalling that Jongdae is typing, but they go away just as quickly as they come. Baekhyun knows he’s won this round as he pulls the rest of his clothes off to go and take a cold shower. He still has his resolve.
-
Baekhyun finds that resolve wearing thin, especially since it’s the week before finals and all he’s been doing in studying. If he’s not studying with Yifan, Yixing, and Han, then he’s studying with Jongdae. They have their forms of stress relief, he can tell when Han comes in smelling more like Kyungsoo than usual, and when Yifan and Yixing are more touchy.
“You’re stressed.”
“A little.” Baekhyun looks up from his notebook to make eye contact with Han.
“A lot.”
“Yeah, a lot.” Baekhyun admits. “Considering that I have a borderline grade in the class, it’s all I can do to not have a B.”
“Most parents wouldn’t be ashamed by a B.” Yixing comments, looking up from his laptop screen. He’s making some last minutes edits for a thesis paper.
“I know. But my parents’ are smart. That’s why one’s a doctor and the other teaches at a university.” Baekhyun puts the notebook down before rubbing his eyes. “Besides, I’m right there. I just really want an A in the class.”
“What do you do to get rid of the stress?”
“Sleep.” Baekhyun tells them honestly. “I don’t have much time for anything else.”
“Not even Jongdae?” Han asks.
“I study with him sometimes, yeah.” Baekhyun looks back down at his book but his friends aren't letting it go so easily.
“Just study?”
“Yes. Just study.” Baekhyun looks up. “Jongdae and I have agreed on no sex until June. I’m not going to break that agreement just because I’m stressed during finals.”
“Jongdae and you agreed, or just you?” Yixing raises an eyebrow.
“Both of us?”
“You sure about that, Baekhyun?” Han leans forward to place his hand over Baekhyun’s notes. “Last time I heard, Jongdae was upset because you didn’t want to have sex with him. And before you ask, he was talking to Kyungsoo, not me.”
“I just want us to be safe and protected.” Baekhyun frowns. “The last thing I want is a baby that neither of us can take care of and have to give away. Birth control fails sometimes.”
The three around him make a small noise of understanding, because Baekhyun had been given away by his birth parents. Even though he never shows much emotion about it on the subject he must still feel strongly enough about it to not have sex.
“Alright then, back to calc…” Han smoothly turns the subject back to their studies. There’s an odd look on his face, but Baekhyun doesn’t bother to ask about it.
-
“Now?” Baekhyun groans as Jongdae wipes a bit of sweat from his face. “It couldn’t wait two weeks?”
“Hey, I think I feel what you’re feeling a little more.” Jongdae throws his head back against the wall. “Hell, I’d rather it happen the week of finals so I could at least finish studying.” Jongdae slams his book shut before stuffing it in his backpack. “Hopefully it’ll be over by the time my finals start.”
Jongdae stands up and Baekhyun stands with him. The two had decided to study outdoors in private, so they had sat down at the back of a building, facing the wooded area that was in front of them.
Jongdae isn’t expecting Baekhyun to grab his shoulders once they’re both standing.
Baekhyun practically slams Jongdae against the wall, shoving his tongue down Jongdae’s throat before the other can complain about any back pain. Jongdae doesn’t kiss him back for a brief moment, but Baekhyun soon finds Jongdae’s tongue battling his own.
Jongdae is kissing him as though he’s a dehydrated man finally getting water to sate his thirst. Baekhyun slowly places his right knee between Jongdae’s legs, spreading them. Baekhyun rubs against Jongdae’s semi hard cock, gripping it through the fabric of his jeans. This action makes Jongdae weak in the knees, but Baekhyun makes sure he doesn’t fall.
“Baekhyun?” Jongdae moans as Baekhyun leaves Jongdae’s lips alone to opt for leaving a trail of kisses down Jongdae’s glorious neck.’
“Hmm?” Baekhyun moans as he sucks a hickie onto Jongdae’s neck. Jongdae raises an arm to grab Baekhyun.
“What happened.. to no sex… until June?”
“Hmm.” Baekhyun buries his nose into the junction between Jongdae’s neck and his shoulder. Just smelling his boyfriend’s sweetened and intensified scent has Baekhyun growing harder in his pants. “This isn’t sex.” Baekhyun pulls away to look at their surroundings, making sure he has enough privacy to make his next step.
“Then what ar-” Jongdae’s voice is cut as Baekhyun’s right hand makes it to the back of Jongdae. Baekhyun’s fingers easily slip into Jongdae’s sweatpants and boxers, and Baekhyun goes even lower until he gets a hint of slickness on his fingers.
“What are you doing?” Jongdae gets a more completely sentence out. “Do you see where we are?”
“Of course I do…” Baekhyun slides his fingers down until they rub across Jongdae’ soaked entrance. “Do you want me to stop?” he whispers as he leans forward to kiss Jongdae’s lips. “You’re soaking wet. You’re lucky these sweatpants are dark, or else everyone would see how much you’re leaking. Is it always like this?”
“I…” Jongdae bites his lip as Baekhyun actually pushes a finger in him. In broad daylight. It’s odd, having a finger in him that isn’t his own, but he can’t say he’s opposed to it. Baekhyun has slim fingers that are longer than Jongdae’s own. That, along with his slick, makes it so that when Baekhyun adds another finger it isn’t as uncomfortable as it is when Jongdae has two of his own fingers in himself.
“You what?” Baekhyun pulls away to make eye contact with Jongdae. Jongdae nearly cums on the spot at the intensity of his stare. He forgets what the question is completely as Baekhyun pushes his fingers further into Jongdae. Jongdae can feels as the rest of Baekhyun’s hand presses against his ass.
“No? Yes? Maybe.” Jongdae inches his ass down just a little, just to get Baekhyun’s fingers deeper into him.
Baekhyun pulls his fingers out of Jongdae’s pants to get a good look at his fingers. He spreads the two apart that had been inside of Jongdae and watches as a thin trail of Jongdae’s slick stretches out between his fingers. Jongdae watches as well, and he thinks he’s going to faint right on the spot when Baekhyun brings those fingers up to his mouth and licks them.
“You taste so good.” Baekhyun doesn’t describe Jongdae’s taste to him, instead opting to bring those fingers up to his mouth to suck on. The taste is sweet, but not too sweet, along with the taste that Baekhyun would associate with Jongdae and no one else.
Baekhyun looks Jongdae in the eyes, then down at their crotches. Jongdae’s erection is slightly more noticeable because of his sweatpants, where Baekhyun’s is more uncomfortable because of his skinny jeans.
It’s looking into Jongdae’s eyes that brings Baekhyun back to reality. His boyfriend is in heat, and he just fingered him out in the public, when he should have gotten his boyfriend to his room as soon as possible. He reaches behind Jongdae to make sure that his pants are properly pulled up before taking Jongdae’s hand.
“We should get you back to your dorm.” Baekhyun mutters as he tries to pull Jongdae away from the wall. Jongdae is having none of it as he puts his foot down. Literally. Jongdae stops his foot as hard as he can, though it doesn’t make as much noise as he would have liked.
“What the actual fuck Baekhyun.” Jongdae yells. He doesn’t care if anyone hears his shout of anger. Baekhyun steps back, momentarily surprised. “How the fuck are you going to do what you just did, and just end it with ‘we should get you back to your dorm’? If you’re going to do that the least you could do is get me off. I have waited so long for you to just do something and you refuse to. Why? If you’re not going to help with this then don’t touch me at all.”
“Sorry?” Baekhyun isn’t sure how to approach the situation.
“Sorry? Sorry for what? For making me wait for sex? For leading me on? Baekhyun, if you don’t want our relationship to go further then just tell me. I would have liked to hope that my boyfriend of seven months, almost eight, would help me with my heat at least once but you refuse to. I’m so done with it. Take me back to my dorm. And don’t touch me.”
Baekhyun follows Jongdae’s instructions. Before Jongdae walks into the building Baekhyun mutters a soft, “I’ll… talk to you when this is over?”
“Yeah. I apparently need time to myself, right?” Jongdae turns around without saying goodbye to enter the building.
Even after a few days when the heat isn’t as intense, Jongdae doesn’t feel any guilt about snapping at Baekhyun, because he deserved it.
-
Jongdae had to take his finals all on the same day, about two days after the school year had ended. He feels bad for it because Minseok and Junmyeon have to stay behind to take him back home. When he walks out of his last final he scans the parking lot in search of Minseok’s car. His brother had told him that he’d be waiting outside yesterday.
Teacher cars are still there, but what draws Jongdae in is the black car that he’d know from anywhere. He narrows his eyes at it before the door opens and there’s Baekhyun, getting out the car and waving Jongdae over.
Jongdae reluctantly makes his way over. “What are you still doing here? School ended two days ago.”
Baekhyun shrugs. “I was waiting for you to finish your finals. I’m going to take you home.”
“Actually, Minseok’s supposed to take me home.” Jongdae says as he looks Baekhyun’s car over. “Thanks for the offer.”
“Actually,” Baekhyun begins his sentence as he walks over to Jongdae. “Minseok and Junmyeon went home yesterday.”
Jongdae raises an eyebrow in disbelief. “I don’t think Minseok would do that.”
“Well, he did.” Baekhyun opens the passenger side door and motions for Jongdae to get in. “After I convinced him that I’m able to safely get you home. If you don’t believe me you can check my trunk. Some of your stuff is in there. The rest is at your house.”
Jongdae knows Baekhyun has no reason to lie, so he gets in the car and Baekhyun shuts the door for him before making his way around to the other side. The car’s air conditioning has made it a relieving cool compared to the midday summer outside.
Baekhyun backs out of the parking spot and makes his way to the nearest highway that’ll get them home. It isn’t until they’re about thirty minutes into the drive that Baekhyun turns down the radio, the only thing that was keeping the car from having an awkward silence.
“Jongdae, I just want to say that I’m sorry.” Baekhyun doesn’t take his eyes off the road as he speaks. “I… I hadn’t realized how one sided the whole sex thing was. I guess I pressured you into agreeing with my ideas about sex.”
“Hmm.” Jongdae agrees without speaking a word.
“I’m just scared.” Baekhyun finally admits, causing Jongdae to look at his boyfriend in confusion. “I don’t want to risk getting you pregnant. We’re in college, Jongdae. We aren’t ready to become parents. And what if you did get pregnant and we’d have to give it away, for some unknown family to adopt? What if the family didn’t want us to see the baby?”
Realization dawns on Jongdae’s face as Baekhyun speaks more and more. His boyfriend is clearly getting more worked up about this subject, and Jongdae curses the fact that they’re in a moving car because he can’t get up and hug Baekhyun.
“If that were to ever happen, I don’t think I’d want that to put a dent in our relationship. Because I love you, Jongdae, and I don’t want something stupid like that breaking us up. But I’ve been an asshole and I’m pretty sure you think about breaking up with me at least once a month, and it hurts me because I love you so much, but I just didn’t know how to tell you.”
Jongdae turns and looks directly into the road, shock preventing him from saying anything. Baekhyun just told him he loved him. In the middle of a rant, he told him that he loves him. Jongdae now completely understands why Baekhyun was so hesitant to have sex. He understands why Baekhyun wants to wait. This overwhelming sense of guilt comes over Jongdae. Because while Baekhyun had been pressuring Jongdae, Jongdae had been pressuring right back.
He had probably had Baekhyun thinking about things that he didn’t want to think about. Jongdae should have been more considerate considering that it was his boyfriend, and he should know what does and doesn’t upset his boyfriend. In his own defense, Baekhyun never seemed to get too worked up about the subject of his adoption. Hell, Jongdae didn’t even know if Baekhyun knew why his birth parents had given him up. He wonders if it had something to do with what Baekhyun was talking about.
“I’m so sorry.” Jongdae begins, keeping his eyes on the road. “I am so sorry. I was being selfish. I was only thinking about myself and us on a shallow level, not a deeper one. I’m such a fucking asshole. I can’t believe I didn’t think about any of that.” Jongdae squeezes his knees with his hands. “I wish you had told me earlier, then maybe we wouldn’t be having this conversation right now, and some of these stupid arguments could have been prevented.”
“It’s alright, Jongdae.” Baekhyun’s grin doesn’t quite reach his eyes. “We’ll get over it now. Fresh start.” Baekhyun doesn’t wait for a response, instead he turns the music back up in the car and continues to drive.
It isn’t until Jongdae is home and in his bed that he realizes that Baekhyun said I love you, see you soon when he was dropped off and Jongdae didn’t say anything back.
-
“What’s got you so down in the dumps? Boy trouble?” Seohyun smiles as she helps Jongdae unpack some of his belongings. Minseok had told her that he didn’t need her help, so she went to her other son and guilted him into letting her help. She says it as a joke, but doesn’t expect her son to actually nod.
“Yeah, actually.”
“Again?” Seohyun begins to fold a few shirts out of Jongdae’s suitcase, because it’s obvious that he just threw them all in there. “What is it about this time?”
“Baekhyun told me he loves me.” Jongdae says it nonchalantly, hoping his mother would just shrug it off, but she freezes instantly at this news. This is this first and only child that she’ll hear this from, hear about the first ‘I love you’. She can’t mess this up.
“Oh? Did you say it back?”
“No.” Jongdae’s voice slips into a whine. “Mom, I don’t know how I feel. I really really like Baekhyun. But, at the same time I’m a little confused. He cares about us in more ways than I could care about us. I’ve spent so much time with him, but I don’t know if I love him. How did you know you loved Dad?”
Seohyun doesn’t know how to properly tell her son this, because it varies from person to person. And she tells him that, ending with, “Jongdae, you’ll know when and if you love him. Don’t be scared to tell him, either. Baekhyun loves you, he won’t shun you for saying that you love him back.”
Jongdae nods his head as Seohyun picks a pair of pants up. “Do you not know how to wash your clothes?”
“Mom.”
-
Jongdae and Baekhyun spend much of the summer together. Some nights Jongdae spends the night at Baekhyun’s, some nights Baekhyun at Jongdae’s. They’ve progressed to talking it out whenever they’d get frustrated at each other, instead of full on ignoring each other. Jongdae still doesn’t know if it’s time for him to tell Baekhyun he loves him, but each day he finds himself getting closer and closer to that moment.
-
It’s August, two weeks before school starts, when Baekhyun calls him up and asks if Jongdae wants to spend the week at his house. Jongdae doesn’t have to hesitate before saying no. Baekhyun’s voice sounds confused over the line.
“Why not?”
“My heat is supposed to start in a few days.” Jongdae informs Baekhyun.
“Well, I know that. My rut is supposed to start sometime this week. There’s a reason I invited you over for a week.” Baekhyun tells him. Jongdae pauses long enough for Baekhyun to ask, “Hello? Jongdae?”
“Oh, yeah. Uh, are you sure about this?” Jongdae’s heart is raising as he says this. If Baekhyun is completely sure, then this means but this time next week, he’ll know the feeling of having Baekhyun’s dick in his ass. Plus, his heat won’t last as long this time.
“Of course I’m sure. I’ve had all summer to think this over. If I wasn’t sure then I wouldn’t have called you and asked.” Baekhyun laughs. “Are you alright with that? If not it’s totally fine. We can spend our weeks furiously jacking off, if you’re more comfortable with that.”
“No!” Jongdae shouts, a chuckle seeping through the phone. “I’m fine with spending the week at your house. But what about your parents?”
“You think I wouldn’t ask them before calling you? I’m not going to risk my moms walking in on me pounding you into the bed.” Baekhyun pauses before a soft, “If we stayed in the bedroom. Besides the fact that they said it’ll be alright if you stay over, they also said that they’d be more than willing to leave the house to us if we promise not to destroy anything.”
“I guess if it’s okay with them…” Jongdae smiles, even though Baekhyun can’t see it.
“Good. Want to come over on Tuesday?” Baekhyun asks. “That’s a day before your heat starts. My parents won’t leave until your heat has officially started though, if that’s okay with you?”
“Oh, yeah. That’s fine, Baekhyun. I’ll see you Tuesday then?”
“Tuesday.”
Jongdae wastes no time in going to Junmyeon and Minseok, who only stare at him as though he’s a madman when he bursts into their room. The two are sat on the bed, watching the computer screen. They’re probably watching some show on Netflix.
“Baekhyun invited me over his house. On Tuesday. To spend a week.”
Junmyeon leans forward to tap the spacebar to pause the show. “Good for you?” he’s obviously confused to why Jongdae is telling them this, because he’s spent the night at Baekhyun’s house before.
“My heat is going to start when I’m there.”
That grabs Minseok’s complete attention as his eyebrows raise. He doesn’t want to seem like he’s completely opposed to the idea, because he knows his little brother and how just looking the wrong way could encourage Jongdae to do things. “Oh? Are you going to spend the week there then? Or did you tell him no?”
“I told him I was going to spend the week there.”
MInseok takes a few calming breaths before nodding. “Well. Have fun. Be safe. If you need us to get you just call.” Junmyeon looks at his mate and can tell that Minseok is seconds from losing it. But it’s Jongdae’s decision, and Minseok knows that.
“I’m kind of nervous, actually.” Jongdae says. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.”
“Do whatever you think is right.” Junmyeon shrugs his shoulders. “Baekhyun will treat you right to help you through the heat. He’s treated you right this entire relationship. Don’t stress too much over it.”
-
Hyesun and Solmi are who open the door for Jongdae once he arrives. They smile at him and motion for him to come in. “Good to see you again, Jongdae.”
“Hey, how are you two?” Jongdae gives them both a hug as Solmi takes his suitcase out his hand and Hyesun walks him to the living room, where Baekhyun is sitting and watching TV.
Baekhyun looks over at him with a smile as Hyesun walks Jongdae to the couch and waits for him to sit down before she walks away. “What was that about?”
Baekhyun shrugs. “They’re just being extra silly today. Probably because they know what’s going to go on in a few days.” Baekhyun pauses to look away from Jongdae, to see Solmi peering into the livingroom. She’s acting as though she doesn’t want to be seen, and fakes surprise when Jongdae turns to see her as well.
“What are they doing?”
“Playing games.” Baekhyun waves at his mother, who removes her head from sight. “They’re just excited and ready.”
“Ready for what? They’re not the ones having sex for the first time.”
“Ready for me to become a man?” Baekhyun jokes as Jongdae punches his shoulder.
-
Jongdae wakes up to a push against his shoulder. He assumes it’s Baekhyun, but Baekhyun’s sleeping on the other side of the bed from where the annoying poke is. He slowly opens an eye to turn to tell the person to stop, but doesn’t get the words out as Solmi brings a finger to her mouth to tell him to hush.
“Hyesun and I are about to get going.” she whispers. Jongdae isn’t sure why they’re going. His heat hasn’t started yet; they said they weren’t going to leave until his heat started. He goes to voice his question when Solmi continues. “Baekhyun’s rut started. Hyesun and I better get out of here and let you two have time to yourselves. Be safe. Be careful. Call us or your parents if you need anything. Tell Baekhyun we went to his grandparent’s house when he wakes up.” she pats Jongdae’s head before turning and shutting the door to Baekhyun’s room.
Jongdae doesn’t think he can go back to sleep now, suddenly aware of how Baekhyun’s scent is slowly intensifying. It’s assaulting Jongdae’s senses, he can barely think. He knows he should get some sleep though, because he’s never spent a heat, or a rut, with anyone, so he doesn’t know how much sleep he’s going to be able to get.
It proves difficult, but Jongdae falls asleep after burying his nose into Baekhyun’s pillow and thinking of things that aren’t his boyfriend.
Baekhyun wakes up to find himself rutting against something. He’s so used to waking up to himself grinding into a mattress or a pillow that he immediately knows that it is Jongdae’s body. Baekhyun musters it in himself to pull away from his boyfriend. He sits up in the bed and stares at Jongdae, who smells so unbelievably good. Baekhyun has to count to ten in his head to keep himself from ripping the blankets off of them both and going to town on Jongdae.
Baekhyun is sure Jongdae’s heat has started, and he knows for a fact that his own rut has begun. Baekhyun wants so badly to wake Jongdae up, but he doesn’t want to interrupt his boyfriend’s rest.
“Finally awake?” Jongdae croaks as he sits up on his side of the bed, eyes focused on Baekhyun’s rugged appearance. “I was waiting.”
“When did you wake up?”
“When you started rubbing your dick against my ass.” Jongdae stretched out, a yawn leaving his mouth. “I think your rut started my heat. Because I was not like this when Hyesun and Solmi left.”
“How do you know?”
“Solmi woke me up to tell me they were leaving. I thought that they wouldn’t go until my heat started up?” Jongdae throws the blankets off himself because he’s too hot under them. And before anything goes on he needs to brush his teeth because morning breath doesn’t seem like a nice taste to kiss to.
“They were expecting your heat to start before my rut did.” Baekhyun follows Jongdae to the bathroom, mimicking his boyfriend’s movements as he gets his toothbrush and toothpaste. “They wanted to leave before my rut may have started one of their heats.”
“But they’re your moms?” Jongdae speaks up over the scrubbing of the toothbrush against his tongue. “Why would your rut start their heats?” Jongdae spits the foams out into the sink and moves to the side so Baekhyun go do the same.
“Not biologically, so my rut can actually have some affect on them.” Baekhyun wipes his mouth and turns to Jongdae. Things have gotten awkward now that they’re in such a small space. They both know what’s going to happen, they just don’t know how they’re going to get there.
“Let’s go back to your room?” Jongdae suggests. Baekhyun nods in agreement.
Baekhyun pulls Jongdae into his lap as he pulls Jongdae’s face close so that he can kiss him. Jongdae’s knees are on either side of his lap so his ass is right against Baekhyun’s cock. Jongdae moans as Baekhyun thrusts his tongue into his mouth, almost as if Baekhyun is trying to fuck Jongdae’s mouth with his own tongue.
Jongdae wraps his arms around Baekhyun’s neck to pull him closer, a soft moan falling from Jongdae’s lips as he wiggles his ass against Baekhyun. Baekhyun retaliates by canting his hips up, a clear outline of Baekhyun’s cock nestling itself into Jongdae’s ass.
Baekhyun pulls away from Jongdae’s mouth to focus on removing Jongdae’s sleep shirt. It comes off of Jongdae without any fight, and Baekhyun gets a chance to marvel at Jongdae’s smooth skin that’s underneath the shirt. It’s not the first time he’s seen Jongdae shirtless, but it's the first time that he’s seen Jongdae so sweaty. It looks wonderful on him.
“Baekhyun,” Jongdae whines when Baekhyun stops what he’s doing to just stare. “Please?”
Baekhyun reaches down to grab Jongdae’s hips, lifting him off his lap. He turns them so he’s able to throw Jongdae onto the bed, giving Baekhyun the ability to pull Jongdae’s boxers down. He had been leaking enough for the slick to seep through Jongdae’s boxers and through Baekhyun’s.
Sure, Baekhyun had sucked Jongdae off, and fingered his ass, but he’s never seen Jongdae this exposed. He slowly spreads Jongdae’s legs, getting a great view of his boyfriend. His cock was curved towards his stomach, and down below Baekhyun could see the shine of the slick coming out of Jongdae’s ass. He remembers when he first got to taste it, now he wants it directly from the source.
He doesn’t think Jongdae is expecting Baekhyun to eat him out, because the second Jongdae feels Baekhyun’s lips on his rim his legs clamp shut in surprise. “Baekhyun? What are you doing?” Jongdae moans as Baekhyun pushes his legs away from his head.
“I’m going to eat you out. Is that a problem?” Baekhyun looks up from between Jongdae’s legs, and Jongdae looks down to make eye contact with his boyfriend. Baekhyun’s covered in sweat, a predatory look on his face. Jongdae can’t find it in himself to say yes, so he shakes his head.
Baekhyun givens a testing lick of Jongdae’s rim before pulling his tongue back into his mouth. He moans so loud that it embarrasses Jongdae. “Oh, why didn’t we do this before?” it’s rhetorical, and Jongdae doesn’t respond in risk of ruining the mood.
Baekhyun slowly licks into Jongdae, moaning again at the taste. He eats Jongdae out as though he hasn’t eaten or drinking for days. Jongdae’s slick just keep coming, a never ending supply of lube that allows for Baekhyun to slide his finger in alongside his tongue. Jongdae clenches around the latest intrusion, but eases up as soon as Baekhyun pulls away to allow more fingers to go into him.
Baekhyun’s fingers are small enough, and Jongdae is wet enough for Baekhyun to have three fingers inside of Jongdae without complaint. Baekhyun crooks his fingers just right, and more slick comes out. Jongdae moans as his back arches up.
“Did you like that?” Baekhyun puts a hand on Jongdae’s hip to give him leverage as he thrusts his fingers in harder, Jongdae groans. Baekhyun lowers his head to take Jongdae’s cock into his mouth. He bobs his head in time with his fingers. Jongdae’s hand lowers to Baekhyun’s hair as he grips it. It hurts a little, but Baekhyun doesn’t complain or pull off.
“Fuck, Baekhyun, I’m gonna cum.” Jongdae groans. Baekhyun won’t pull off, so Jongdae has no choice but to shoot his load down Baekhyun’s throat. Baekhyun pulls off and opens his mouth, showing Jongdae just how much cum Jongdae released. Jongdae watches in amazement as Baekhyun swallows without hesitation.
“Alright, let’s fuck this out. How’s that sound?” Baekhyun pulls Jongdae close to his hips by grabbing Jongdae’s legs and pulling him forward. Baekhyun slides his boxers off and begins to stroke himself. Jongdae, unable to take his eyes of Baekhyun, watches in amazement as Baekhyun’s dick grows slightly harder.
“Can I fuck you now?”
Jongdae is caught off guard by the question. He laughs, throwing his head back, before making eye contact. “Yes. Please. Fuck me. Baekhyun, please. I’ve been waiting so fucking long for you.”
Baekhyun nods at this verbal approval as he spreads Jongdae’s legs. Jongdae watches as Baekhyun grabs his cock once again and leads it towards his rim. Jongdae feels the heat of Baekhyun’s cock before it’s even fully in him. The moment the tip touches Jongdae’s hole he moans and slides his hips down. It’s enough to have just the head of Baekhyun’s cock in him.
Baekhyun can’t hold himself back any more as he slams his hips forward, slamming into Jongdae. The breath leaves Jongdae’s lungs as he slides up the bed just from the force of Baekhyun’s thrust. They don’t need any time to adjust, so Baekhyun makes quick work of getting Jongdae off.
Where an Omega needs multiple orgasms to calm a heat, an Alpha only needs one. Baekhyun leans over Jongdae, grabbing Jongdae’s wrists in his hands, having total control over the situation. Jongdae spreads his legs wider as Baekhyun thrusts deeper. Baekhyun makes eye contact to make sure that Jongdae is okay with this, and Jongdae leans up slightly to kiss Baekhyun’s chapped lips to assure him that it’s alright to be a little rough with him.
Baekhyun grinds into Jongdae as he feels his knot start to grow, trailing kisses down Jongdae’s chest until he can’t bend any more. He lets go of Jongdae’s wrists to move his hands towards Jongdae’s hips.
Jongdae’s face has gone red and his breath has gotten short with the promise of another orgasm. It doesn’t come. Instead, Baekhyun pulls out. Jongdae begins to look towards Baekhyun to ask him why he stopped, but Baekhyun flips Jongdae over so that his elbows are against the mattress.
Baekhyun enters again, lowering himself until his chest is against Jongdae’s back, and Jongdae’s torso edges ever so slowly towards the mattress as Baekhyun grinds, the beginning of Baekhyun’s knot rubbing against his prostate.
Jongdae doesn’t give any warning to his next orgasm, but Baekhyun can tell just from the clenching around his cock and the increase of breath. Jongdae’s cum splatters against Baekhyun’s bedsheet, but he doesn’t find it in himself to care as he pulls out and rubs Jongdae’s back, allowing for a quick breather.
“You alright?”
“Yeah,” Jongdae breathes out. “I think one more?”
“Alright.”
Jongdae pulls himself up and into Baekhyun’s lap. Baekhyun holds his cock up as Jongdae sinks down onto it, softly rocking his hips. Baekhyun can tell that Jongdae wants this to be slow, so it’ll go slow.
Baekhyun rests his hands on his hips, and while Jongdae maintains the pace, Baekhyun is doing most of the work as he lifts and drops Jongdae down onto his cock. Jongdae’s slick leaks down Baekhyun’s cock, resting in his lap.
“Baekhyun.” Jongdae moans when Baekhyun thrusts up this time. Baekhyun does it again, earning the same response. The faster he brings Jongdae down the faster Jongdae moans his name. Just hearing it has Baekhyun’s knot growing. As it pulls against Jongdae’s rim with increasing resistance he knows that it’ll soon be too big to pull out.
“Baekhyun.” the tone of this is different. Meaningful. Baekhyun focuses more on Jongdae’s soft whimpers and whispers, Jongdae gasping as Baekhyun’s knot pulls a little too hard against his rim, and Baekhyun knows he can no longer pull out.
Jongdae throws his head back, a groan loud enough to pop out the veins in his neck leaving his mouth. Jongdae sinks down and rides Baekhyun’s dick as intensely as he can, moaning as he feels Baekhyun’s knot swell even more.
Baekhyun can feel his cock throbbing in Jongdae, ready to unload. The sensation of Baekhyun’s nearly completed knot has Jongdae stopping from the stimulation. It’s almost too much. Then he begins once more, after catching his breath.
Jongdae doesn’t attempt to lift himself, instead opting to roll his hips so that Baekhyun’s cock feel every inch of his walls. Jongdae’s breath hitches, signalling that he’s almost there. That’s when he looks Baekhyun in the eyes as he leans down to pull his boyfriend in for a kiss. It’s slow, passionate, and filled with something. Jongdae now knows what this is. That feeling that’s been at the back of his mind and heart whenever he and Baekhyun are together.
“I love you.” Jongdae whispers as he pulls away, and just the emotion behind those words is enough to set Baekhyun off. His knot throbs as he unloads, filling Jongdae to the brim. Jongdae cums too, though he isn’t sure why this orgasm is the most intense one he’s had in his life. Baekhyun’s knot locks them together.
Baekhyun looks Jongdae in the eyes, now that there’s nowhere for either of them to go. “Are you sure, Jongdae? Are you sure?”
“Yes.” Jongdae nods, leaning forward to rest his head against Baekhyun’s shoulder. “This isn’t something that I’m just saying in a moment of heat. I love you, Baekhyun. I think I’ve just been too scared to admit it. I’ve been feeling weird ever since you told me you loved me. Now I know why.”
“Scared to admit you love me?” Baekhyun laughs as he kisses Jongdae’s sweaty forehead. “I said it first. I would have hoped that you would have gotten over all nervousness then and there. I wasn’t sure you loved me, but you never stopped and told me you didn’t.”
“Well, I love you. I hope you know that now. After all these months, you deserve to know the truth.” Jongdae grins as Baekhyun wraps his arms around him and pulls him close. “How long do you think we’re going to be stuck like this?”
Baekhyun shrugs. “Usually the books talk about how it can take up to an hour for newly mated couples to unknot. But, we’re not newly mated. I figure it’ll be about fifteen more minutes. Then we can shower and take a nap until it starts back up. How does that sound?”
“I love the sound of that.”
-
Baekhyun calls his parents and tells them that they can come back home the day after his rut ends. Jongdae’s heat had been broken a day before Baekhyun’s rut had. They both took long showers to get rid of the smell of sex and even washed Baekhyun’s blanket and sheets multiple times.
Hyesun and Solmi come home to find Baekhyun and Jongdae sleep on the couch, a movie on the TV screen. They take a picture for later embarrassment and to show Jongdae’s family before going up to their own room to nap in a familiar and far more comfortable bed.
-
Hyesun and Solmi invite Jongdae’s family over to dinner one night, insisting that they spend some time together before the kids all went back to school.
During their meal Dohyun speaks up after swallowing down his food. “I’ll be honest,” He grins as Jongdae looks towards him. “When Hyesun and Solmi insisted that we come over, I thought they were bringing us to show that Baekhyun and Jongdae had mated.”
Jongdae buries his head in his hands while Baekhyun awkwardly laughs.
“Me too,” Minseok agrees, adding to his brother’s misery. “How you two managed to get through the whole week without mating astounds me.”
“Do you two ever plan on mating?” Hyesun’s more reasonable question filters in. “If so, when?”
“We could do it right now if the subject would be dropped.” Baekhyun teases, making his way towards Jongdae.
“Not now, Baekhyun.” Jongdae grins and slaps Baekhyun’s hands away. “At least wait until after dessert.”
As the table laughs Baekhyun and Jongdae look at each other, and they share a look that says that they could get used to this.