The Open Door

[guardian_kysra]

First, I'd like to send out a hearty THANK YOU to everyone who made my birthday such a satisfyingly wonderful day. I needed love and I received it on all sides. I was truly touched, and I will thank everyone individually soon. I just have a lot on my plate at the moment

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[emaniahilel]

Job: They are beurocratic (too tired to spell) shitfags. And stupid ones, at that. How could they base their decision to lose an employee like you over what happened in the past? What in the bloody hell would they have to lose, seriously? NOTHING. If it didn't work out with you, they could fire you then. As you say: you are probably leaving now anyway.

Oh, it just occurred to me: they're bullies, too. They figure they can bully you into saying no to going back to school and they can still have it EXACTLY as they want it.

ricketfracker

Today is NOT the day to be messing with me, ES&H STUPIDHEADS!

Want me to sick 'em? I'll do it.

*grrrrrrr*

Family: I think you handled the situation beautifully. It's been my experience that people often say things they don't think about when they do say it. Even less do they think about what they say might make the person they say it to feel. My mom does that too sometimes. You know how I kept wanting to make her shut up every time she brought up how hard it had been for her to live through ME not passing the EOD or having my license. Of course our families and loved ones suffer with us whenever we have a stresful situation, but they can't possibly think they have a worse time of it than we do when we're the ones going through it. As I told my mom once, "It's MY career, mother...ultimately, it's MY life! Do you honestly THINK I don't feel bad about not passing the exam? Do you honestly think there is ONE thing that I havent' tried which I'm not willing to?" She stopped making a big deal about it when I told her "How do you think I feel every time I don't pass and I sit and wonder whether maybe the exam's right and I'm not smart enough to be a lawyer and should just give it up?"

But I think you handled it perfectly. You let them know in a non-threatening manner, non-argumentative manner, what you felt and how what they said made you feel and hopefully, now, she'll be a bit more aware of what she says and maybe will understand you a little so that she doesn't feel so depressed.

When I read what she said my first thought was that she was depressed because her daughter, which she cares about, is going through a tough time. Not because she is disappointed in you as a daughter or a person, but because you are going through this time and the fact that you don't mask what you feel makes her face up to what you're going through as opposed to being able to pretend everything's okay.

If you need to talk, hun, PLEASE let me know!

(I almost bitchslapped BL today, was snippy with her several times, to the point at the end of the day she said, "I'm sorry I was so crazy today...are you mad at me?" She was being crazy and wasn't listening to what I was saying and was making me go even more crazy b/c of deadlines and stuff, but I felt like a real heel when she asked me that. But yeah, our shared brainclonism strikes again...)