Adulting
I have these moments of anxiety where I obsess over thoughts of wtf I am doing with my life and how will I survive when I'm old. As if I'm heading towards being a hobo living by the river. Then I look around and see people way less prepared for life than I who do not seem to be worried about these things. I don't know where these thoughts and worries come from but they really cripple me with fear when they surface. I get wild thoughts of simplifying my life, finding the absolute cheapest run down apartment to live in and spending as little money as possible so I can hoard as much money as possible. I really am clueless as to how my life will be at 60, just as I had no idea what life would be like today in my 40's back when I was 20. I just want there to be enough familiar faces around, all relatively healthy and happy, with the occasional age inappropriate shenanigans.