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ok i know some of the people who read this are in iasas drama and i dont mean to offend any of you and im not getting mad at you probably anyway, but i just came back from a rehearsal and MY GOD am i doubting my sanity at choosing this over being asst. director for middle school play. I dont fit into the group at all. im the only sophomore, im the only one who's not an actor, and im back to playing the bitchy stage manager. THIS IS NOT WHAT I SIGNED UP FOR. its not fun. its not even interesting or educational, because all i do is sit there. seriously like the whole rehearsal today i was just texting jun. i was so close to breaking down into tears. im sick, i have a headache, and no one would listen to me or anything, they were just messing around. we started 30 minutes late. 30 MINUTES. and guess what?? after rehearsal is over, hoyes turns to ME and says "i thought we would get a lot farther today, i wonder why." (rhetorical question with a significant look.) LIKE ITS MY BLOODY FAULT PEOPLE WERE JUST MESSING AROUND FOR HALF AND HOUR. thing is, we've been through all of this before from back in apple tree. the majority of the seniors do not respect or listen to me. fine. then stop putting me in power positions.