everything secured
sometimes
to make the best of a situation
you have to change it altogether
because i'm so sick
and tired of waiting
for this life to happen to me
my time in laundry is almost over. so i went up to talk to the joc (journalist chief) about a little tad (temporary assigned duty) and he said he might be able to work something out with my bmc (boatswans mate chief). deck department is overmanned.
i invided my mom to come visit me when i come home from cruise. but i've been kinda worried about introducing her to lauren. she's just so judgmental of my girlfriends. perhaps i just need to aproach the situation differently in order to get a different response?
because of my brothers and their situation, my parents have continued to assume certain parental responsabilites. and it's kinda weird but it kinda makes sense too. and sometimes i guess i kinda slip back into a younger state when i'm around them so it's a continual downward spiral.
i need to step up to break that spiral.
water was secured today as we passed thru dirty water. so no showers for the crew. no laundry either. so people are walking around ship with dirty clothes and dirty skin. its nasty.
lauren and i came into the library the other day and this guy was taking forever to use the computer. he was emailing this slut across the room. lauren and i were both confused and she commented.
then the dude started looking at dildos. no fucking joke. so i said outloud so everybody could hear "what the fuck are you looking at? dildos and shit?"
and he responded as if it was nobodies business what he was looking at and that he could take all day if he wanted to. i guess he was a petty officer, but he was wearing a ABH (aviation boatswainsmate handler) jersey. it's baisicly a blue turtleneck.
"you probably think your hot shit dont you?" i asked him
"what are you going to do about it?" he asked
"you probably think you're so fucking cool?" i asked
"are you going to do something?"
and i just roll my eyes.
"do you think there is something wrong with looking at dildos?"
"yes"
"valentines day is comming up" he said
"you know what? you can take all your dildos to your rack and dream up all the dildo fun you want but when you're in here wasing my time, thats when there is a problem."
and i just left it at that. he might have made some comment but i didn't listen to him.
i saw him again today. he romped into the lybrary shouting about how he was going to "write some motherfuckers up" becuase he got his ass written up by his supervisor for not doing what he was suposed to be doing and he didn't think it was fair or something? then he sat down at a computer and started his bullshitting again.
some petty officers are just downright retarded. actualy, most are.
like when sh2 williams told me i shouldn't try lifting the soda because i "have no upper boddy strength" i was about to smack that hoe.
chief is always talking about us down in laundry as if we are running a club. the singing and dancing isn't sailor like and must come to an end! i almost asked chief if we could get a blacklight and a disco ball. i think that would go over well?
oh man i think it would be so rad for moralle and everything if we had a "switch racks with the captain" program. for one day, the winner of the raffle would clean up his rack for the captain to come sleep in his berthing. and then he'd go stay in the captain's state room for the night.
i'd laugh so hard to see the captain in deck berthing.
or even if it was cmc. he's always making sailors the challenge to keep their berthing clean enough for their mom and dad to come use the toilet and not feel uncomfortable. i can't even use the toilets without feeling uncomfortable. escpecialy now with all the rattling and banging of the pipes. its fucking spooky!
every morning i wake up feeling sick. i think its the small pox shot. its been a week and it feels like i pulled a muscle in my arm and under my arm and all over my skin is sensative to cold. i have a headache every morning until lauren hooks me up with teh drugs. and then i'm high in the sky!
anyhow...
i'm so sexualy frusterated. i want to makeout. i want to lick your ear and suck on your tongue...
to make the best of a situation
you have to change it altogether
because i'm so sick
and tired of waiting
for this life to happen to me
my time in laundry is almost over. so i went up to talk to the joc (journalist chief) about a little tad (temporary assigned duty) and he said he might be able to work something out with my bmc (boatswans mate chief). deck department is overmanned.
i invided my mom to come visit me when i come home from cruise. but i've been kinda worried about introducing her to lauren. she's just so judgmental of my girlfriends. perhaps i just need to aproach the situation differently in order to get a different response?
because of my brothers and their situation, my parents have continued to assume certain parental responsabilites. and it's kinda weird but it kinda makes sense too. and sometimes i guess i kinda slip back into a younger state when i'm around them so it's a continual downward spiral.
i need to step up to break that spiral.
water was secured today as we passed thru dirty water. so no showers for the crew. no laundry either. so people are walking around ship with dirty clothes and dirty skin. its nasty.
lauren and i came into the library the other day and this guy was taking forever to use the computer. he was emailing this slut across the room. lauren and i were both confused and she commented.
then the dude started looking at dildos. no fucking joke. so i said outloud so everybody could hear "what the fuck are you looking at? dildos and shit?"
and he responded as if it was nobodies business what he was looking at and that he could take all day if he wanted to. i guess he was a petty officer, but he was wearing a ABH (aviation boatswainsmate handler) jersey. it's baisicly a blue turtleneck.
"you probably think your hot shit dont you?" i asked him
"what are you going to do about it?" he asked
"you probably think you're so fucking cool?" i asked
"are you going to do something?"
and i just roll my eyes.
"do you think there is something wrong with looking at dildos?"
"yes"
"valentines day is comming up" he said
"you know what? you can take all your dildos to your rack and dream up all the dildo fun you want but when you're in here wasing my time, thats when there is a problem."
and i just left it at that. he might have made some comment but i didn't listen to him.
i saw him again today. he romped into the lybrary shouting about how he was going to "write some motherfuckers up" becuase he got his ass written up by his supervisor for not doing what he was suposed to be doing and he didn't think it was fair or something? then he sat down at a computer and started his bullshitting again.
some petty officers are just downright retarded. actualy, most are.
like when sh2 williams told me i shouldn't try lifting the soda because i "have no upper boddy strength" i was about to smack that hoe.
chief is always talking about us down in laundry as if we are running a club. the singing and dancing isn't sailor like and must come to an end! i almost asked chief if we could get a blacklight and a disco ball. i think that would go over well?
oh man i think it would be so rad for moralle and everything if we had a "switch racks with the captain" program. for one day, the winner of the raffle would clean up his rack for the captain to come sleep in his berthing. and then he'd go stay in the captain's state room for the night.
i'd laugh so hard to see the captain in deck berthing.
or even if it was cmc. he's always making sailors the challenge to keep their berthing clean enough for their mom and dad to come use the toilet and not feel uncomfortable. i can't even use the toilets without feeling uncomfortable. escpecialy now with all the rattling and banging of the pipes. its fucking spooky!
every morning i wake up feeling sick. i think its the small pox shot. its been a week and it feels like i pulled a muscle in my arm and under my arm and all over my skin is sensative to cold. i have a headache every morning until lauren hooks me up with teh drugs. and then i'm high in the sky!
anyhow...
i'm so sexualy frusterated. i want to makeout. i want to lick your ear and suck on your tongue...