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you fucking moron. you had everything you wanted and you fucked it up. you fucked it up so badly that now she cant even trust you as a friend. she cant even be friends with you because of how much you fucked everything up. she cant forgive you because you had to be the dumbest person alive and not think about anything you were doing. what the fuck man, you didnt even have fun doing that shit. why didnt you realize what was important in your life while it was happening. everything is fucked up now and it's all your fault you asshole. you are going to regret this forever. there's no one who can take the place of her. she was fucking perfect for you and you couldn't see any of that. everyone else is going to be second rate compared to her. what the fuck did you do. she cant even take being friends with you. you know you have fucked everything up so much when the person that would let almost anything slide because she wanted to be with you so much doesnt want to be with you anymore and even worse doesn't want to be your friend anymore. i hate this. i hate myself.