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i dont know why i only post my love problems in this so now i will try to avoid that and talk about whatever. i tried to swim this morning and couldnt really get going. i felt like stopping after warmup so i got out and talked to lim for awhile and got back in for a little while and pushed through my urge to get out which worked for awhile. i really hope i start enjoying swimming again. it was such a good way for me to release stress and an excellent way for me to keep in shape and stuff. i have lots of different sources for motivation to draw from like going to Indianapolis at the end of summer for nationals, nationals at tech in the winter, or just to make Leah happy again. hopefully i will wake up in the morning and feel like getting out of bed to go to practice.
coaching starts tomorrow also, i dont really know if im ready to do this either. im not really a loud person and i dont know what will happen if i lose control over the kids or anything like that but i guess i can just hope for the best and work from there.
i baked something today. it was actually pretty fun. i dunno if it was cause i actually enjoyed it or because it just let me get my mind off things temporarily. but i think i will start doing more of it.
i guess that is it for now. i think ima start writing in this more often again and hopefully it will be another source to get my mind off of everything.
im sure all the of the entries will be long and boring and meaningless so dont read if you dont want to.
bye
coaching starts tomorrow also, i dont really know if im ready to do this either. im not really a loud person and i dont know what will happen if i lose control over the kids or anything like that but i guess i can just hope for the best and work from there.
i baked something today. it was actually pretty fun. i dunno if it was cause i actually enjoyed it or because it just let me get my mind off things temporarily. but i think i will start doing more of it.
i guess that is it for now. i think ima start writing in this more often again and hopefully it will be another source to get my mind off of everything.
im sure all the of the entries will be long and boring and meaningless so dont read if you dont want to.
bye