I'm Calling This My Bitch Journal
Oh journal, how I complain to thee! What's this week's complaint? Oh, nothing out of the ordinary; the same immature actions keep surrounding me when I don't want them.
I have a sore throat that has been with me all week and I haven't had anytime to sleep. Needless to say, I'm looking forward to Saturday night. I was supposed to go out with my friends from work but I'm afraid I'll have to postpone it.
Thanksgiving is only a week away; tis my favorite holiday. I used to love Christmas but it's way too commercialized for my liking anymore. Thanksgiving is good times with good people while eating some real good food. I keep making sure everyone I know has some place to go for Thanksgiving. My mom went to college out of state and she didn't have enough money to come home for Thanksgiving so she was all alone. She always tells me to make sure if I know someone who isn't doing anything for Thanksgiving to invite them to our house so they're not as lonely as she was.
Thanksgiving also means I get to see my Jare-bear!!! I feel so spoiled this year for my friends have been in a great line-up. I saw Lori in the beginning of September, I saw Bridget in October, I saw Moesha this month, and now I get to see Jarred. Diva and I also will be getting our "us time" on. Yay for close friends!
Distance truly is the best test of any relationship. I'm so terribly busy and I don't have a lot of freetime. I have 5 classes, I work 25 hours a week, I'm very involved with BVN (Black Volunteer Network), and I'm doing an internship at my other volunteer organization AFSC (American Friends Service Committee) where we deal with the complications of prisoners. I'm going crazy!
So, here's where my not-so-bitchy-but-crabby part comes in. I understand that I'm busy but not everyone else does. It thrills me when I talk to some people and we just pick up right where we left off regardless of the time that has passed. That is how my relationship is with my close friends and that makes me so happy. I'm sorry to those that I have not been in contact with but I don't like getting reamed behind my back for being a horrible friend. I can't stand it when I find out information in a round-a-bout way. Tell me to my face if I'm bothering you, if my life decisions have bothered you, but do not assume that I know you are mad at me and that I should fix it. Fix what exactly? One thing I do like about being busy is that I'm a lot more focused and I don't have time for petty things that don't matter. Don't get me wrong, I'll make time for you most definitely, but it's a two way street-are you willing to make time for me or is it I that has to initiate the healing process. It's like a cut that you get: if you hurt yourself but you shake it off and keep on doing what your doing, but it's not until you see yourself bleeding that you realize the pain is a lot more tha what you thought it was. I don't even know if that made sense, but you know how my mind works, it works for me...not so much anyone else (hahahaha!).
Ok, I'm done. Time to volunteer from 10:00pm-2:00am again (I told you I was busy!)
One week til pure bliss...
I have a sore throat that has been with me all week and I haven't had anytime to sleep. Needless to say, I'm looking forward to Saturday night. I was supposed to go out with my friends from work but I'm afraid I'll have to postpone it.
Thanksgiving is only a week away; tis my favorite holiday. I used to love Christmas but it's way too commercialized for my liking anymore. Thanksgiving is good times with good people while eating some real good food. I keep making sure everyone I know has some place to go for Thanksgiving. My mom went to college out of state and she didn't have enough money to come home for Thanksgiving so she was all alone. She always tells me to make sure if I know someone who isn't doing anything for Thanksgiving to invite them to our house so they're not as lonely as she was.
Thanksgiving also means I get to see my Jare-bear!!! I feel so spoiled this year for my friends have been in a great line-up. I saw Lori in the beginning of September, I saw Bridget in October, I saw Moesha this month, and now I get to see Jarred. Diva and I also will be getting our "us time" on. Yay for close friends!
Distance truly is the best test of any relationship. I'm so terribly busy and I don't have a lot of freetime. I have 5 classes, I work 25 hours a week, I'm very involved with BVN (Black Volunteer Network), and I'm doing an internship at my other volunteer organization AFSC (American Friends Service Committee) where we deal with the complications of prisoners. I'm going crazy!
So, here's where my not-so-bitchy-but-crabby part comes in. I understand that I'm busy but not everyone else does. It thrills me when I talk to some people and we just pick up right where we left off regardless of the time that has passed. That is how my relationship is with my close friends and that makes me so happy. I'm sorry to those that I have not been in contact with but I don't like getting reamed behind my back for being a horrible friend. I can't stand it when I find out information in a round-a-bout way. Tell me to my face if I'm bothering you, if my life decisions have bothered you, but do not assume that I know you are mad at me and that I should fix it. Fix what exactly? One thing I do like about being busy is that I'm a lot more focused and I don't have time for petty things that don't matter. Don't get me wrong, I'll make time for you most definitely, but it's a two way street-are you willing to make time for me or is it I that has to initiate the healing process. It's like a cut that you get: if you hurt yourself but you shake it off and keep on doing what your doing, but it's not until you see yourself bleeding that you realize the pain is a lot more tha what you thought it was. I don't even know if that made sense, but you know how my mind works, it works for me...not so much anyone else (hahahaha!).
Ok, I'm done. Time to volunteer from 10:00pm-2:00am again (I told you I was busy!)
One week til pure bliss...