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Okay, well, this is going to be very difficult for me to write. I am a female freshman in high school. I was fairly sure that I like-liked guys. I had a boyfriend! Granted, it didn't work out, but still. Whenever I would even sometimes think that I might like girls, I would remember that I had a boyfriend. But even when I was with him, I couldn't help... well, I can't think of any other way to say it, but wishing he was a girl.
But it's more than that. I think that I'm attracted to one of my best female friends. I'm just really confused right now... I mean, I don't feel anything for members of the opposite sex. My friends will be talking about how cute a guy is, and I just don't see it. It's so frustrating. And even my very best friends, the ones who know everything about me... I don't think they'd be very supportive. My parents definitely wouldn't be, as they openly dislike homosexual people.
I just don't know what to do. I don't even know if I may be over-reacting... Maybe I just haven't found a really, really good guy yet? Maybe I'm just really, really close to this female friend? I don't know... Does anyone have any advice? It's sort of embarrassing to admit, but I'm really scared.
But it's more than that. I think that I'm attracted to one of my best female friends. I'm just really confused right now... I mean, I don't feel anything for members of the opposite sex. My friends will be talking about how cute a guy is, and I just don't see it. It's so frustrating. And even my very best friends, the ones who know everything about me... I don't think they'd be very supportive. My parents definitely wouldn't be, as they openly dislike homosexual people.
I just don't know what to do. I don't even know if I may be over-reacting... Maybe I just haven't found a really, really good guy yet? Maybe I'm just really, really close to this female friend? I don't know... Does anyone have any advice? It's sort of embarrassing to admit, but I'm really scared.