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first off, i can just tell that this post is gonna be long because i want it to be...so ha...second...why is it when i t should be the best times of my life and everyone else is having a good time...and yet i force myself not to...i mean its just really weird...i mean i know i COULD have gone and shit like that but it was just like...iuno...i just dont see the point of going to parties unless i really wanna go...ok...backstory...tonight is the 3rd of birgadoon...and one of the cast members has some big ass fucking house and all these people were like OH i have to go...just because this guy has a big house...BIG FUCKING DEAL...i dont care how big your fucking house is...i guess i just look at the world differently...because i mean its like...why invest money into a big house or iunno...i dont even care...but yeah...so im just sitting here...really fucking bored...when i should do some hw or do something productive...i just sit here and stare...ok now thast over...let me update everyone that doesnt see me everyday...
1. i was fired like mid march or something...and then it took me like a whole month to get a job back with the school/district...now instead of working for LRHSD and chew i now work for cudemo and cherokee...so its not much different...just titles...whatever...no big fucking deal but its actually working out better for me...considering im a work-a-holic...both of my pay checks have beaten any amount of time i had during thre year as a tech...now im hitting 20 hours a pay period...which to me is HUGE...its nice to have money to save and spend...WOOO...but im really working alot...im staying at cherokee till like fucking 5:30/6 at night...which i guess i may be the only person that could ever care less...i just chill...YAY...
2. stage crew is just fucking pissing me off...i mean on an overall stand point i just am bored...i have like 3 fucking moves and i just dont care anymore...theres not excitement...theres no new friendships really being made...its just me, my nomad, and the rock...me asleep on the rock listening to music half the show...wow...i know...im a dork...
3. im really starting to think about my future...about being a fiber optic technician/fiber optic anything...and im really pumped...im pumped to get away from cherokee...iunno the school is really good to me...and i mean i love the environment...but ive outgrown it...i mean i feel like fucking alice from alice in wonderland in the one part when shes too big at the house and she like fucking gets stuck inside...i feel like thats me...i mean me being just to big in a figurative sense of like mentally...kinda i guess...and just being stuck there...oh well its only one more fucking year there...
4. anyone who says taht me getting co-op at cherokee is a bad thing...i mean i cant wait...i get out of class early so i can go and get paid...YES...who the fuck wouldnt want that...and i mean im still at cherokee...but i love the fucking place...i know so many people and im so fucking comfortable...
5. i really should give up on kat...i really should...there should be a backstory here...but i could care less...and this is me just venting...ok so yeah...i mean i still like her...and with what she told me...i guess i just feel like im being hung...but with myself like an inch from the floor so that i have that much of a chance...but its so far away...if you get the analogy...
6. stage crew brought one thing good out of it...well 2...me meeting amy sax...who is like the coolest most awesomest person EVER...like literally...shes the type of person i wish i knew forever...because shes got alot of the same tastes as me...(high fidelity thing...if you dont get it then ill explain here...*in the book they say that people dont go for what you're like...but what you like...if you get that...then good...*)...so yeah...shes just so cool...and stage crew this year has brought me closer with steph...just to be able to hang out with her...shes so sweet and nice and everything...im glad shes finally happy with arnold...so yeah...
7. i wanna hear a decent excuse for why anyone would get a myspace...i mean i get it...in concept...its a livejournal and shit with more...but iunno...its just gotten out of hand...i mean i use my live journal just to read whats going on with my friends lives...but whatever...just whatever
8. im emo...
9. if you have a problem with me being emo then discover what emo is...its called emotional...and you arent emotional then you're in-human...and your a fucking beast...so why are people always like...emo = bad...its fucking people expressing their emotions the way that they want them to...just had to say that...
10. i guess im done...oh...new foo fighters album...june 14th...i hope its the shit...
thats it...
1. i was fired like mid march or something...and then it took me like a whole month to get a job back with the school/district...now instead of working for LRHSD and chew i now work for cudemo and cherokee...so its not much different...just titles...whatever...no big fucking deal but its actually working out better for me...considering im a work-a-holic...both of my pay checks have beaten any amount of time i had during thre year as a tech...now im hitting 20 hours a pay period...which to me is HUGE...its nice to have money to save and spend...WOOO...but im really working alot...im staying at cherokee till like fucking 5:30/6 at night...which i guess i may be the only person that could ever care less...i just chill...YAY...
2. stage crew is just fucking pissing me off...i mean on an overall stand point i just am bored...i have like 3 fucking moves and i just dont care anymore...theres not excitement...theres no new friendships really being made...its just me, my nomad, and the rock...me asleep on the rock listening to music half the show...wow...i know...im a dork...
3. im really starting to think about my future...about being a fiber optic technician/fiber optic anything...and im really pumped...im pumped to get away from cherokee...iunno the school is really good to me...and i mean i love the environment...but ive outgrown it...i mean i feel like fucking alice from alice in wonderland in the one part when shes too big at the house and she like fucking gets stuck inside...i feel like thats me...i mean me being just to big in a figurative sense of like mentally...kinda i guess...and just being stuck there...oh well its only one more fucking year there...
4. anyone who says taht me getting co-op at cherokee is a bad thing...i mean i cant wait...i get out of class early so i can go and get paid...YES...who the fuck wouldnt want that...and i mean im still at cherokee...but i love the fucking place...i know so many people and im so fucking comfortable...
5. i really should give up on kat...i really should...there should be a backstory here...but i could care less...and this is me just venting...ok so yeah...i mean i still like her...and with what she told me...i guess i just feel like im being hung...but with myself like an inch from the floor so that i have that much of a chance...but its so far away...if you get the analogy...
6. stage crew brought one thing good out of it...well 2...me meeting amy sax...who is like the coolest most awesomest person EVER...like literally...shes the type of person i wish i knew forever...because shes got alot of the same tastes as me...(high fidelity thing...if you dont get it then ill explain here...*in the book they say that people dont go for what you're like...but what you like...if you get that...then good...*)...so yeah...shes just so cool...and stage crew this year has brought me closer with steph...just to be able to hang out with her...shes so sweet and nice and everything...im glad shes finally happy with arnold...so yeah...
7. i wanna hear a decent excuse for why anyone would get a myspace...i mean i get it...in concept...its a livejournal and shit with more...but iunno...its just gotten out of hand...i mean i use my live journal just to read whats going on with my friends lives...but whatever...just whatever
8. im emo...
9. if you have a problem with me being emo then discover what emo is...its called emotional...and you arent emotional then you're in-human...and your a fucking beast...so why are people always like...emo = bad...its fucking people expressing their emotions the way that they want them to...just had to say that...
10. i guess im done...oh...new foo fighters album...june 14th...i hope its the shit...
thats it...