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[grubbyfeet]

I was thinking about my last post and how I probably come across sometimes as this hardcore uhhh feeler. Great. My vocabulary has left me now that I finally sit down to blog. Ok... let's try this. In my youth I was very fierce. If I believed something or in something I had no problem letting people know. I would fight and march and all that. These days I do laundry. LOL Every once in a while I think about these people lighting themselves on fire for things or against things and I try to take stock on what in the world could get me that worked up these days. I don't come up with a very long list anymore. Anything harming children will of course bring me to tears and rage, but other than that, the list is pretty short. I'm not sure when that changed. I wonder if the people who knew me back then think I have, like, given up. Or settled. Or whatever. Maybe it seems like when you neuter a dog and they get all docile. It's not like my marriage neutered me or anything. If anything it gave me perspective. And my husband gave me the security to not only work through my shit, but love me while I was doing it. So I may not be super political or get fired up about things. And I guess I don't really care how it comes across. I guess I will leave that for the young people who have less laundry and dishes and all that.
Lillian is awake...termination of adult thinking in 3......2.....1