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I'm really worried about Kip. This deployment sucks in so many ways. Now I'm terrified about our future. I called Jessie to try to get some help, but now I'm even more scared. And Ben just got to Afghanistan yesterday; I'm curious to learn where he ends up.
I just don't know what to do about Kip. Plus, odds are we won't be speaking til R&R. And the four times we've spoken since Christmas have not really been good. He sent me a super nice email about a week ago, but...I'm very worried. This really, really sucks. And so few people know and so few people care. I actually had one ex-friend tell me that there were reasons they were up at 3am and they just didnt care. That had me pissed off for about a second until I realized I could just tell them to fuck off and my life would not really be any worse off. Not that I think the world revolves around me; I just think if that's someone's reaction, they really aren't a friend.
I just don't know what to do about Kip. Plus, odds are we won't be speaking til R&R. And the four times we've spoken since Christmas have not really been good. He sent me a super nice email about a week ago, but...I'm very worried. This really, really sucks. And so few people know and so few people care. I actually had one ex-friend tell me that there were reasons they were up at 3am and they just didnt care. That had me pissed off for about a second until I realized I could just tell them to fuck off and my life would not really be any worse off. Not that I think the world revolves around me; I just think if that's someone's reaction, they really aren't a friend.