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Click to viewThis song is my latest addiction.
I am going fucking crazy without Kip. Tomorrow will be 6 weeks. I am well aware of the fact that, while Kip's living conditions are deplorable and we rarely talk, he's way better off than he was in Iraq his first deployment and he's a fuck load better than the reserves and national guards men and women who were sent before the war started. They had 18 month deployments and little to no communications with their loved ones.
Nonetheless, this sucks. There is SO much going on here. My mother is threatening to take us to court for grandparent's visitation rights, and she wants to be able to come pick Daegan up, take him away and bring him back. Uh, no. Even if she wins the trial, one parent has to be there to supervise. More importantly, she doesn't have grounds for a case. She'd have to prove a longstanding relationship (seeing him often or having had primary custody of the child for a period of time. Neither of my parents saw Daegan before he was 8 or 9 months old. It's been erratic and honestly I don't think he'd recognize them. He doesnt have names for them (diane is mama, tom is papa). AND the primary reason a court would seriously look at these matters is when the parents are divorced and like, say i had custody, and I wasn't letting Kip's parents see him. Since out marriage is in tact, and we made a joint agreement, our lawyer says that we should be fine and there's no grounds for a case.
And Pirate! I had to board her for 2 1/2 weeks. She was aggressive at first because she was terrified, but they she settled down and the lady loved her. Now, she's at Kip's friend's house about 15 minutes away. He breeds beagles and had an extra kennel outside. It's not ideal, but she can't get in any trouble out there. Daegan and I are going to go see her today, as soon as it gets late enough that Kip probably won't call. Her boarding bill was almost $300. ugh.
I don't want to be alone in NY. I don't think I want to move back until Kip comes home. But we have to go out there for R&R cuz he has to do promotion paperwork. It'll be awesome if he gets promoted again; he'll be a first sergeant and an extremely young on at that (most don't make e8 until they've been in more than 15 years). I just don't want anyone to find me. Or talk to me. Or try to threaten or bully me.
They had a rumor going around too that Kip was home. I swear to fuck I have no idea where they come up with these things.
Sigh. I just miss him so much. I miss his voice. I worry about him. I used to never worry about him. I was confident in his abilities. But after what happened to his driver and the people in his truck...It's hard not to worry.