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Seriously.Miss.My.Husband.
If I didn't know it would have been way worse in 2002 (Reserves, National Guard), I'd be feeling pretty sucky. But even talking once every....uh....almost up to 6 weeks....is way better than every 4 months for 10 minutes. So I don't really have anything to bitch about.
This is the last thing I heard from him:
Hi my love,
Things have been more busy and stressful than any other time in my career. I read through all the emails and went to the MWR which was closed due to lack of personel. everybody is still well but things are picking up. I will call soon, I promise. Until then I love you very much.
___
What worries me if the "any other time in my career" part. This is his 4th deployment, so that's not anything new, and he was a damn drill sergeant, so that was no picnic....So this is the worst time for him and he's had to also deal with my CPS problems, my Pirate problems, my court problems, my Daegan problems, etc etc etc. Although to be fair, his radio silence is pretty much like not dealing with any of my problems so hmm...
I loooovve being in Illinois. I love the house and the space, I love my parents, I love my brothers and sisters and brother- and sisters- in law, I love how happy Daegan is to be here, I love how we're saving money, I love how we're more connected to Kip, I love how we're not being bullied or threatened (or not in any way that can actually affect us more than giving me the random headache). I'm glad to have friends who have been through the exact same thing. I'm the third one among my friends.
I know Kip is trying to stay in NY but honest to god, I'd give anything to be sent somewhere else. Where no one knew where we were; where no one could find us. As it is, there are rumors circulating that I am back in NY and Kip is home. None of which is true. Honest to god, I don't know who makes this shit up or why it is repeated, but I'm seriously sick to death of it. There's the whole cliche about in laws being horrible, but if I didn't have my in laws, I'd have no one.
For the most part, I try not to think about Kip. It helps me not worry and it helps me not wallow. But I almost feel at my breaking point here. I am REALLY hoping he will call tomorrow, because it's Daegan's birthday. Kip has missed all of Daegan's birthdays -- except his, you know, actual birth. He was totally there for that after taking his sweet time getting to the hospital ;)
3:27 am :) The best time ever. Well, the best time ever for me birthing a child. And a special remembrance and thank you to geoff. Let's all hear it for Geoff the anesthesiologist!! Thank you for the fentanyl and then my pain free, giggle inducing epidural. My baby is three years old at 3:27 am and I couldn't be more proud of him.
Kip knows we're safe and cared for. Hopefully that's enough to keep him going.
"you have my heart in your hand.
You have my heart so dont,
dont let it go.
check my pressure,
patch me right up.
Your too good to be."
If I didn't know it would have been way worse in 2002 (Reserves, National Guard), I'd be feeling pretty sucky. But even talking once every....uh....almost up to 6 weeks....is way better than every 4 months for 10 minutes. So I don't really have anything to bitch about.
This is the last thing I heard from him:
Hi my love,
Things have been more busy and stressful than any other time in my career. I read through all the emails and went to the MWR which was closed due to lack of personel. everybody is still well but things are picking up. I will call soon, I promise. Until then I love you very much.
___
What worries me if the "any other time in my career" part. This is his 4th deployment, so that's not anything new, and he was a damn drill sergeant, so that was no picnic....So this is the worst time for him and he's had to also deal with my CPS problems, my Pirate problems, my court problems, my Daegan problems, etc etc etc. Although to be fair, his radio silence is pretty much like not dealing with any of my problems so hmm...
I loooovve being in Illinois. I love the house and the space, I love my parents, I love my brothers and sisters and brother- and sisters- in law, I love how happy Daegan is to be here, I love how we're saving money, I love how we're more connected to Kip, I love how we're not being bullied or threatened (or not in any way that can actually affect us more than giving me the random headache). I'm glad to have friends who have been through the exact same thing. I'm the third one among my friends.
I know Kip is trying to stay in NY but honest to god, I'd give anything to be sent somewhere else. Where no one knew where we were; where no one could find us. As it is, there are rumors circulating that I am back in NY and Kip is home. None of which is true. Honest to god, I don't know who makes this shit up or why it is repeated, but I'm seriously sick to death of it. There's the whole cliche about in laws being horrible, but if I didn't have my in laws, I'd have no one.
For the most part, I try not to think about Kip. It helps me not worry and it helps me not wallow. But I almost feel at my breaking point here. I am REALLY hoping he will call tomorrow, because it's Daegan's birthday. Kip has missed all of Daegan's birthdays -- except his, you know, actual birth. He was totally there for that after taking his sweet time getting to the hospital ;)
3:27 am :) The best time ever. Well, the best time ever for me birthing a child. And a special remembrance and thank you to geoff. Let's all hear it for Geoff the anesthesiologist!! Thank you for the fentanyl and then my pain free, giggle inducing epidural. My baby is three years old at 3:27 am and I couldn't be more proud of him.
Kip knows we're safe and cared for. Hopefully that's enough to keep him going.
"you have my heart in your hand.
You have my heart so dont,
dont let it go.
check my pressure,
patch me right up.
Your too good to be."