femme w/ a capital "F"
i'd like to add that i identify as a queer femme. i'm still figuring out what that is, but i know i'm femme because i'm not conventionally feminine. for a long while i rebelled against anything feminine because i was sure being feminine meant being weak and victimized. now i know that's not necessarily the case; especially when you're femme. i didn't know the difference then.
what's interesting now is knowing that fairly soon, the world will not see me as queer when my partner and i walk hand in hand down the street. they will see a husband and wife - a white, heterosexual couple. knowing that i'll lose my visibility feels a bit like suffocating at the moment. long gone are the days when i bore everything obnoxiously rainbow-themed and shaved my head to prove how queer i was. now i'm me. and i happen to be married to a man.
so what now?
what's interesting now is knowing that fairly soon, the world will not see me as queer when my partner and i walk hand in hand down the street. they will see a husband and wife - a white, heterosexual couple. knowing that i'll lose my visibility feels a bit like suffocating at the moment. long gone are the days when i bore everything obnoxiously rainbow-themed and shaved my head to prove how queer i was. now i'm me. and i happen to be married to a man.
so what now?