~*where you invest your love....you invest your life*~
*and now my heart stumbles
on things i don't know
my weakness i feel
i must finally show*
so youtube.com-ing it this morning checking out some new bands...thanks to those who like to share with me... :)
and thinking...as i am so apt to do...wondering thru the hallways of my thoughts...glancing in each room...at each picture that hangs...sliding my hand down the wall...as i walk...
and i am not sure what to do about somethings....and even less sure about others...so maybe walking...and talking...might bring some of the answers i seek...even if walking i am doing is a moonwalk...back thru time...to keep the future from just being life on repeat...you have to look behind..
so what is your definition of insanity...the best that i have seen...is doing the same thing...over and over again...expecting a different result...and i wonder how many times i have done this...i wonder how many times i have thought that i could change things...without changing anything...but i have learned that doesn't work...sometimes the best self reflection comes when you are the only one looking in the mirror....when there is no one to face but yourself...and i have realized that i am harder on myself than anyone else could be...that i judge myself much more harshly...
i am a major multi-tasker...currently i am listening to music...typing here...washing my sheets...and doing my toes... :) i love to have pretty feet...and i have realized that it is much more work with all the martial arts...plus have you ever noticed that glitter nail polish never wants to come off...like ever....and i really need to re-paint my toes more often...i have obviously smashed my toe...and didn't even know it...i think i will use my *what's a tire jack* and do a *flashy fuchsia* tip...i love french tip...and it doesn't always have to be white...:) i even file my toe nails so that they are pretty...sleep with a special lavender lotion on the footsies....with my special sleep shoes...so that they stay uber soft...okay enough about feet...
i wish i had a razor blade...i need to trim my bangs...so that they fall right...over my eyes...with out being all the way in my eyes...but one thing at a time right...how my mind likes to take flight...in 15987 directions at once...i am so digging the band white lies...
*don't lay a finger i said...
but he held her with five
kissed the crest of her lips
and put his hands on her thighs*
*he said theres no hope
but babe you can wait for that dove
she screamed from the window
so is this the price of love
said is this the price of love
said is this the price of love*
so again...i am back to thinking...and i love the way that it was put...that i am the art and beauty...and is it weird that i don't want to date around...that i have no desire to play all of those games...that i have no need to invite that into my life right now...some seem to think so...but i know what i want...and i know that i don't want to settle for less...than the rest of my life...and some may say how will i find that if i don't date around...but i think that i will just know...*a sentence that stops me like a brick wall*...and one day it will happen...and i will live out my very own faery tale...understand that i know that you have a life of your own...i just wish that you could be a bigger part of mine...but then again...everything in its own time...isn't that what they say...a time for this...and a time for that...it is all about timing...and where you're at....
i think i will take sissors to my bangs...lol...i mean if i start work tomorrow...i want them to be a little better than they are...since i am learning all of these oh so nifty things to do with my hair...and if i have to wear my glasses...then i don't want it to fall all wrong...
jake---> for always being there to listen...for always reminding me how wonderful you think that i am...and for always being so wonderful...by just being yourself...(((hugs))) and all kinds of love...
faith---> be strong...i am sure that what you are going thru will get better...and remember to charge your phone!!!
crys---> all i have to say is wooooo....lol... and how happy i am for you...with those eggies in a blankie...
cole---> don't worry...and don't fret...work on yourself...and nothing else yet...
and that is all...for now...for everyone to see...i am going off to do the things today...that i must do for me...yeah...i just heard the washing machine...beep...
today---> laundry...sheets and all...vaccuum...dishes...2 belt classes...and then kick-boxing and p90x...hopefully i can walk tomorrow...since i have to drive...:) and finding out where i will be working...that should be high on my to do list... :) i am always here...most of the time...