Frustrated.. Stupid Guys.
I don't get it... I like this guy.. and he acts like he likes me too... and he says things that makes me think he might like me... SO WHAT THE FUCK IS HIS PROBLEM???? I feel like I've dropped enough hints and made it *clear* I want to see what could happen between the two of us... So *WHY* is he not doing anything about it??? How big of a picture do I have to draw for him???? Or maybe I'm just reading him all wrong... But I seriously doubt it.. we have CHEMISTRY.. I LIKE this guy.. and for the first time in FOREVER I feel like I dig a guy who digs me too...
I don't like being baffled.. and I don't like second guessing myself... and I only like the chase when I'm more than sure that my heart won't be shattered... :-(
I just don't get it.. I made a specific attempt to do things DIFFERENTLY this time... is it possible that I, yet again, read a situation entirely wrong?? Or perhaps I did something wrong.. *BUT* that seems impossible because I haven't even had a chance to DO anything!! ...
I don't understand.... I HATE this feeling... I hate putting myself out there just to get rejected time and time again...... I normally have enough events happen in order to convince myself that I just did something wrong.. but I really don't think I've DONE anything to sabotage myself...
I HATE feeling vulnerable.. I suppose technically that's my own fault. I shouldn't put expectations on people. BUT then I tell myself that I should never settle for anything less than I deserve. and if I DON'T put expectations on people then that could result in SETTLING.. and that's not good either.. SEE what the problem is? I constantly play both sides of the scale with myself....
I don't get it... I truly don't. And TO FURTHER BAFFLE ME.. he'll say things that only a guy that LIKES you would say... not things that a dude who's less than INTERESTED would say... so what the problem is???????
OR PERHAPS.. he's just a natural flirt, as am I... perhaps he's just having innocent fun and *I'M* the one taking it to a whole new level.
Yeah, I'm just an idiot. When a guy likes you, there's no question. I knew when he liked me.. he would call every day and it was just DuH.. so he's obviously lost interest or just realized that I'm not so much his type...
This SHOULDN'T bother me since TECHNICALLY I don't know him all that well... so why is it taking every ounce of energy not to burst into tears???
....hrmmm... but if he doesn't think he's good enough for me, I don't know if that's a battle I can win... I hate the fact that one of my motto's is "Anything worth having is worth fighting for."
I wish for once things would come easily to me.. I wish for one I didn't have to always battle for what I want. I'm tired of life being so hard. Why has it been chosen that I can't be happy with someone? Why is it that I excel in every other aspect of life, but when it comes to love and relationships I just can't win... ????
...Fuck it all.
I don't like being baffled.. and I don't like second guessing myself... and I only like the chase when I'm more than sure that my heart won't be shattered... :-(
I just don't get it.. I made a specific attempt to do things DIFFERENTLY this time... is it possible that I, yet again, read a situation entirely wrong?? Or perhaps I did something wrong.. *BUT* that seems impossible because I haven't even had a chance to DO anything!! ...
I don't understand.... I HATE this feeling... I hate putting myself out there just to get rejected time and time again...... I normally have enough events happen in order to convince myself that I just did something wrong.. but I really don't think I've DONE anything to sabotage myself...
I HATE feeling vulnerable.. I suppose technically that's my own fault. I shouldn't put expectations on people. BUT then I tell myself that I should never settle for anything less than I deserve. and if I DON'T put expectations on people then that could result in SETTLING.. and that's not good either.. SEE what the problem is? I constantly play both sides of the scale with myself....
I don't get it... I truly don't. And TO FURTHER BAFFLE ME.. he'll say things that only a guy that LIKES you would say... not things that a dude who's less than INTERESTED would say... so what the problem is???????
OR PERHAPS.. he's just a natural flirt, as am I... perhaps he's just having innocent fun and *I'M* the one taking it to a whole new level.
Yeah, I'm just an idiot. When a guy likes you, there's no question. I knew when he liked me.. he would call every day and it was just DuH.. so he's obviously lost interest or just realized that I'm not so much his type...
This SHOULDN'T bother me since TECHNICALLY I don't know him all that well... so why is it taking every ounce of energy not to burst into tears???
....hrmmm... but if he doesn't think he's good enough for me, I don't know if that's a battle I can win... I hate the fact that one of my motto's is "Anything worth having is worth fighting for."
I wish for once things would come easily to me.. I wish for one I didn't have to always battle for what I want. I'm tired of life being so hard. Why has it been chosen that I can't be happy with someone? Why is it that I excel in every other aspect of life, but when it comes to love and relationships I just can't win... ????
...Fuck it all.