..BaFFLeD..
and I thought I was the craziest monkey of them all!!! .. but I think I've encountered someone who's baffled me for the first time in a while...
Most people who get to really know me quickly realize that I have a LOT of layers that you have to get through before I'm REALLY jessica.. I initially come off as quite the smartass, very sarcastic, very.... I guess ditzy for lack of a better word. And yes, I'm always down for good times and I'd rather be laughing than crying. But people just leave it at that most of the time. it takes me a while before I'll really open up and talk from my heart to someone. Why do I do this? Because I'll take someone's rejection a lot easier as long as they're not rejecting the me inside. if they're just rejecting my crazy exterior then fuck it, it doesn't matter. all of my scars come from people who I let inside and they ran away...
But now I'm starting to wonder if that's been such a good idea.. yes I accept the rejection easier when it's not REALLY me they're rejecting, just all my FLAVA, but I'm starting to wonder if it's time for me to trust this big wide world with my heart again... bah.
Most people who get to really know me quickly realize that I have a LOT of layers that you have to get through before I'm REALLY jessica.. I initially come off as quite the smartass, very sarcastic, very.... I guess ditzy for lack of a better word. And yes, I'm always down for good times and I'd rather be laughing than crying. But people just leave it at that most of the time. it takes me a while before I'll really open up and talk from my heart to someone. Why do I do this? Because I'll take someone's rejection a lot easier as long as they're not rejecting the me inside. if they're just rejecting my crazy exterior then fuck it, it doesn't matter. all of my scars come from people who I let inside and they ran away...
But now I'm starting to wonder if that's been such a good idea.. yes I accept the rejection easier when it's not REALLY me they're rejecting, just all my FLAVA, but I'm starting to wonder if it's time for me to trust this big wide world with my heart again... bah.