It's only after you lost everything, that you're free to do anything
I find myself at the reins again of an uncontrollable beast. I have not been sleeping, and this cycle is tending to repeat itself more frequently. My mind is burning fast, and I can't shut it off, or pretend it's not there. It's a sharp madness that fires on all cylindars in every direction. It's happening now more frequently, where I cannot be still, and I end up staying up for days. I am Jacks total lack of reason. I half expect some form of a Tyler Durden, to appear and putting me on a spiritual quest of ruin and freedom. Things are irratic lately. I fell off the wagon of a great many things this week, much to my distain.
Adding to the total shit storm, my bookshelf is turning Judas on me. It's a tall wooden structure that holds most all my media. I have a bunch of stuff on top of it, for lack of appropriate room. I had a sculpture that was given to me as a gift from Jess. It was inspired by tree's illustrated by Dr. Suess. And It sailed off the top into the night and smashed into a million pieces. Son of a monkeys asshole. That really makes me sad. What the hell am I supposed to do now? She really wanted me to have it, and it just had to be ruined. I really don't know what I'm going to say the next time she shows up. The truth is the obvious answer, but it's gonna suck. Not only that but my treasured Bahamut decided to commit suicide as well. He was also placed up there to grace my room in his glory. I've had him for 10 years, he was the FF8 Bahamut, the first ones they brought out. I guess he decided his summoning was over. His one wing broke off, and half a leg. Although he is fixable, since the wing just broke out of it's socket, all though it needs to be glued back. The leg was also part of a mechanism, and can be glued. He isn't dead yet..but it's still a pain in the ass. It just happened a few minutes ago, and with my fury I wanted to grab that wooden monstrocity and toss through my window into the abyss. Screw it.
In other news, I definatly need an Artist. I want to begin making comics, and stuff again. I want to continue producing works, so I guess my only resource is this here MySpace.
Also I hear that Rob Zombie is trying to get the job as director for the new Conan movie. I rumble with excitement, hope he gets it.
Also they're making a Thundercats movie, and I continue to ask myself why? I mean it was a neat cartoon and all, and I watched it as a kid, but I just don't see how that can be on film, and not be silly. I'm not sure if I talked about this before.
Well I gotta shower, get some grub, and go to class.